Think what you are trying to 'say' is hold-back in telling others you are gay, rather than going back into the closet. For years when I was younger I kept my private life - ie -sexuality - private. But now that I am married and older, find I am not going to censor who I am. Example: I deal with patients in a busy hospital daily but would never think of introducing myself as 'Hi, I'm Scott, your gay porter ready to take you upstairs'. But when talking to a coworker, feel I can share the fullness of my life which includes telling stories about my married life. Just like any other married person in the workplace.
Now, if you are saying you were pretty wide-open, free, and 'slutty' and wrote your phone number down on every campus bathroom wall beginning with, 'For a good time call...' chances are it won't be an open-and-shut case to put the proverbial Genie back in the bottle...lol