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Lately my dreams are starting to grow increasingly vivid and I even became lucid about a week ago. I enjoy these dreams. I'm with people I once had strong feelings for. But it's kinda sad too, because they're not a part of my life anymore. During these dreams I have such a euphoric feeling but once I wake up, I'm upset. I just find it odd I'm having these dreams that stir powerful emotions. I used to think dreams were just meaningless random visual junk, maybe they still are. Has anybody else gained control of their dreams i.e. lucidity?

No I haven't gained control but will say that I have felt like real life in some of my dreams.

Cool topic.

I've been exploring this for years. I was quite young when I started having lucid dreams.

Years of meditation have given me the ability to retain some level of conscious awareness even when I'm cold asleep. It's not really a true lucidity so much as a duality - sort of like being in a movie, but also in the audience, at the same time.

You can do a lot to explore this sort of thing. The problem is that it can be like building your own sandbox... As you seem to already know.

Ive actually been having dreams like that since I was a kid. Its kind of freaky sometimes. I would be exploring why you are dreaming thoes people that are no longer in your life. Example: is it that these people are from your past that you had a falling out with? or is it someone that has passed on? Just some questions to ask to try and figure out whats up and really on the mind.

The other day I had a dream I was a date or something with this guy very cute and it was a totally romantic night and i worked up feeling like he was lying next to me. I have no idea who he was but totally amazing haha.

i've had dreams do vivid they came with their own blasting soundtrack! the strangest ones that stand out are visions into the future that are like puzzles waiting to be solved. i've also had clear dreams of my mate who passed away nearly 4 years ago in a freak road accident. they've kinda been comforting, letting me know that he's out there somewhere, and doing fine. have you ever flown or levetated in your dreams? truly a wild experience, although i do wake up feeling more tired than when i went to bed!

my ability to control my dreams started in my youth - around dreams where I felt unsafe and was able to be aware I was dreaming and will myself to fly away and then control my flight over fields, oceans and forests. To this day I can meditate prior to going to sleep and if I am lucky I can fly the night away... havent used this technique for sex dreams yet.

My dream usually related to what I been doing the day before. Said if I think about work, I tend to dream about work related things. If I am thinking about some guy he will appear in my dream. Once I was reading about HIV and AIDS, strangely I dream that I have been affected and was extremely relieve when I wake up.

I really think what we do in the day will be store in our memory/subconcious and will appear in our dream

The brain, per say, doesn't distinguish between "reality" and "dreamed reality"...we just decide which holds more validity for us at that moment. Dreams can tell you so much about your path in life, about where you've been, and perhaps where you're on the way to going. I find dreams to be an amazing and frightening glimpse into a more vivid realm of the possible, if you're open to it. You might try writing them down immediately after waking and keeping a journal of them all, pull it out say two weeks after, and see what the reoccuring themes are, if any.

ive always had such odd dreams

when i was younger i used to have a reoccurring dream that i would fall until i hit a huge piece of sliced cheese
it used to scare me awake

but lately ive been having odd dreams as well

and they seem so real

i think its because ive been really stressed out tho so thats prolly the reason

I pray every single night that I don't dream. I hate dreaming. My dreams are way to vivid and often violent. There have even been times where I've woken up and almost threw up from the horror film imagery. I dream in every sense, including smell and taste.

But anyway, that's just me.

wow... you sound like my mom. I bitch out my aunt mentally everytime I see my aunt that took my mom to see darcula when she was a kid. My mom called me crying like it was the end of the world when my brother took her to see Resident Evil 2.

Has anyone ever experienced Sleep Paralysis before? It happened to me once and it was pretty scary at the time since I didn't know what was happening. It's a bit freaky " seeing " some sort of shadowy figure (the shape of a human torso) at the opposite side of the room just slowly making it's way towards you. I knew that I wasn't dreaming at all.

I tried yelling for my brother but nope, no sound could be heard. I remember just staring at my left arm, just hoping it would flinch or twitch, but nope, nothing, nada. For some reason, I had just closed my eyes and went back to sleep.

The next day, I was a bit freaked out by the experience...actually thought that my room was haunted...lol. Did some research and it was a big sigh of relief to find out that others had experienced this as well...and oh yeah, that my room wasn't actually haunted !!! If this ever happens again, I'm gonna try and urinate on my shadowy peeping tom buddy.

I've had the experience of being aware of both sleeping and dreaming, and on one of those occasions, I did notice the body in paralysis. It's a bit disconcerting.

I'm part of an unfortunate group that does not remember their dreams upon waking in the .morning. I sleep right through the night. I might recall one or two a month at the most.
Perhaps my brain is protecting me from something. >:o)

I dream often of a person I knew in the past. Someone I had strong feelings for. It's never the same dream but when he's in it, I've learned to control it.

Last time, I succeeded to tell him my feelings for him...and finally, after all these dreams, I finally kissed him. It was great. But when I woke up, I felt very sad and empty.

