I am always amazed at my ability to keep going headstrong, even in my workouts!

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    Jan 25, 2012 7:32 PM GMT
    So about last Friday, I found out that I went from being 220 lbs. to 207 lbs. Now, I know...13 lbs. that's nothing. Well, it's something for me...haha. I've worked out before like...oh I dunno, 4-5 times, and I NEVER got that far. That's also because I didn't diet either. So, I am loosing weight, thank goodness!

    What amazes me the most is, the fact that I have no friends (Which is by choice) and yet, I never give up...in anything that I do. Today (and yesterday), I absolutely did not feel like working out. I didn't wanna do this program I'm on, I didn't want to do the DVD, nothing. But, I did it anyways. Now, part of the reason could be is that, I got the runner's high, where after every workout, I feel just plain amazing, but, I refuse to be a quitter.

    That's what happened to me coming straight out of High School, a quitter. I thought I'd be working in retail for the rest of my life and that I'd amount to nothing. Now, keeping in mind that in High School, I relied heavily on other people sometimes. I don't do that anymore. I have found that true happiness is something you have to find yourself. Somedays, it isn't always easy, but it's something you can attain. Believe me...haha, if I can attain it, anyone can. I don't have friends. I don't go out, but why should I need to? I'm happy for the most part, and I refuse to settle. I've found that I can do anything I set my mind to. I've gained confidence in myself, comfortablity in my own skin, and to roll with the punches. I've learned that, socially (unless by family), I just don't get it. I don't want to get men, women, none of them (Except for the older folks). As far as I'm concerned, men nowadays are trying to constantly one-up others, and you can't strike up a conversation with most men without hearing narrow-minded things. I've learned that carrying on a conversation with women my age is a little better, but talking about having the best clothes and the best hair is retarded. Eventually, you're going to die...what's the point?

    I find that the best people to be around is people in their prime. These people have been through it all, have seen it all, and most importantly, are just pleasant to be around. They don't judge, and they have their priorities straight. Whenever I'm around someone, I wanna learn something from them, instead of learning how to be a complete and total a-hole to someone. Read that book, seen it happen, not going back there.

    I take the path of suffering, the path of least resistance, the path of hardship. You don't learn anything, unless you suffer!

    Now....time to apply for more jobs...fml...lol.
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    Jan 25, 2012 10:56 PM GMT
    Genius is 1% inspiration, 99% perspiration. Edision would've been proud of you! Keep it up! icon_biggrin.gif
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    Jan 26, 2012 2:10 AM GMT
    That's nothing.

    I'm more completely amazed at your ability to keep going than you are. Headstrong? Au contraire! Headsuperstrong! You're the bomb!