Have u ever thought about suicide?

  • rowzzay

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    Feb 19, 2012 11:18 PM GMT
    Within the last year or so, suicide is on mind.
    When I wake up in the morning. I wish I hadn't.

    I cant live like this anymore. I don't want to live. It's not even that im all depressed and doom and gloom, rather I'm tired....I'm tired of life.

    I'm ready for it to end. I have no energy anymore. I just want to go to sleep and never wake again.

    I think about suicide all the time. Everyday. I think about how I'll do it. I think about when...

    Life has lost it's luster to me. I can't fake it anymore. Relationships with people are pointless, I dont enjoy the things I once enjoyed. I have no direction in mylife, i'm just somehow managing to get by. The littlest things send me over the edge...

    sometimes, if im having a bad day...something like missing the bus will make me want to kill myself, it's horrible.
    I dont know what to do. I just want this empty feeling to stop. I would give anything for it to stop, it's killing me. I feel like im 85..... and tired.. i want to die
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    Feb 19, 2012 11:23 PM GMT
    Yap.
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    Feb 20, 2012 12:05 AM GMT
    Talk to your family or friend, seek professional help, think about the consequences and impact of your action, remember the people that you will leave behind.
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    Feb 20, 2012 12:35 AM GMT
    First of all, don't let the stigma of mental health disorders affect your decisions based on seeking help for your issues. This article is about an interview with a guy who's spearheading a movement trying to get mental health issues out in the open and talked about. Telling somebody that you have clinical depression should be no more embarrassing than telling them you have diabetes.

    Look into working with a therapist and/or psychiatrist. Make sure they aren't idiots though, because a lot of mental health 'professionals' are poorly trained and completely inept these days.

    I have always dealt with clinical depression and most days I want to kill myself. Medication does help, but you have to be on the right medication. If you notice side effects that you don't want, or that the medication isn't working, let your psychiatrist know and they should definitely be able to change your medication to something with less or no side effects.
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    Feb 20, 2012 12:59 AM GMT
    Anduru saidFirst of all, don't let the stigma of mental health disorders affect your decisions based on seeking help for your issues. This article is about an interview with a guy who's spearheading a movement trying to get mental health issues out in the open and talked about. Telling somebody that you have clinical depression should be no more embarrassing than telling them you have diabetes.

    Look into working with a therapist and/or psychiatrist. Make sure they aren't idiots though, because a lot of mental health 'professionals' are poorly trained and completely inept these days.

    I have always dealt with clinical depression and most days I want to kill myself. Medication does help, but you have to be on the right medication. If you notice side effects that you don't want, or that the medication isn't working, let your psychiatrist know and they should definitely be able to change your medication to something with less or no side effects.


    wow, man thanks.
    No one knows that I'm feeling this way. A big part of the deprerssion I have is thinking that I cannot tell anyone or bother anyone with it.

    It's like I'd just rather curl up and die.....alone.

    My brother is a nurse and was telling me how one of his patients died the other day and he sat in the room with her......so she wouldn't die alone, because she had no family.

    I had wished I was that lady instead...
    I feel guilty for feeling that, but it's how I genuinely felt. I wished it was my turn to die...
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    Feb 20, 2012 1:20 AM GMT
    Please, PLEASE seek help. You have people who love you.
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    Feb 20, 2012 1:31 AM GMT
    I don't recommend speaking to people who love you about this in particular. Most people aren't equipped to handle thoughts this heavy. Family members have emotions interfering with their judgement. Some doctors or counsellors are good to talk to, others haven't got a clue, they just read about suicidal thoughts in a book. Religion doesn't help, it just creates feelings of guilt.

    Try to find anyone who doesn't freak out at the word "suicide", preferably a counsellor.

    It's true, having someone to just say what you're feeling to.. it makes a world of difference.
  • monet

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    Feb 20, 2012 1:31 AM GMT
    I have thought about suicide. In fact, I have a firm exit plan in place.

    It's not depression that makes me think about suicide. It's the fact that I have a strong history of Alzheimers Disease in my family. I am currently caring for my mother with the disease and I watched three of my grandparents die from it.

