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We all have dark side. For some it is significant, for others, hardly detectable. How do you channel your darkness so there are few if any casualties? Art? Music? Video games? Teasing feral cats? Boxing? Hiding dildos and cock rings in the mailboxes of religious fundamentalists? Shooting inanimate objects? Top Chef?

I think rugby did it for me, but no more rugby, so now I yell at teenagers from my porch. j/k ;-)

(If you don't think you have a dark side please refrain from participating in this thread. It's not your opportunity to emphasize how happy and well adjusted you are. Besides, if you're advertising it, you're probably lying anyway.)

i guess my dark side is ...

when i get depressed ... or sad ... or angry ...

i go shopping ...

and i usually shop at banana republic ...

or gap ...

or macys ...

i shop and shop even if i don't really need those dress-shirts ... or tee-shirts ... or whatever ...

and i realized that my dark side is kind of expensive ...

now i try to avoid getting depressed or sad, so that i would also avoid shopping ...

i mean, the price of gas is so high at this moment, and its affecting shopping & everything ...

but sometimes, i just cannot avoid being depressed or sad ... and i always ended up shopping ...

an indulgent love of vampires- i watch a good vampire movie, or play vampire bloodlines on my computer and go on bloody rampages killing everyone in the city :p

or i spend way more than i should on something like a tiffany bracelet.

or i listen to dark music.

but just as often i'll vent the frustrations or morose mood with exercise or meditation. i hear ya though- sometimes you just have to let yourself feel it.

My work is pretty creative, so I get to funnel a lot of my more unkempt energy into that. Also, listening to music that expresses my darker impulses. And of course there's always sexual outlet.

Either I sing my fool head off, or I veg out playing video games where things blow up spectacularly.

I channel mine by reading angsty gundam wing yaoi fan-fiction and/or listening to Shostakovitch String Quartet No. 8. I also watch Interview with the Vampire occasionally. It's all very cathartic and stress-relieving stuff. Most of the time though I don't need to delve into my darkness because playing trombone on a regular basis takes away all my tension.

Definitely music. And gym replaced binge eating.

MchEngnr86 saidI channel mine by reading angsty gundam wing yaoi fan-fiction and/or listening to Shostakovitch String Quartet No. 8. I also watch Interview with the Vampire occasionally. It's all very cathartic and stress-relieving stuff. Most of the time though I don't need to delve into my darkness because playing trombone on a regular basis takes away all my tension.

Trombone used to be my outlet for a while too. Best instrument ever. :-)

Music and exercise. My best workouts often come out of my dark moods.

Food is another big one. Preparing and eating good meals.

I go read a book.

my other dark side is ...

i just love love love to eat pizza ...

but pizza will make me fat even if i go to the gym regularly ...

so in order to avoid eating pizza everyday, i buy only papa john's pizza ...

because papa john's pizza is kind of expensive ...

but i really cannot avoid eating pizza ...

so to embrace a little bit of my dark side, i decided to make every friday my "papa john's pizza day" ...

yummy !!!

good topic.

I spend time alone... I love photography so I go take pictures out here and there.... then I come back and spend lots of time editing them on the computer.

I also shop when I'm in a bad mood. A new pair of jeans is a really good cure-all

innerathlete saidFood is another big one. Preparing and eating good meals.

There's no darkness in that (unless you're poisoning people?). ;-)

Me reading the title of this thread is like sharks coming across a bunch of chum in the ocean.

I remember when I crossed over to the dark side. I was around 13 or 14. A bunch of friends and I would go to Temple Beth-El on Tuesday nights where Bingo was being played by people of a certain age. They played in the basement. In the summer, the basement windows, which were at foot level at the side lawn of the temple, were always open. We'd hang out outside the windows and wait until a reasonable amount of bingo numbers were called and then one of us would shout "BINGO!". At least half the room would dump their bingo cards of all their chips thinking the game was over. There was such joy in watching their frustration. This only worked 3 or 4 times because eventually a bunch of the players brought their grandchildren one night who caught us and beat the crap out of us.

But this was only the beginning of my long prance through the valleys of the dark side.

I can't explain it - there's something very ritualistic for me about food. And it can come from a dark place. With tasty results!

