Jun 24, 2008 2:42 AM GMT
Ok guys. I am gay, I know that, but I have never had a boyfriend. Yes I have been with guys, lots actually, but I have never had a steady boyfriend. I never really thought about it until lately due to the fact that I have met someone and I can't get him out of my mind. We haven't messed around in person yet, just over the phone and cam, but this guy won't get out of my mind. I tried fucking someone to see if that would work but it hasn't, yep still there. Plus this guy lives in a different part of the country than I do and is older and so on and so on. I haven't even laid in bed with him yet. What the fuck is going on? Is it because I haven't had him? I do lose interest mostly after I have had a guy once, in person or over the net, but this one is driving me insane. Could this be the guy that I want to be my first boyfriend or do I just want to fuck the shit out of him and move on? Plus, I'm not sure if I could commit to just one guy! Isn't that what guys want? Fuck! I don't have a clue what the hell is going on right now!