I forgot that I came out as a pup.

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    Oct 01, 2011 11:22 AM GMT
    I couldn't remember much when I was a pup, thinking back.

    I had blocked out alot of my childhood, not because it was bad, but I grew up in a small town and lived in a straight world with older brothers.

    Recently, I had someting happen and everyday since, I remember more from when I was younger.

    I was maybe 12 and went camping a couple times with my friend who lived next door, and we slep together. It was great!

    I got lost in it all since Ilike to kiss and I was so horney and if I liked him better, I am sure we would have done it more.

    My brothers set me up more than once, they can be such dicks sometimes, but I still love them anyways. icon_biggrin.gif

    I use to somke weed when I was in high school. Man did I get messed up before school with my soon to be sister in-law. She is a killer blonde chick with a nice ass who drove a blue 69' camero. Muscle cars ruled then. I had a 69' chevelle SS 396 in high school.

    Well. back to the weed. I use to get high with my one brother who lived in a large city. I drove down during the weekends after highschool. One day when he asked me if I had a girlfriend, I told him I had a problem.

    I was attracted to certain guys, not just anyone, but certain ones.He said he knew that. I asked how he knew and he said, " you sleep with the kid next door when you were younger. Wow, did I, I asked. I didn't remember.

    So, that opened the flood gates and I let it out and told him everything. I must be gay then I said. I like guys. That is weird but that is me.

    Years go by with me just looking, I got caught once in a while looking at guys, but no big deal. I could not help but look at their bulge and ass.

    Then I met a hot blonde dude at work. I was crazy for him. I had to have him. I wanted to fuck him so bad it hurt me.

    I invited him one night to my house for a couple beers and I was so nervous I couldn't do anything at first, but he helped me and in the end my dreams came true.

    funny shit,,,,,







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    Oct 01, 2011 11:57 AM GMT
    Hilldweller saidI couldn't remember much when I was a pup, thinking back.

    I had blocked out alot of my childhood

    funny shit,,,,,

    It is indeed, funny & almost unbelievable to those who haven't been there. I came out in a single 24 hours, and a hundred suppressed memories came flooding back to me. I guess I was doing my own repression therapy.

    And what was interesting to me was that many of these gay memories hadn't been entirely forgotten. I might randomly recall them sometimes, but rarely 2 at the same time. So that I never "connected the dots" and didn't perceive the whole big picture.

    But on that one day, it was almost an out-of-body experience, and I imagined my mind as having been all compartmentalized, a secret forgotten memory in each chamber. And one by one the walls fell down, and I saw and understood everything at once. I connected the dots, and the picture they made was unmistakably gay.

    Was your own experience anything like that? And BTW, it was a good thing, I cried for happiness as it happened, and I've been happy ever since, to have come in from the darkness. icon_biggrin.gif
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    Oct 01, 2011 12:34 PM GMT
    .........very much so. I even forgot at times, sorta in a way, that I was gay.


    crazy.......The more I say I am gay the less gay I am. I better not say it any more or I won't want to be gay. Sometimes I wonder if I am really gay or do I just need a friend.


    damn I think too much!!!!