Sick, depressed, 10 pounds lighter...three weeks away from the gym.

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    Nov 20, 2011 9:07 PM GMT
    Following a break-up (end of 14-year domestic partnership), I've been sick, depressed, and a little self-destructive. I've been a spendthrift of money and friendships, neglected my health, abused a few substances...et cetera. At the low point, I had lost ten pounds, was dehydrated and suffering kidney dysfunction.

    I'm on the mend now. The past week, I've eaten anything and everything that comes in sight, including the once verboten pastries, pizza, and Starbucks sugar vats. I've regained about five pounds, half my weight loss. I feel the extra weight more in my abdomen than I see it in my still hollow cheeks. The phlebotomist can again find a vein for blood work. Hurrah --- even if the eight-pack clearly discernible at my low point has receded into a four-pack of sorts.

    QUESTION: I just walked to the farmer's market and am camped out at a Starbucks, with my totes overflowing with good intentions, just a couple blocks from the gym. . After three weeks, what should I expect at the gym? I'm wary of others' judgments. I look haggard and gaunt and surely won't lift as well as I did just three short weeks ago. And I'm afraid somewhere lost in the ten pounds will be the strength gains that came so hard to this ectomorph over the past 18 months of discipline and virtue at the gym.

    Anybody have ideas what to expect after a such a hiatus or suggestions how to steel myself to return? I know it's just a molehill that I've let become a mountain. But knowing it's just a molehill doesn't make it any less formidable a challenge.

    Thanks for your insights!
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    Nov 21, 2011 5:45 PM GMT
    Guess my posting was a little too self-indulgent, verging too far into solipcism to warrant a response. In any case, I went to the gym yesterday and an advanced Pilates reformer class today. Yesterday, I got winded more easily than three weeks ago and lifted dumbbells 10-15 pounds lighter for chest presses and 2.5-5 lighter for shoulders and did many few bodweight dips and Swiss ball pushups. My return to the gym after a three-week hiatus was nonetheless very gratifying, and I look forward to rebuilding my strength and getting out of my funk.
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    Nov 21, 2011 5:50 PM GMT
    atta boy
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    Nov 21, 2011 5:57 PM GMT
    Personally I don't use a gym anymore, but when I fall out of a good habit I remind myself constantly that the key is to do something, anything to work in that direction now, in the present. If I'm in a funk and I just turn the computer off long enough to so some push ups I almost always feel better immediately.
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    Nov 21, 2011 6:01 PM GMT
    I'm an ectomorph too. I think that body type's resiliency is such that you will bounce back quickly to your baseline, not feeling unusually weak for very long but still taking longer to make real gains.

    After a 2-3 week break, I'm usually back up to speed after one week or less.
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    Nov 21, 2011 6:16 PM GMT
    partouse saidFollowing a break-up (end of 14-year domestic partnership), I've been sick, depressed, and a little self-destructive. I've been a spendthrift of money and friendships, neglected my health, abused a few substances...et cetera. At the low point, I had lost ten pounds, was dehydrated and suffering kidney dysfunction.

    I'm on the mend now. The past week, I've eaten anything and everything that comes in sight, including the once verboten pastries, pizza, and Starbucks sugar vats. I've regained about five pounds, half my weight loss. I feel the extra weight more in my abdomen than I see it in my still hollow cheeks. The phlebotomist can again find a vein for blood work. Hurrah --- even if the eight-pack clearly discernible at my low point has receded into a four-pack of sorts.

    QUESTION: I just walked to the farmer's market and am camped out at a Starbucks, with my totes overflowing with good intentions, just a couple blocks from the gym. . After three weeks, what should I expect at the gym? I'm wary of others' judgments. I look haggard and gaunt and surely won't lift as well as I did just three short weeks ago. And I'm afraid somewhere lost in the ten pounds will be the strength gains that came so hard to this ectomorph over the past 18 months of discipline and virtue at the gym.

    Anybody have ideas what to expect after a such a hiatus or suggestions how to steel myself to return? I know it's just a molehill that I've let become a mountain. But knowing it's just a molehill doesn't make it any less formidable a challenge.

    Thanks for your insights!


    Why are you beating yourself up? Why are you setting yourself up to feel bad? It sounds like you're judging yourself more than anyone in the gym ever will. And besides, what do you care what someone else thinks? You're there to work out, to do something good for yourself, not to fret over what a bunch of people you don't even know *might* think of you. If your gym is such a judgmental place that you have to worry about what others think, I suggest a new gym!
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    Nov 21, 2011 6:48 PM GMT
    Dude, I'm sorry for your pain.

    Trust me, you really don't want to find out how flab gets distributed. It may leave to stretch marks and you really don't want that.

    Losing my gut is my last mountain to climb and I'm not enjoying it.

    Sugary treats lead to carb crashes and for me, that just makes me lethargic. Lethargy + depression == nothing good.