How do you know that you are HOMOSEXUAL?

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    Apr 03, 2012 11:41 AM GMT
    Since im the first one asking that question i have the responsibility to answer it first in full history and honest manner.icon_wink.gif

    Hi Goodday! My name is Hames im 23 y/o and i quit trying to be heterosexual, i fully accepted myself last month, i never tell to my family, friends or anyone that i am homosexual. You are a lucky gay that your the first person that i proudly tell you that I AM GAY & I WANT TO MAKE THIS JOURNEY PRODUCTIVELY. This is my coming-out, This is my story...

    - At the young age of 4 y/o (the farthest rewinding of my thoughts that i can still remember) my Mother & Sister is always with me, because my Father is working to support our daily needs as well as my mother when were in school with my sister. As well as they are handling family business in seasonal basis. We belong to a middle class family. So sometimes when both of my parents are busy working we are left home, we have different friends, somewhat the same likes but generally were like cats and dogs. were never get along growing-up, we are never close. So my close friends are my girl neighbors we had fun and i feel im comfortable being with them. When I was 5 y/o i went to my neighbor's general merchandise store and buy Tamarind Candy he said i can only get the candy i ill go inside there house, when im inside i was amaze because they have TV and its on then i watched. Later he get my candy and he said " You can get this candy only if you suck my cock." I was clueless and i told him " That is dirty and smells bad". Then he replied: " OK, I will put alcohol" Then i was terrified, i told him to let me go home. but he said " (Shouting) NO!! after you suck my cock i will give your candy and i let you go home." then he drag me to there comfort room and i suck he's cock. After that i was crying and he told me not tell anyone what had happened. Since then im afraid to buy in there store. After a few weeks my Mom order me to buy spices she give me money and i went out to buy it to different store but i end up nothing to buy only the store that im afraid off is only left then i don't have i choice i went there and monster is there it happen again 2 times and im in trauma i become a loner. When i reach Grade 3 that time my classmate told me that i was gay and that is the start of bullies and violence because im girly but inside of me it kinda hurts i pray God that this phenomenon will perish. but i just ignored it, play, have a life but never fighting for that bullies because i rise in a Roman Catholic belief and one of the teachings are love your enemy. That beliefs always holding me back to punch back. When i reach high school the bullies are traumatic i end-up living by myself and stay away from my neighborhood and seek happiness to my classmates but still im hiding my true feelings because i wanted to fit in. But still i don't have best-friend, i always pray to GOD to make my action manly and then i discover porn materials and it was in a pictures of playboy and i get erected and i learn to masturbate since then, i always do it when im alone, then straight video porn then i had my first girlfriend we had intimate scene on new years eve, we went to our old abandoned house with a fiend and his girlfriend were 2 couples in that house, then its dark and the air is sweet coldy then i hug my gf, kissing toridly to her lips, neck down to her shoulder and to her breast.................ohsssssssssssss...... but im confuse why that im not erected with her? then i didn't fuck her we went to her house and sleep over. Since then im confuse when im watching barely legal straight porn i always wanted to watch a masculine big dick porn star and get aroused and masturbate. after i get stunned my belief of Roman Catholic will condemned me this is a sin. that is why i pray to GOD that please make me feel erected with girls. but since then till today is not happening that is why last month i decided to full acceptance of my natural being and this April 8 im turning 24 and i want to revolutionize my way of life and belief. Today im ideology would be liberalism, equality, humanitarian, environmentalism, justice, democracy, love and MODERN ROMAN CATHOLIC i will fully follow the great commandments as well as the 10 commandments because GOD is LOVE. and he wants me to LIVE HAPPY, BLISSFULLY...
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    Apr 03, 2012 2:38 PM GMT
    Im arouse when i see a sweet, caring, muscle guy.icon_wink.gif
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    Apr 03, 2012 4:58 PM GMT
    You're not the first one on this forum asking that question...

    And to answer that question, I'll use my typical answer:

    "I was born this way, hey!" - Lady GaGa
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    Apr 03, 2012 5:22 PM GMT
    so do i, cheers!icon_wink.gif
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    Apr 07, 2012 3:44 PM GMT
    If i don't experience those traumatic violence in past and have a good lifestyle since little, would i still be gay?icon_cry.gif
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    Apr 08, 2012 11:49 AM GMT
    Had a similar experience as a young person 6 or 7 and blamed myself as the instigator but as bob Marley said "Don't worry be happy " I'm not a Catholic but Just follow your heart no matter where it sends or leads you !icon_biggrin.gif
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    Apr 08, 2012 3:23 PM GMT
    @ Datagrub awesome! ur right!icon_wink.gif

  • Apr 16, 2012 8:41 AM GMT
    i feel very bad that you had to go thru such a horrible abuse.
    of course, its not your fault and there are support groups that can help you deal with those issues. you may want to talk to a therapist/psychologist if you have access to one (i dont know where you live).

    if you are gay, it has nothing to do with being abused. many heterosexual men were abused that way, by men or women, when they were children, that did not make them straight out of something else. abuse can affect how you see yourself and make your life miserable for years later- maybe your whole life. thats why you should talk to a professional counselor. but it does not make you gay. most gay or bisexual men were not abused sexually when they were younger. in fact, that man may have targeted you on purpose because he thought you were somewhat 'gay.' people often think that they can tell when a child will grow up gay.

    i grew up roman catholic. some gay men continue to practice the Catholic faith, others leave it behind. in some big cities, there are churches that welcome gay people. there are some catholic churches that have ministries for gay Catholics, that are more or less accepting (but don't condone homosexual sexual intercourse since the Church still teaches that it is a sin). In a large city, you should be able to find other gay Catholics who worship somewhere, even if it is not on Catholic Church property.

    Being gay or homosexual simply means that you are sexually attracted to other men, and that you want to have sex with them-not every single man, of course, but those men who you find arousing. Some people say gay men are born that way. Some say it is a product of environment (upbringing, distant fathers, overprotective mothers, lack of strong masculine role models, being treated poorly because you didn't act how a boy was supposed to act. etc). some people say homosexuality comes from all these things combined. Whether its in your DNA or your upbringing or both, its not a medical or psychiatric problem. its who you are as a person. it allows you a way to love someone and experience life that other men cannot understand. That doesn't make it wrong. it just makes it different. homosexuality has existed since ancient times- in ancient Greece, men often had male lovers before they got married, and in other societies it happened as well. It was forbidden in Judaism, and that's how anti-gay prejudice entered Christianity.

    talk to a gay-friendly priest or lay minister or join a support group, so you can find friends who can help you deal with your problems and embrace gay life in a positive way.