Feb 15, 2012 8:06 PM GMT
Wow. I've never felt so disappointed in my behavior ever. Yesterday I woke up at like 10 and laid in bed until 12 sort of depressed about Valentine's Day (No big deal I always celebrate it being sad). Basically my argument and frustration falls under the fact that I never meet any guys. If it's not a hookup app/website it doesn't happen. I've never had a boyfriend and I blame it on the fact that I don't like clubs and gay guys are hard to find here in public. So this morning i was supposed to go pay for the mattress I ordered on the phone. I put on blue jeans, casual shoes, and a black jacket. Not even trying to look special or impressive because I'm just going to pay for a stupid mattress. BIG MISTAKE. The sales guy at the desk was gorgeous, like my exact type of guy. About 6'2", 22ish, athletic, clean cut, and sexy. I sat down and as he was talking and watching him move I could tell that he wasn't straight. Not like flamboyant gay, but somehow I could just tell. I was taken off guard and I just sat there and went through the process of paying for the mattress. I didn't smile or attempt to engage him in conversation at all. I just completely blew such a rare opportunity that I never get. Now I just feel stupid and like I'm a hypocrite.