I think of my dark side as prominent sins (as in one or two of the seven deadly). I'm not very religious, but it serves as a decent enough reference. This is not about depression or sadness, but more about those darkish parts of you that need to be expressed, but safely. Wrath is the most obvious one.

McGay saidMe reading the title of this thread is like sharks coming across a bunch of chum in the ocean.

I remember when I crossed over to the dark side. I was around 13 or 14. A bunch of friends and I would go to Temple Beth-El on Tuesday nights where Bingo was being played by people of a certain age. They played in the basement. In the summer, the basement windows, which were at foot level at the side lawn of the temple, were always open. We'd hang out outside the windows and wait until a reasonable amount of bingo numbers were called and then one of us would shout "BINGO!". At least half the room would dump their bingo cards of all their chips thinking the game was over. There was such joy in watching their frustration. This only worked 3 or 4 times because eventually a bunch of the players brought their grandchildren one night who caught us and beat the crap out of us.

But this was only the beginning of my long prance through the valleys of the dark side.

Good one! Once in a very great while I like to throw my voice while in the checkout line at Target. I yell "I can help someone on 13!" and there's only 12 registers. The reactions are quite diverse and quite funny.

innerathlete saidI can't explain it - there's something very ritualistic for me about food. And it can come from a dark place. With tasty results!

Gotcha.

I hung around with ingeniously evil kids. We would string fishing line, which had cans and bottles tied up at each end, just outide the automatic exit doors at the local supermarket. When some unsuspecting burb-frau would come through the exit, her shopping cart wheels would get tangled up in the fishing line and cans and bottles. More than once, a whole shopping cart full of groceries went tipping over, spilling it's contents.

another dark side of me ... i guess ...

when me & my boyfriend are having a romantic dinner ...

well, i always consider every dinner with my boyfriend as "romantic" ... he he he ...

specially tonight when i bring the "papa john's pizza" to his place ... for our "romantic" dinner ...

anyway, my boyfriend always tells me to eat slow ... because my boyfriend is a slow eater ...

and i always finish first every time we eat ...

i guess it seems that my boyfriend is annoyed or irritated when i eat ... because i always eat fast ...

is there something wrong with me eating fast?

i'm very confused ...

McGay saidI hung around with ingeniously evil kids. We would string fishing line, which had cans and bottles tied up at each end, just outide the automatic exit doors at the local supermarket. When some unsuspecting burb-frau would come through the exit, her shopping cart wheels would get tangled up in the fishing line and cans and bottles. More than once, a whole shopping cart full of groceries went tipping over, spilling it's contents.

Dude we could share stories. I remember us tying a stuffed animal to fishing line and dragging it slowly, as if wounded, across the street from the safety of the living room window. In the darkness cars would freak out and screech brakes. Or run over it, get out, poke at it with their foot or a stick, at which point we'd yank it flying back to the yard. They'd scream, nearly piss themselves, and get the hell out of there.

Kids.

I love it when someone does something stupid while driving so I can honk at them. I find it awfully damn satisfying.

Squarejaw saidI love it when someone does something stupid while driving so I can honk at them. I find it awfully damn satisfying.

Have you got your squirrel ears on too tight? This thread is about what you do when you go to your dark side.

Yeah, Caslon, I mean I like the chance to be an asshole when I drive.

when i was young(er),i would be emo and write tons of poems,short stories,paint or take pictures.i find my best work comes from delving into my dark side,play with the devil,rattle the skeletons in my closet and find the truth and beauty coming out from it...it's your own pandora's box...i need to get back to my dark side again,good times...

this is it for me, my indulgence of a 'dark side,' of maliciousness lol:
when i'm at the mall on a really crowded day, nothing irritates me more than when cars have parked illegally at the ends of rows, making 'their own' parking spaces- usually on days when equally lazy people park on the grassy embankments around the parking lot. its almost understandable around Xmas time, when there really aren't any available spots- but working at the Ruehl back home in MD, i would always see cars doing this on busy weekends. the problem i have with it is that it's so incredibly lazy and inconsiderate of others. i've seen huge hummers parked like this at the ends of rows- the result being that no one can safely turn around them!

so, when i see this, i key them. badly. all down the side. and it feels SO good. i also did this once when i was at a pub and some douche had parked his over-sized pick up truck in the full parking lot IN BETWEEN two spaces, using both.