    I know too well the course of Alzheimers Disease and I do not want to live if I am ever diagnosed with it. I have already discussed my plan with my family and friends. I am 50 now and if I can make it another 10 years nobody will rely on me any longer (my youngest child will be out of college and my parents will be dead).

    I've told my loved ones that I will commit suicide if I am ever diagnosed with Alzheimers Disease.
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    Feb 20, 2012 1:34 AM GMT
    You just posted on a website where strangers could reply if you should commit suicide or if it was even a good idea, guess what?
    They still said No. icon_smile.gif
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    Feb 20, 2012 1:38 AM GMT
    My mother was suicidal and in fact tried multiple times. I was unable to deal with it and don't understand the motivation. Please seek help, she didn't
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    Feb 20, 2012 1:40 AM GMT
    CoolStoryBro saidYou just posted on a website where strangers could reply if you should commit suicide or if it was even a good idea, guess what?
    They still said No. icon_smile.gif



    What he said ;)
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    Feb 20, 2012 1:42 AM GMT
    Back in 2007. I was ready to do it too. Had all my affairs in order, worked out how I was gonna do it and everything. my family intervened before anything happened. More than anything my aunt and grandmother I credit for helping me. My parents just make it worse. It still crosses my mind occasionally but I shoo the thought away immediately.
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    Feb 20, 2012 1:53 AM GMT
    Please do not do this! There have been numerous times in my life where I wanted to kill myself and end it all. Even now those thoughts have still lingered. However, you have to remember there are people that love you and do not want to see you get hurt. I know that it is hard to hear but things will get better. Trust me, sometimes I have to remind myself the same thing. It might be hard to hear now, but everything will get better. Please do not end your life!
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    Feb 20, 2012 1:54 AM GMT
    Yes.
  • Coug24_wyo

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    Feb 20, 2012 1:59 AM GMT
    I've been there off and on also OP and I guess all i can say is, rethink it and even though it may be on your mind alot and life may suck right now, that doesn't mean life will always suck nor does it mean your destined to die alone or by your own hand.

    I don't know how long it will be before things get better for you, but I do know they will and that if you don't hold out long enough to see the rewards wherever you are that's something you'll regret. Keep your chin up buddy and if you ever need to talk feel free to pm me!
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    Feb 20, 2012 2:00 AM GMT
    At the end stages of my first long-term relationship, it was constantly on my mind. I was poorly equipped to deal with the failure of the relationship; I equated it with total personal failure, and couldn't see a "way out". It was a very dark time for me.

    A faint echo of that happened at the end of my second LTR, which involved marriage. But I was able to shut that down right quick.

    Otherwise, no, not for quite some time. I have a lot to live for! icon_biggrin.gif
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    Feb 20, 2012 2:02 AM GMT
    What do you mean, "yes".............?

    Bitch


    You're my buddy. icon_sad.gif
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    Feb 20, 2012 2:10 AM GMT
    turbobilly saidWhat do you mean, "yes".............?

    Bitch


    You're my buddy. icon_sad.gif


    I think anyone who has ever dealt with any level of self-hatred has. I'm not there at the moment... - But always being the odd different person that no one quite knew what to do with - so they just dismissed me as a weirdo fat kid - those thoughts come.

    Just a thought - if you were talking to me.

    Like I said, I am in a much brighter place now.

    And to the OP. I relate to being tired. I've been tired. I've tired of being pushed around and walked all over. Feeling like no one really cares about me unless I can do something for them. I get it.

    There's a better choice. You may not want to hear it, but I had to. You can choose to Live. I don't mean go through the motions of the day. You can choose to actually get up and make the changes in your life that will lead you to a happier place.

    That is what I did. It wasn't easy. I pissed some people off along the way. For me, I chose to go back to school and get a graduate degree. My family wasn't supportive. I know that sounds stupid, but they weren't. I took steps to follow my heart and not what everyone thought I should be doing. When I stopped trying to please everyone, I discovered that pursuing my dreams began to fill that emptiness. There were moments that I was tired, but I kept on. I often felt like I wasn't strong enough. Yet, I was. I didn't think it would ever happen for me. It did. I look back and I'm amazed.

