When did you first suspect you were gay and when did you know?

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    Jan 17, 2012 2:51 PM GMT
    Was it a dream, a crush, a fantasy, or....?
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    Jan 17, 2012 4:10 PM GMT
    For me, I suspected in 7th grade and knew by 10th.
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    Jan 17, 2012 4:12 PM GMT
    I don't think you just know one day, like, I don't think you wake up, and go "oh my God, I've been wrong all this time! I don't like vagina! I actually like penis!"...it's a realisation process - well, for me it was anyway.

    I've always been attracted to guys, like even when I was 8 or 9, I assumed I was straight, but just never had a physical attraction to girls, just guys, but I didn't really notice at the time. As I got older, and got into puberty, I began to fully realise that I was different. Other guys were saying how they fucked their girlfriends, and how hot that girl was...etc...yet, there was me thinking "I've never found a girl hot...I don't know what makes a girl hot...and I don't get aroused at all by girls..."; it was then that I put a name to these feelings I had experienced, it was then that I thought "I'm gay." I was 14.

    So just to summarise, it's more of a realisation process - as is everything, especially sexuality, as over time you realise what you do and don't like. Not just guys or girls. But what you like in a guy: whether you like cute guys, hunky muscular guys, guys with long hair short hair, cocky confident guys or shy guys...etc....
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    Jan 17, 2012 4:14 PM GMT
    I suspected in high school, but knew after I graduated from college and moved to Los Angeles and landed right smack in the middle the the gay universe --- West Hollywood icon_eek.gif
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    Jan 17, 2012 4:54 PM GMT
    Sixth grade. This is what did it:

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    Jan 17, 2012 5:07 PM GMT
    there wasnt so much info for me when little so after feeling that i was the only one "lol" yes i though i was the only one ok, so after i made out with a guy i knew i like man more then women, then when i grow up after i was 17 and found bunch of queens all toguether i knew im not the ONLY ONE YAY, but i didnt like to be a flammer so i went and look for more, that was my clue i like man.
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    Jan 17, 2012 5:38 PM GMT
    I never had a "moment" of realization, really. It's just something that I always knew. At least that is my recollection of it all. I think I was 10 and in 5th grade when I had my first, official crush and it didn't seem weird. It was very natural for me to look at Greg and just want to be with him and get to know him. I never even asked myself why I wasn't attracted to girls. Then, I remember having the biggest crush on two older guys (well, they were probably in their 20s) who were in my karate classes and I could not stop thinking of the penises I saw when I changed in the locker roomsicon_razz.gif
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    Jan 17, 2012 5:47 PM GMT
    I never really experienced any one moment where I realised I was gay. I just remember realising that it wasn't how most of the guys I knew felt about other guys when I heard them start talking about which girls they found hot, etc. That's pretty much when I attached the word to it, I guess.
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    Jan 17, 2012 5:52 PM GMT
    Watchin Will Smith running with his shirt off in Bad Boys in 95. I was 5 but i thought he was fucking hot and still is lol icon_razz.gif
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    Jan 17, 2012 6:10 PM GMT
    19c79 saidSixth grade. This is what did it:

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    miam Mark Wahlberg was so fuckable at the time icon_twisted.gif
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    Jan 17, 2012 6:11 PM GMT
    I always knew I was different... and kind of knew when I was 16ish... but had blocked it out until about 19. Then I really knew when all I wanted to do was kiss my first boyfriend.
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    Jan 17, 2012 6:14 PM GMT
    to answer the question I already had some fantasies or my first kind of erotic dreams about other young boys when I was 8 - 9 - 10 years old or something...

    I began suspecting it when I was in high school at the age of 13 but denied it too much at the time so I really knew it when I was 16 or 17 yo yet in high school.
  • jxplicit54

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    Jan 17, 2012 6:15 PM GMT
    I knew since I was in kindergarten. My first crush wore this leather jacket and he was just too cute and he lived in the same complex as me. He would hang out at my house after school.. and my mother though it was just a friend until she walked in on me giving him a kiss on the cheek. -________-. I would take advantage of himicon_twisted.gif. I was such a bad kid. Lmfao.. He never shied away though.icon_wink.gif LOL.
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    Jan 17, 2012 7:30 PM GMT
    Probably when I was 12 I started noticing that I was attracted to other guys but I think I knew for sure in high school when I fell for my best friend [typical haha] funny story is that he's now the boyfriend of one of my few friends who knows I'm gay haha... icon_lol.gif
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    Jan 17, 2012 7:36 PM GMT
    19c79 saidSixth grade. This is what did it:

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    I, um, used some of those pictures in the dark ages before internet.
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    Jan 17, 2012 7:39 PM GMT
    Hindsight says around 4th grade, actually considered it somewhere in high school, finally came out to myself when I was 18 and was making out with a guy.
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    Jan 17, 2012 7:47 PM GMT
    Young_Sir said
    I, um, used some of those pictures in the dark ages before internet.

    Before the internet, I had the undergear catalog... icon_redface.gif I never did quite figure out how my parents got on their mailing list.

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    Jan 17, 2012 8:15 PM GMT
    ..knew I was different at five or six. I used to get yelled at for kissing the boys that I would wrestle with.
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    Jan 17, 2012 8:20 PM GMT
    I knew when I was 10 and I saw a Jockey underwear ad and thought, "Well, well, well. Isn't that nice looking!"
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    Jan 17, 2012 8:23 PM GMT
    My first boyfriend was in Second Grade.

    I think that answers both questions.
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    Jan 17, 2012 8:33 PM GMT
    I suspected when my bestfriend shoved his hand in my pants and fondled my balls and I liked it. The raging hard on he gave me confirmed my suspicions.
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    Jan 17, 2012 8:44 PM GMT
    Heard the word gay used mostly as another substitute for "jackass" growing up, so it never occurred to me that it could have something to do with sexuality. However, I suspected I may be... but wasn't sure until the week before my 13th birthday, the day I realized I was gay. "Make a wish..."
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    Jan 17, 2012 8:51 PM GMT
    19c79 saidSixth grade. This is what did it:

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    Did you end up with a CK underwear fetish, or just an attraction for muscular models?
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    Jan 17, 2012 8:58 PM GMT
    I didn't even begin to dimly suspect what gay was until about age 16, when I also suspected that behavior & feelings I'd had since around age 8 might mean I was one myself. But I suppressed the thought until I was 45, when I finally knew all at once and fully embraced it.
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    Jan 17, 2012 9:03 PM GMT
    I never fully understood myself that I was gay until college during that time of self-discovery. I did notice how I was interested in some of the guys in my grade school in that sexual way but never really put it past me. In high school, I grew close to two of my friends n we kissed (first gal pal was at the end of high school during my graduation party n other girl was in college) but while it was a shocker, it wasn't right for me. I soon began to hang out with some people who were gay and they kinda helped me find my true self in admitting being gay.

    I soon realized myself that I was truly gay when I kissed a guy for the first time and it felt right. Ever since then, I never looked back and know that I am gay. Of course even looking back I could say I would fit in some of the gay stereotypes but it's only made me be a unique person.