i know, its awful of me to lower myself to such a level, but hey, none of us are saints, and being harmlessly bad can feel so wonderful :p

Thanks Czar. Keying Hummers...sometimes a dark side can yield a superhero. ;-)

lol ;) they reap what they sow- i feel no guilt, though i know i should. its just so empowering to lash out at ass holes :p

I'm plotting world domination. I have a hairless cat, which I stroke menacingly. When I tell you about my plan, I'll leave you strapped into an impossible Rube Goldberg device designed to kill you within 40-50 minutes.

czarodziej saidthis is it for me, my indulgence of a 'dark side,' of maliciousness lol:
when i'm at the mall on a really crowded day, nothing irritates me more than when cars have parked illegally at the ends of rows, making 'their own' parking spaces- usually on days when equally lazy people park on the grassy embankments around the parking lot. its almost understandable around Xmas time, when there really aren't any available spots- but working at the Ruehl back home in MD, i would always see cars doing this on busy weekends. the problem i have with it is that it's so incredibly lazy and inconsiderate of others. i've seen huge hummers parked like this at the ends of rows- the result being that no one can safely turn around them!

so, when i see this, i key them. badly. all down the side. and it feels SO good. i also did this once when i was at a pub and some douche had parked his over-sized pick up truck in the full parking lot IN BETWEEN two spaces, using both.

i know, its awful of me to lower myself to such a level, but hey, none of us are saints, and being harmlessly bad can feel so wonderful :p

Total fantasy... but if it were true, equating keying cars with harmlessly bad is totally idiotic.

Definitely not bragging or proud of this, but in the past three years I've physically lashed out (ie...beat the shit out of) at complete strangers...the first time was when I came across three teenage boys attempting to light the clothes of a homeless man on fire....the second time, I pulled a man out of his car and pummeled him for flipping me off and most recently attempting to knock the window out of a car to get to the driver who blew their horn at a friend of mine while we were riding bikes....

Sometimes I think its sort of the "camel breaking the straws back", that causes these acts of anger....its like I swallow up alot of emotions and something will happen to push me over the edge and KABOOM.

I know I need to work on it.....and I am...but yeah, that's my "dark side" coming to the surface.

Poetry or rough sex.

I keep my evil simple.

caslon said[quote][cite]czarodziej said[/cite]this is it for me, my indulgence of a 'dark side,' of maliciousness lol:
when i'm at the mall on a really crowded day, nothing irritates me more than when cars have parked illegally at the ends of rows, making 'their own' parking spaces- usually on days when equally lazy people park on the grassy embankments around the parking lot. its almost understandable around Xmas time, when there really aren't any available spots- but working at the Ruehl back home in MD, i would always see cars doing this on busy weekends. the problem i have with it is that it's so incredibly lazy and inconsiderate of others. i've seen huge hummers parked like this at the ends of rows- the result being that no one can safely turn around them!

so, when i see this, i key them. badly. all down the side. and it feels SO good. i also did this once when i was at a pub and some douche had parked his over-sized pick up truck in the full parking lot IN BETWEEN two spaces, using both.

i know, its awful of me to lower myself to such a level, but hey, none of us are saints, and being harmlessly bad can feel so wonderful :p

Total fantasy... but if it were true, equating keying cars with harmlessly bad is totally idiotic.[/quote]

Read it again. It's gas guzzling trucks and Hummers. Haha...c'mon man.

You chimed in and I said no one who thinks they don't have a dark side is allowed. Now you gotta fess up with something, or I'll send JockBod48 to piss in your car. ;-P

I have a dark side that hides my light side! I'm WAY more dark than i am light and cheery.

XRuggerATX saidRead it again. It's gas guzzling trucks and Hummers. Haha...c'mon man.

You chimed in and I said no one who thinks they don't have a dark side is allowed. Now you gotta fess up with something, or I'll send JockBod48 to piss in your car. ;-P

I dont give a rat's ass what kind of car, he keys them? ... I dont think so.

I did chime in above and say what I do to channel my dark side....I go read a book.

What do you want me to say? I key books! hahahahahahaha

Keying books. You sick fuck. ;-)

(didn't mean to overlook the other post)

Sometimes I--Geez, I can hardly say it.

