Oct 24, 2011 3:59 AM GMT
So here is the deal... I just came out to a few close people in march but I am looking for a real relationship. The people that know have not seen me with a guy yet. I am the type of person that shuts down and stops talking when I feel uncomfortable or upset. Had a boyfriend of a month that ditched me because I could go anywhere in public and be myself, which meant he wasn't being himself and neither of us had a good time. I do not know how to get over this fear. Behind closed doors I am open with him and hiding nothing. As soon as that door opens and other people can see in, its like everyone is judging me and glaring at me. I live with three of by buddies that are straight and I am scared sick to tell them, so when my ex stayed over we had to make up stories of why he slept in my room. I have a cot that I use as a prop to say he was on that all night... IDK guys I am sorry to ramble but just looking for some advice I am ready to move on and be who I am but I don't know how to be okay with other people seeing it.