I'm sorry

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    Jan 24, 2012 12:31 PM GMT
    I'm sorry all- I need your help again, I know usually that neediness is bad but I just- Can someone talk to me please? I'm crashing a bit emotionally (damn depression)
  • masculumpedes

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    Jan 24, 2012 12:53 PM GMT
    I'm always here for you...however, you seem pretty opinionated when it comes to solutions to your current situations. icon_wink.gif
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    Jan 24, 2012 12:53 PM GMT
    just hug me then and tell me it will be okay?
  • masculumpedes

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    Jan 24, 2012 1:13 PM GMT
    graniteknighte saidjust hug me then and tell me it will be okay?


    I can't...because it won't..... icon_cry.gif
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    Jan 24, 2012 4:12 PM GMT
    I just- most days I am a-okay but today was just unfun for the lack of a better term-The depression is a result of deep emotional scars from abusive situations in my past and I just- I dont fear being alone per say- I more fear being abandoned and unwanted/loved-- 6 days out of 7 I am fine but today was just an "I want a hug day because I feel like I've been abandoned."


    Regarding trying to move past it -I know that I probably have to confront my abuser at some point and just scream at them in a huge cathartic explosion- but ive never been the angry sort-- I bottle it all
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    Jan 24, 2012 4:46 PM GMT
    When you just have to ride out your depressed feelings until they pass, try to keep in mind how our moods are fluid and not necessarily rooted in the concrete realities that we experience.

    Hopefully you are too young to have experienced much death, but whenever I'm having trouble controlling my own depressed periods, I remember all the times I broke out into laughter at funerals of those I have loved. Completely inappropriate a mood for the moment, but either something would happen or someone would say something or I'd have a thought that I'd just completely connect to in a funny way.

    I would have a very happy moment in what concrete reality would define as a very sad time. My tears for love lost didn't anchor my mood because my mood is not the boat, it is the troubled water. It is the storm you are passing through. Captain, take hold of your ship and give yourself a hug.



    Sail on silver girl
    Sail on by
    Your time has come to shine
    All of your dreams are on their way
    See how they shine
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    Jan 24, 2012 5:59 PM GMT
    I am sorry you are feeling that way , so i will hug you too .
    Have try to go and volunteer , these are plenty of places that could use you , it would allow to meet new people .
    Hugs .
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    Jan 24, 2012 6:32 PM GMT

    Check your messages, J....