Oh, all right, as long as we're baring our souls here.

Sometimes I jaywalk.

czarodziej saidthis is it for me, my indulgence of a 'dark side,' of maliciousness lol:
when i'm at the mall on a really crowded day, nothing irritates me more than when cars have parked illegally at the ends of rows, making 'their own' parking spaces- usually on days when equally lazy people park on the grassy embankments around the parking lot. its almost understandable around Xmas time, when there really aren't any available spots- but working at the Ruehl back home in MD, i would always see cars doing this on busy weekends. the problem i have with it is that it's so incredibly lazy and inconsiderate of others. i've seen huge hummers parked like this at the ends of rows- the result being that no one can safely turn around them!

so, when i see this, i key them. badly. all down the side. and it feels SO good. i also did this once when i was at a pub and some douche had parked his over-sized pick up truck in the full parking lot IN BETWEEN two spaces, using both.

i know, its awful of me to lower myself to such a level, but hey, none of us are saints, and being harmlessly bad can feel so wonderful :p

Oh sweet Lord, I did this once too - it was a rainy Friday night in crowded Hollywood when I was younger (early 20's) and some douche bag stole the spot I was clearly headed into - there was no mistaking it, my blinker was on and I was backing into the spot, and he just raced into it. I was steaming mad. So was my friend. We impulsively decided to key his car. I'm not proud of it. In fact, I'm cringing as I write this. But there you go.

JPRichVa: A lesbian cop wrote me up for jaywalking once. They hate me. I was a valet dammit!

caslon saidI go read a book.

Stephen King?

Rugger:

You're lucky it was when you were still in Massachusetts. They have the death penalty in Texas.

jprichva saidRugger:

You're lucky it was when you were still in Massachusetts. They have the death penalty in Texas.

No it was Texas. She forced me to eat pussy after. I would have taken the death penalty.

I read Laurell K. Hamilton novels. One part detective story, one part erotica and two parts gorefest. She writes about vampires, lycanthropes, ghouls, zombies, Daoine Sidhe and all sorts of other supernatural critters. I find reading about people being ripped limb from limb very cathartic. I really enjoyed one book where a werewolf started eating a bimbo while he was still fucking her. There was another one where a skinned alive pseudo-zombie runs amuck in on OB ward and starts eating babies. One of the best was when the Queen of Air and Darkness of the Unseelie Sidhe drags one of her retainers around by his intestines. The really sucky part was he was immortal so he couldn't pass out from the pain or die.

I always feel better after immersing myself in Hamilton's dark worlds. It's as if I'm able to release all the bad stuff inside me when I read.

XRuggerATX said[quote][cite]caslon said[/cite]I go read a book.

Stephen King?

No, usually history, biography, or language.

RBY71 saidI read Laurell K. Hamilton novels. One part detective story, one part erotica and two parts gorefest.

This chick clearly has issues.

innerathlete said
Oh sweet Lord, I did this once too - it was a rainy Friday night in crowded Hollywood when I was younger (early 20's) and some douche bag stole the spot I was clearly headed into - there was no mistaking it, my blinker was on and I was backing into the spot, and he just raced into it. I was steaming mad. So was my friend. We impulsively decided to key his car. I'm not proud of it. In fact, I'm cringing as I write this. But there you go.

Now, he deserved keying ...and 4 flats!

I travel significantly for a living and have status with the airlines allowing me to board in the 1st group called regardless of my actual seat assignment.

I love watching the semicircle of lemmings form around the boarding area prior to departure, mostly with group "3" or "4" cards - effectively blocking everyone else from making their way towards the jetway...

...and when group "1" is called, I gleefully cheer "pardon me!" and mow through everyone like a bowling ball.

Oh that reminds me of another big one - I am a huge diehard fan of film noir and detective novels. Nothing captures that bottom-of-the-barrel, desperate, compulsive, obsessive, darkly erotic, miserable, angry, desolate place like a Jim Thompson or Raymond Chandler novel. "Farewell My Lovely" left me feeling hollow for a week and I loved every second of it. To this day, nothing makes me feel more understood or at home than watching an old-school noir in a darkened theatre.

COJock1974: Nice one ya bitch. ;-)

I take the pillow from 1st class on my way to coach. How ya like them apples?

