Skhokho1987 saidI have reached the terrifying realization that, contrary to our need for love and order, the universe is fundamentally a chaotic place. People are unpredictable. Events are discontinuous and volatile. Naturally, a nihilistic despair and terror follow from these realizations, and my faith is the last "refuge" but it is not easy to believe in an invisible God; as a matter of fact, it is the most difficult part of it all! What do I do?
Try a tricyclic like the rest of us.
But seriously I try not to think about it too much, which is difficult for my questioning personality. We're taught to look for the solid facts, and where there are none, we make up our own rules to give us comfort. Instead, I try to focus on the positive things in our world. Befriend positive people, eliminate the negative.
Having never had a strong basis for faith, we only ever went to church when I was little and that was after a few deaths; used by my parents as a coping mechanism, I can't tell you what to do about that. I am my own rock, atop a mound of pebbles, people that I've forged bonds with, every now and then I slip a little, but I've just accepted that's the way it is and adjust accordingly.
Try to be skeptical, not cynical. Forgive the cliche, but you HAVE to laugh, so you don't cry.