inuman said[quote][cite]Lenne said[/cite]Well Im going to just talk
So, I am about to graduate, and I have to move out By the end of july. or july first. I have no job, no money.
What do you have to move out then, are your parents kicking you out?
[quote]I just am so used to things coming easy for me, Just happening for me. I have been SO lucky. But then again My life feals so stagnant, I hate that. and I want to move, But its like everything costs money. to move forward I have to Pay to be happy I have to pay, to to...Like Try to Do anything with out money...at some point You feal So LOST Like WTF WERE AM I HOW CAN I GET OUT OF HERE![/quote]
I know it seems hard when your looking at it but once you get your feet wet in the real world waters, it's not that bad actually, every decission is yours and your alone (unless your seeing someone and you both want to discuss things first).
[quote]I want to be able to say "I can go here and feal Like its ok" and then I wonder...How is this all going to work out, is it harder because im gay, will it get harder. Some times I just want to dissapear.[/quote]
being gay is hard at first but over time it's just a piece of who you are, not what you are. Don't get to stressed and worried about it.
[quote]Like I have to admit to you all. Like every since I logged in here And read your posts and your about me's and your guys I would like to meet.
I think I got scared, like I dont Know If I want to be apart of this community because, I tried to be somthing Im not because so many guys are like "I dont want femmes." but not in the way that its nice, almost like. HEY you can be gay. but don't be femmene, because We want that stero type to dissapear.[/quote]
Man I'm sorry you got that passed onto you by others here and or felt like that. Not everyone hates feminine men, so you a feme boi, big deal. Everyone has an image and it takes guts to be the real you, even in the face of odds like the ones you've faced (guessing here).
[quote]Im sorry then I can do that. Yes I am femme, Not super femme But I am. And Im happy with who I am. And It may take a hella long time for me to find a nice guy But Im willing to wait, Just so I can say I took the time.[/quote]
Dude I'd give you a hug right now cause I think you need it. Seriously one day you'll find your man. You've gotta have faith and your going to have guys always tell you to be something your not and it's rather pathetic that we as a gay community have to do and say these things but it's the way we operate.
[quote]I looked inside myself. If being femme is bad then Im sorry I can be empathetic. Im sorry I dont fear What people THINK of me.
I dont want to be a girly girl boy. I always wanted to Be like a stong woman. Not pussy.[/quote]
Don't change just cause of a few people and don't become jaded over this, becoming negative is never a good thing. Sometimes you just got to shrug it off in order to move forward.
[quote]And now figure out Just how Scared so many gay men are. they are scared...WTF.
I ran out of words[/quote]
Yes but so is every group and minority in the world, pointing it out isn't going to help anyone.
[quote]One last thing on a differaint subject. Yes I know That Trangender people are "differaint" but we should not cast them from our community because of that We are the community we ae because so many Of use with differainces banded togeather. Its so pointless when People Pick and choose And make titles for things...You seperate us..By doing that...and in the end We just destroy peices of this valuble community that is FAR from perfict.[/quote]
I know it's mean and by far from fair but life's not fair and it's never going to be, we have freewill and it's that freewill that let's us be who we want to be, either by our own or others influencing us. One thing you must always do though is be honest to yourself, it's the only thing you can do against these things.
I hope that helps some man.
I apreciate this, thank you.