XRugger: Take the pillow, and think of how many passengers have drooled on it before you got yer grubby hands on it.

Be forewarned, however, if you put your crap in MY overhead, especially if you're sitting in row 30-something, I will take your suitcase OUT of the overhead, put my stuff in, and leave your junk in the galley next to the boarding door.

Wow, you guys all have such creative reactions to anger/depression/angst! I keyed a car once that had parked me in. Mostly I always assumed whatever happened was my fault (Catholic and only child) and my most creative ways of dealing with the dark side was ironing while listening to blues music, or weeding! You all open new windows for me!

As Mary Vivian Pearce brightly noted in Pink Flamingos:

"Murder relieves tension."

work out and a nice drive where i can let out my rage on the road!

I Shop til' I Drop!

Mine is heavy metal music. The heaviest I can find. Usually things like Godsmack, Kittie, Rob Zombie, Walls of Jericho, My Own Sin, In This Moment, Static X, Mudvayne, etc. etc.

Plus, if you ever want some really dark, sinister sex, play the album Bloody Kisses by Type O Negative. You will be assured some hard core, grab the back of your head, leaving teeth marks sex!

Namaste,
Den

I'm quite the berserker when really angry. And quasi-suicidal when depressed heh.

Poetry, art, movies, anger music... and invading planets.

As a hobby, I run two search directories, one for sci-fi and one for the Omaha metro. I also run a one small community, about to reopen a second one. I love running and maintaining them, and maybe someday it'll be more than a hobby, someday I hope it will pay at least some of the bills. At least right now, it helps me forget the people and their BS I have to deal with.

Well I have really dark side. I make people feel bad when I'm angry or I'm in bad mood. Idk why but I think because it's not fair that I'm in bad mood when other people are happy.

Wow. I look really bad person now.

-Hey It's really rare! I don't usually do like that ! lol just sometimes! lol

I mostly just brood, so the only casualty I guess is my gut, which gets overactive from tension. Also, some nice dark music works very well; Evanescence works wonders, if I'm feeling down or whatever I just throw some on, it matches my mood perfectly.

Alternatively, I eat food, which is an ineffective way of dealing. So I try to avoid that

Well, I have always been a big gamer, so when I am feeling Dark I just pop in a game(Postal 2) and go to town. Also like to read when I'm feeling down, go for a walk, drive, eat(unfortunatly), and occasionally find something(or but something) to break.

When I was younger, I used my sling shot to shoot out the windows of trucks at the local truck stop. Got caught by the police and they took away my slingshot and I had to do 300 hours of comunity service. Looking back on it, I was lucky the TRUCKERS didn't catch me hehe.

I get fairly masochistic and reckless when I'm in my dark side. Back in the days when I was a diver, that would be a huge outlet for me. I'd throw myself totally and completely into new dives or dives that I hadn't mastered in hopes that I would crash and smack horribly. Nothing could cure my mood better than having bruises and welts from a hard day's work.

The end of last summer took me to probably the darkest place in my life, and I was ridiculously masochistic. I ran, all the time. And not really in a "healthy workout" sort of way. I would run 8 miles in the middle of a thunderstorm. I'd blatantly run out in front of cars for the thrill of almost getting hit. Pretty crazy stupid shit that makes me look like I have a death wish.

seach for this book on the net. THE DARK SİDE OF MAN by MİCHAEL GHİGLİERİ & JOSHUA BİLMES.

I don't know that I ever get so down and depressed that I would call it a "Dark Side", but I will tell ya that "Retail Therapy" works wonders when I need an attitude adjustment

A few songs on Guitar Hero calms me down, but if it's been a particularly bad day I pop in Assassin's Creed and pick fights with soldiers. Using the short sword/dagger is especially satisfying.

caslon said=

I dont give a rat's ass what kind of car, he keys them? ... I dont think so.

I did chime in above and say what I do to channel my dark side....I go read a book.

What do you want me to say? I key books! hahahahahahaha

If they are parked illegally in ways to obstruct access or are in any way dangerous (such as in a fire lane), they are getting what they deserve. How else will assholes who think they are exempt from all the rules ever learn that there are other people in the world affected by them?

