Nov 28, 2011 9:42 PM GMT
As a Chinese gay, I tried to find love in US when coming here for grad school two years ago. Unfortunately, mom had cancer since I came to US and passed away the past Valentine's Day. I didn't expect that I could have a crush on a first-year gay student in the last quarter of my study. I went to the psychology counseling session and was advised to focus on things with a deadline: my graduation papers and job hunting, because I want to stay here. Last night, I dreamt of my mom who held me tightly and cried that she missed me. I woke up feeling emotionally vulnerable. Do I just need a boyfriend to comfort my broken heart or do I really like him? Tomorrow will be the last day of my classes in this program and I may not see him very often. I think I conveyed the message that I liked him, but he politely kept a distance with me. I had a complicated feeling so hope some friends could share some advice. Thank you.