    That's not meant to sound arrogant or brag on myself, but it is meant to say that you have a choice. You can choose to live. You can choose to make it better. I hope that is what you choose.

    Hang in there.
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    Feb 20, 2012 2:13 AM GMT
    Yup, I was....I'm here, man...any time......icon_wink.gif
  • tautomer

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    Feb 20, 2012 2:17 AM GMT
    I have. It will grip me if things in my life are falling apart. In the fall when I had a scare where I thought my student loans from undergrad weren't going to defer for grad school is when I had those thoughts come up again.

    What I did (and do if it ever comes up) is tell myself to wait, just wait. I am not one to make in the moment decisions as it is, and almost any time I do it does not turn out well. This is no exception (and obviously sucicide will never turn out well). A few days later I'll climb out of it. I may cycle back in but telling myself to wait has kept myself safe in the past.
  • zenmonkie

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    Feb 20, 2012 2:58 AM GMT
    Smoke weed and watch some Family Guy or something.
    And remember, your life could easily be much MUCH worse... try being an HIV positive dirt poor African.
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    Feb 20, 2012 3:02 AM GMT
    Having buried so many who I love (including suicides) and having others who I love betray me and living every day with all that pain, I completely relate to the idea of becoming tired of living.

    Life is tough & it can wear you down. I like the ideas already posted of waiting to see if things get better. of taking charge of your life to make things better, of seeking professional counsel to help you accomplish this.

    If you do not mind discussing it--and pardon this intrusion if you do--what about your life do you think is zapping so much of your energy? If you think being happy is faking it, then why is being miserable not faking it? Where have relationships not fullfilled what you thought they might? If you considered living as an option, what direction might you like your life to have? What would make you happy?
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    Feb 20, 2012 3:07 AM GMT
    This past month, I've lost a friend I loved dearly to suicide. I miss him. He had so much to live for. He just fell into another dark spell, and he forgot about all the important stuff - that love is waiting, just right outside the door. Be patient. Wait, just a bit longer. And in the meantime, talk to someone. Get help.
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    Feb 20, 2012 3:07 AM GMT
    rowzzay saidWithin the last year or so, suicide is on mind.
    When I wake up in the morning. I wish I hadn't.

    I cant live like this anymore. I don't want to live. It's not even that im all depressed and doom and gloom, rather I'm tired....I'm tired of life.

    I'm ready for it to end. I have no energy anymore. I just want to go to sleep and never wake again.

    I think about suicide all the time. Everyday. I think about how I'll do it. I think about when...

    Life has lost it's luster to me. I can't fake it anymore. Relationships with people are pointless, I dont enjoy the things I once enjoyed. I have no direction in mylife, i'm just somehow managing to get by. The littlest things send me over the edge...

    sometimes, if im having a bad day...something like missing the bus will make me want to kill myself, it's horrible.
    I dont know what to do. I just want this empty feeling to stop. I would give anything for it to stop, it's killing me. I feel like im 85..... and tired.. i want to die







    Answer me this instead: do you WANT to die or do you just want the PAIN to go away?

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    Feb 20, 2012 3:09 AM GMT
    rowzzay saidWithin the last year or so, suicide is on mind.
    When I wake up in the morning. I wish I hadn't.

    I cant live like this anymore. I don't want to live. It's not even that im all depressed and doom and gloom, rather I'm tired....I'm tired of life.

    I'm ready for it to end. I have no energy anymore. I just want to go to sleep and never wake again.

    I think about suicide all the time. Everyday. I think about how I'll do it. I think about when...

    Life has lost it's luster to me. I can't fake it anymore. Relationships with people are pointless, I dont enjoy the things I once enjoyed. I have no direction in mylife, i'm just somehow managing to get by. The littlest things send me over the edge...

    sometimes, if im having a bad day...something like missing the bus will make me want to kill myself, it's horrible.
    I dont know what to do. I just want this empty feeling to stop. I would give anything for it to stop, it's killing me. I feel like im 85..... and tired.. i want to die


    ummmm...you're depressed (even though you say you are not)