Although I usually leave a note, I have been known to key egregiously parked cars, or to put chewing gum on the door handles. If you have ever been trapped in a parking deck, in your driveway, or rounded a corner to find someone parked illegally in your path, you'll understand situations where someone might lose their cool over it.

exactly :p and the mall security doesn't have the power to do anything about it when they park like that- vigilante justice is just necessary in those instances :p

innerathlete said[quote][cite]czarodziej said[/cite]this is it for me, my indulgence of a 'dark side,' of maliciousness lol:
when i'm at the mall on a really crowded day, nothing irritates me more than when cars have parked illegally at the ends of rows, making 'their own' parking spaces- usually on days when equally lazy people park on the grassy embankments around the parking lot. its almost understandable around Xmas time, when there really aren't any available spots- but working at the Ruehl back home in MD, i would always see cars doing this on busy weekends. the problem i have with it is that it's so incredibly lazy and inconsiderate of others. i've seen huge hummers parked like this at the ends of rows- the result being that no one can safely turn around them!

so, when i see this, i key them. badly. all down the side. and it feels SO good. i also did this once when i was at a pub and some douche had parked his over-sized pick up truck in the full parking lot IN BETWEEN two spaces, using both.

i know, its awful of me to lower myself to such a level, but hey, none of us are saints, and being harmlessly bad can feel so wonderful :p

Oh sweet Lord, I did this once too - it was a rainy Friday night in crowded Hollywood when I was younger (early 20's) and some douche bag stole the spot I was clearly headed into - there was no mistaking it, my blinker was on and I was backing into the spot, and he just raced into it. I was steaming mad. So was my friend. We impulsively decided to key his car. I'm not proud of it. In fact, I'm cringing as I write this. But there you go. [/quote]

Hey, we're a regular trifecta of automotive doom! Eons ago, I used to have anger issues. I'm told I still have a scary-quick temper from time to time, but now if I'm having a really foul day, it usually just guarantees a really good workout and the gym, followed immediately by a mini-carton of Ben & Jerry's.

Hmm, I am intrigued by zdrew's secret anger...and this quiet storm beneath the calm exterior...

I'm a wanna-be writer, innerathlete. Of course I have things to vent. Funny thing, actually...when I came out years ago now, most of the anger issues went away (hmmm, right?) and for a little while I actually honestly worried that without my angst I'd never be able to write again.

Happily, I still find reasons to be dark and brooding from time to time, if for no better reason than to intrigue you.

tanktop said[quote][ If you have ever been trapped in a parking deck, in your driveway,...

And then what did you say when the person came back and found his car keyed, while you were trapped in the space. I dont see how keying the car got you untrapped.

I think we are entering the fantasy zones of some people here.

Oh, the possibility of your dark brooding side does more than intrigue me zdrew...

Caslon...when is anger ever a rational process? Once I stubbed my toe on a metal door. I got mad. I punched, elbowed, and banged at the door for a good few minutes. I took the next day off work with a sprained elbow. Logical? No. Painful. Yeah. Satisfying? Oh gods yes.

And innerathlete: I can only imagine.

I channel my dark side by isolating myself, listening to certain music and by writing in my private journal.

Writing allows me to get the dark side out, analyze it and learn what triggered it, which is usually the loss of someone close to me.

Once I get it out of my system, I'm generally able to move on. It doesn't resolve longstanding problems but my personal counselor is working with me on that.

Well I think we all have some sort of secret place.
I have one, but nothing really major...

The idea of become a sadistic master with mask is lurking in there someplace.....

CuriousJockAZ saidI don't know that I ever get so down and depressed that I would call it a "Dark Side"...

You don't get it. It's not about depression and "being down". Read earlier posts.

Shopping? Meh. Hardly a dark channel. Unless you're like "fuck all them, I will outfabulous them with clothes." ;-)

caslon saidI think we are entering the fantasy zones of some people here.

So what?

I'd have to go with movies, music, and video games.

Sometimes I love horror, and fighting/kung-fu action movies.

Sometimes I like to drive around listening to Slayer and give people the finger.

Sometimes I like to be this cute little round pink guy who kicks everyones ass in Super Smash Bros. Brawl online for the Wii.

But when the day is done, I'm really quite the gentleman.

