One of the sweetest and most inspirational guys --a guy who epitomizes RJ, and fitness, and changing your life, and being a glorious, well-rounded, well adjusted gay guy---is having a one of those times in life that makes you question. I'm starting this thread so each of us who've basked in his 'spirit' can let him know how much we've appreciated all he brings to our great community.
Dude: you're probably a year or two ahead of me on my fitness goals, and I've really appreciated being able to walk in your footsteps and envision the "new me" through your proxy. Moreover, I've loved your unique and nearly magical balance of masculine and adorable cuteness...your personality comes out in each post you write, and it's beautiful.
So, I'm really sorry that life is really dragging you down right now. Big and sincere hugs to you as you're there for your mom and your family --I can only imagine what a blessing it is to everyone to have a man with your heart there to do whatever can be done at this time.
And to the rest of RJ: Spiritreaver has made an impression on many of us...this is your chance to send some of that energy back, when maybe it's really needed.