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    Oct 17, 2011 1:24 PM GMT
    I hadn't talked to my older brother for 3 years.

    I recently went thru something tough which I don't understand yet and I called him out of the blue. We talked and it made me feel better. He called me back the next night. My brother is a tough straight guy, a fighter type in his younger day, but cool with most people.

    Sometimes I think is just freakin crazy.

    He calls me back and I find he is going thru a tough time with his job. He makes very good money and the sales people fuck up his day with stress.

    He lives in a large city a few hours away from me. He is crying to me saying he loves me. He is asking for my help by expolring my recent incident which I can't or would fully explain since it has to do with me being gay, I think.

    He tells me I have it so good. I bought a ranch near a lake in beautiful countryside. Everything is paid for. I like the people I work with. I have it really good, he says. I see that I reply. So what is bothering you he asks. You can always talk to me he states. I think could I really.

    I don't say what really bothers me at times, I can get lonely at times and would like to meet someone I am attracted to.

    All I can offer him is hope that a better life is coming for him. We will go out in a small canoe on the lake that I live near and fish.

    Sometimes I get weak and life is tough you know, but we have to be strong.
    he says. Yea, I know so be strong and I will to I said.

    crazy shit..........I am gay telling my older brother who I always looked up to, be strong.
  • DCEric

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    Oct 17, 2011 1:44 PM GMT
    We all have our own challenges, sometimes they are more obvious, sometimes they are not, but there are very few people who truly walk through life easily.
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    Oct 17, 2011 1:53 PM GMT
    DCEric, we also talked about what you say and how lucky our family has been even though we lost an older bother a several years back. He was hit by a car and killed.

    The more close I get to people at work, the more lucky we seem to have been to make it this far and that everyone goes thru tough times.

    we all need help at times and need each other, more at times.
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    Oct 17, 2011 7:01 PM GMT
    We don't get to choose our family. Kudos on healing the relationship.