I play revenge movies like Burning Bed, Diary of a Mad Black Woman, Count of Monte Cristo, etc. or I let out a string of curse words that would make a mechanic blush. I try to keep my dark side hidden, but there are times that I just have to let go and be shady. My good friends get the chance to see that side because they can handle much of what I choose to dish out.

Btw, thanks for the dildo hiding idea. Though I might not want to waste dildo on someone like that, perhaps a condom ( even if unused, but out of the wrapper) would be fun.

I play WoW, read fantasy, Draw, or spar with my wrestling friends to vent.

Hitting the heavy bag also works. I just pretend the bag is whoever pissed me off.

Hmmm, I am trying to think of what my "dark side" is. I guess being an introvert I can withdraw from people when I am feeling really depressed or stressed out. When I here people who have gone on a killing spree that were described as "he was quiet and very polite", I think to myself "that could have been me if a few things in my life had been different".

So to combat my dark moods I listen to music, play sports, workout, go on to RJ or read. I very rarely seek out other people.

When I'm depressed I listen to radiohead. or coldplay. or sometimes its digital art.

At work, its table tennis. I like to beat the colleagues I'm pissed at.

My darkness is always there, under my skin.

I love people, and I approach each with sincerity and kindness. But when they turn on me, or treat me disrespectfully, or like a number, I snap. I can't just fume and walk away.

Or, when I hear bullshit. Doesn't even have to be deep bullshit. Just a little bullshit sends me over the cliff.

It's always expressed verbally, as quickly as I can spit it out it. Once I've spoken, the cloud pulls back. I've never had to express it physically. If my opponent starts to rise up, I move closer to them and dare them to make more of an issue.

My BF is RARELY stoked off by people. But when he is, as in exactly these four instances in which I've known him, he says he's channeling me:
A BestBuy clerk and manager who couldn't decide who would do a price check...he slammed a package on the counter and yelled, "I'll check it myself!" as he stormed off; the guys stood there, shocked and embarrassed.
To his mother on the phone, who wouldn't stop gossiping about the family, he told her she was a "fucking bitch" and hung up on her.
A credit card company rep got an earful when the card kept billing him for a phantom service, which he'd never requested.
A driver who struck my car while my BF was driving it...scared the poor old man near to death.

Otherwise he's pleasant and easy-going, shocked at how white-hot my temper goes.

If you want to discuss depression guys start a new thread.

its not too easy to ridicule when I'm focused on the positive. Good thing too cuz I'm a spoiled brat. I might just thow a temper tantrum.

I can only achieve an erection if I strangle homeless people and I'm a sex addict.

Friendsmaybe saidI can only achieve an erection if I strangle homeless people and I'm a sex addict.

I orgasm by clubbing baby seals.

Wow, after reading some of your posts I am pretty amazed at how some of you are admitting to some of the things that you have done, i.e. vandalizing/keying cars. Hopefully your admissions to your actions here on RJ won't ever be used against you legally.

I don't have a way to channel the rage/anger that I sometimes experience like some of you guys. I think the worse thing I could do is take it out on someone or an animal that had nothing to do with my getting angry in the first place. If it involves a person I go to that person directly. I've been known for being confrontational. And not just online but in person as well, just ask XRuggerATX.

I guess I brood and sulk in horribly violent fantasies involving a person or thing I've had issues with. Eventually these thoughts fade away when I'm ready, which is usually within a few hours. Hopefully they'll never become more than fantasies. I don't want to go to prison because I couldn't control my anger/rage.

Maybe I should take up knitting?

If its a person that's made me angry, the first thing i do is make sure i get as far away from them as possible (i'm totally against speaking/acting while my judgement is clouded by emotion). Usually a good workout and some alone time works wonders for me...i think about the situation and work on resloving whatever the issue is befroe it gets too big.

When i'm stressed, i also like a good workout and if that doesn't work then i turn to food (usually the night b4 an exam i've dumped all the contents of my fridge into my belly)

Worse case scenario (when i can't do the above mentioned things)...i just react. The other day i was in a rage because a few friends were being rude and inconsiderate to the point where i just snapped and yelled at them (LOUDLY) in public. One of them almost cried while the other one started acting cute and made puppy dog eyes at me. After i let it all out, we all hugged, made up and went out for lunch.

HotToddy said
The end of last summer took me to probably the darkest place in my life... I would run 8 miles in the middle of a thunderstorm... Pretty crazy stupid shit that makes me look like I have a death wish.

