There are two possibilities that I can think of right off the bat: (i) there's a problem in the relationship but you're not looking hard enough to find it; or (ii) there isn't a problem in the relationship but you may be suffering from depression that must be addressed promptly. Somehow, your pain is palpable from your post. Whatever is causing your pain and/or loneliness, I hope everything works out for you. Good luck.
why do not you try to find something you can make together,,,,,,ask him to make sport with you,,,,,or,,,you can hold him and watch tv,,,or, suugest him that you cook nice inner together,,,,,you can make something new always to share and not feeling alone
but also you can have friends,,,,,you do not have to make everything with him
but the question is,,,, Do you feel lonely or BORED??