Dude, I went through the same thing! I did not like my first sexual experience at all. I met up with this random kid, we made out in my room, and i was so nervous I couldnt even fucking get it up
So since i was soft, I started giving him head,then i flipped him over and ate his ass (which was actually pretty sexy)until he said "let me do you", flipped me over, and then said "nevermind, you're too hairy"...
What the fuck!
So then he tried to fuck me, but he was half soft by the time he got the condom on, and i was a virgin, so he couldnt get it in, and he ended up just fucking my face and leaving (which was actually the only part I really like
BUUUUUUUT he later apologized, we fooled around again a few times, and then we finally fucked (my first time, his with a guy) and it was fucking awesome! He had be growling like a fucking bear, man (tee hee
So moral of the story: it will get better. A lot better. A whole fucking lot better. You just gotta be comfortable, in a better fucking enviorment than a jeep, and with someone you're close to.
Give it a few more tries. I used to think I was bi too, but girls just dont do it for me, and I love fucking guys, using a dildo, eating cum, etc.