No wonder I run so much!

I have a belligerent temperament, which I usually manage pretty well. However, sometimes the rage bubbles through. A good example is what happened the other day: the chain on my bicycle snapped while I was climbing a hill and it sent me for a decently bloody spill. Before I assessed the damage to myself or my bike, I began to hit and kick a street sign. I would have gladly vented my rage by ripping it down and throwing it into the street, but a little old lady walking her german shepherd came around the corner. I got embarrassed and stopped before she realized what I was doing I hope!

i've never found a proper outlet for it and it usually goes inwards and i turn into a morbid tool, which i hate, which propogates the downward spiral and i have to be careful or it will get way out of hand.

I'm getting better at picking it up, but when i am stressed out or sad or angry i have a tendacy to let it consume me.

I really need to sort that out.

Hmm... it's hard to admit that one might have a "dark" side. But for me, it was probably building the dark fortress on the mountaintop, recruiting an army of evil minions, and plotting the overthrow of civilization. Really, I hardly even realized what I was doing until I found myself hooking up the cables from the lightning-rod to the operating table, and thinking about how hard it was to find a suitably nasty-looking knife switch of the proper amperage rating.

I call an ex to have sex.

But I think everyone does that.

mindgarden saidHmm... it's hard to admit that one might have a "dark" side. But for me, it was probably building the dark fortress on the mountaintop, recruiting an army of evil minions, and plotting the overthrow of civilization. Really, I hardly even realized what I was doing until I found myself hooking up the cables from the lightning-rod to the operating table, and thinking about how hard it was to find a suitably nasty-looking knife switch of the proper amperage rating.

Can I be your evil king? or queen?

Mine is through music. Korn, Deftones, Tool and Deadsy.... they fuel the anger and calm me at the same time

smalltownboy saidDefinitely not bragging or proud of this, but in the past three years I've physically lashed out (ie...beat the shit out of) at complete strangers...the first time was when I came across three teenage boys attempting to light the clothes of a homeless man on fire....the second time, I pulled a man out of his car and pummeled him for flipping me off and most recently attempting to knock the window out of a car to get to the driver who blew their horn at a friend of mine while we were riding bikes....

Sometimes I think its sort of the "camel breaking the straws back", that causes these acts of anger....its like I swallow up alot of emotions and something will happen to push me over the edge and KABOOM.

I know I need to work on it.....and I am...but yeah, that's my "dark side" coming to the surface.

One of these days you are going to get gangsta (read violent) with the wrong person

Timberoo said[quote][cite]Friendsmaybe said[/cite]I can only achieve an erection if I strangle homeless people and I'm a sex addict.

I orgasm by clubbing baby seals.[/quote]

yodudes80 saidMine is through music. Korn, Deftones, Tool and Deadsy.... they fuel the anger and calm me at the same time

not trying to highjack the thread but I was wondering if you, yodudes80, have any suggestions on which Korn, Deftones, Tool, etc... songs would be good to add to a workout (mainly lifting) playlist.

Thanks dude

metropolitan saidI call an ex to have sex.

But I think everyone does that.

Nope never, when an ex was out of my life he may as well have been in Timbuctoo!

Since my dark side is usually evoked in response to other people stupidly arousing my wrath, I express it by plotting massive 'population adjustments.' I get murdervision where I start envisioning all manner of unnatural atrocities.

Well this is what I have learned so far from reading this thread:

1. I should improve my parking technique otherwise I met get keyed.

2. It pays to make some people miserable because they will make a good meal for you.

3. It pays to make other people miserable because you might get great sex out of it followed by a poetry reading.



Peace guys.

I don't have a dark side (not one that I or anyone else is aware of anyway).

i wonder taste of human flesh.but dont worry i wont be a jeffrey dahmer

Guy101 saidI don't have a dark side (not one that I or anyone else is aware of anyway).

That makes you best. Thanks for contributing.

I find cycling to curtail my dark side, the obstacles i have to weave around getting to and from work, avoiding the rush hour traffic and ignorant pedestrians really gets the adrenalin going and every now and then a burst of verbal comes out at a passing car, but that just takes the top off the pressure cooker and the rest of the day I'm as sweet as sugar (can you believe it)