matt45710 saidI'm really sorry to see Steve go. We had a lot of conversations at the time when he was coming out and getting divorce. He's posted here many times, but nothing quite recently.
I think that Steve whole point was that he finally felt whole in all aspects of his life, and that he was embraced and loved in a way that he's never been before (I did get to read the original post). While some may have seen something about a three way, I'm assuming for him it was all about love and acceptance. He really didn't go into an gruesome details here.
I'd make the assumption that Steve was feeling great and loved and all this, and to get a comment that it was all about sex just really burst his balloon. Sort of like he was talking to the wrong community. As he stated in his post that you can't see anymore, he tended to wear his heart of his sleeve, and I think that for him he felt it got squashed.
While some might think that this should have been in a sex forum, I know that for Steve this was exactly the right place, because for him it was about community.
Palikari talked me into coming back on here long enough to explain why I left and how I felt.
Everything that Matt45710 (who is a dear friend) said, is exactly right. ItalianMuscleblk, it's not your fault.
All you did was point out that I was humiliating myself. I realized that, after you said it, and was so embarrassed that I left. I saw that one guy asked for my email address, so I came back long enough to explain it to him, and give him my email address.
But you have to understand... I've never been pretty like you guys, I've never been athletic or confident or desired, like you guys. Now that I'm aging, it's worse (these are things I told Palikari). Matt knows what I've been through to get this far. I'm still having issues with it all, and this last weekend was a breakthrough time for me. It was like someone turned on a light switch and I was seeing for the first time that I was not alone. I was seeing for the first time that it was just possible to feel real joy in having sex, it was just possible that I might be sexually desireable to someone, and that maybe I am not the troll that I always felt I was.
Damn it, not everyone is raised by nurturing parents, is popular in school, has a lot of money, is successful, is beautiful and/or desireable. When they passed out all that shit, I was at the back of the line, and I got nothing. My wife never made me feel loved or sexually desireable or even like I was a man. I'm starting to get some sense of all that stuff, now, and it's the gay community that has been giving it to me - freely.
So Matt is right - overcome by joyful exuberance, I shared something that I shouldn't have, or that should have been shared in a different way. Please forgive me. But the damage has been done. No Chuckystud, this time, but only that man in the mirror to blame.