As for the sleep paralysis, I have experienced it 2 times. It was hell. I couldn't move, I couldn't scream and I felt a very strong and very bad presence in my room, watching me. I tried and I tried to move, to scream but I couldn't move a muscle nor make a sound.

It was hell, pure hell. It seemed that it lasted forever but then, I reasoned and calmed myself and when back to sleep. I think that when the reason takes over the instinct, the fear goes away.

I've had lucid dreams.

I've levitated and have flown in one of my dream. it was like so real that i kinda just blinked back to reality not so much as waking up. i had a full conscious mind. i thought i was really flying...so when i "blinked" back to reality...i tried to push by self off the bed. and i kept trying for full 10 minutes or more. only then i realized it was a dream.

I've also had sleep paralysis. several times. and yes i saw a torso of some man once, a hooded woman ...more like a witch ... falling on me, and some spider like animal jump off my chest and cling to the ceiling and then just vanishing there. at these times i was wide awake...and couldn't even utter a single word let alone scream. for those of you who i think i might be on drugs... I'VE NEVER EVER SMOKED EVEN.

I've also had dreams that hint at the future. i saw some one die close to me for three consecutive nights and on the third night my aunt passed away.

I still remember a few dreams from my childhood. when i was like 5 or 6.

so i dont think dreams are just random thoughts . they're more meaningful then we think or can even imagine.

xK, They are not meaningless junk, I did a term paper on dreams. One of my ex's told me she goes to dreammoods.com evry time she remeberers a dream. I think that is a light hearted site. There are many great books on the topic. Go to ask.com or amazon. Knowledge is the key to better self-awareness.

Dream interpretation is not a science, but you can learn alot about yourself. My paper was on why do we as human beings share many of our dreams Ie: Flying, going in public naked or in underwear, finding yourself in a class and there is a test and you didn't study for it etc. Getting physically hurt in a dream and waking up with pain in that spot.

There are many Buddhists who claim they can go back to dreams once they have been up if they choose to, or even alter a dream without waking!
peace --Mike

i will pay you for that urbanguy. i envy you.

i have had the sleep paralysis thing too. fucking awful. and rather like doing just a little too much special K. but those days are past.

I've experienced that most of my life, although much less so the past few years. I'd feel 'euphoric' as xKorix decribed and enthralled, not wanting it to end, just marvelling at the bizarreness of my mind's imagery yet not afraid in the least since I was fully aware of it being a dream. Unlike xKorix, I'd often feel upset when the dream was interupted or concluded in a way that I had not predicted or wished. Even before I awoke.

As for believing that dreams are meaningless... I still do not know their purpose but I have had spooky visions of the future while dreaming, often of tombstones or long-defunct hospital wards. I've chanced upon several of these deceased person's tombstones in various countries and even found out that I was living in a former WWII veteran's hospital at one point when I lived in London (UK). ???????????
The B&W Pic on me straddling and embracing a headstone (Kunz) was snapped by a friend - I had dreamt of this woman in an erotic dream seven years previous and it was actually my friend that noticed the name on the stone and said "Hey Darko, isn't that...?" (all other names and dates on the marker have been cropped out).

**shrugs with a baffled baboon expression**

Heh, I dream every night - if I make an effort or something strikes me I have no problem recalling it.

Once or twice I recall "blinking" and suddenly noticing that it was daytime - like no time had passed between going to bed and getting up. No dreams, no blackness. It was strange, like having your sleep robbed from you. Loved it as a kid; hate it now, when I look forward to getting a chance to sleep at night :p

Concerning sleep paralysis:

Man, I get it ALOT - less recently ... it depends - goes in spurts, and I can't quite pick out the patterns yet. Started in high school - well, I recall it starting earlier when I was small, but it would be something simple like I just couldn't turn over or move my arm.

But in high school, that all changed. Anyone ever watch the Exorcism of Emily Rose? Well, I had an episode where I "woke up" and couldn't move. A shadowy figure floated over me, looking like it were made from television static, and proceeded to strangle me. I couldn't breathe, or shout or anything, and I felt like I was convulsing or something, can't describe it. Lots of fear and dread and evil. I finally managed to break free, and was so scared by the episode I had to wake up my parents and let them know what just happened. Freaked me out really bad, and I kept having episodes similar to this - usually not with the shadowy figure, but the feeling of being "invaded" or convusling and a terrible evil presence. I thought it might be something praeternatural, until I learned more about sleep paralysis, and realised it's something lots of people go through, and since then I've dealt with it better.

Still, it's hardly something you get used to. I've had some bad episodes somewhat recently of my sheets being pulled off my bed, of being thrown about the room, of hearing an unintelligible evil voice, those same feelings of fear, invasion, and convulsion ... but each time I wake up and it's obvious it's all part of a dream state (no evidence of thrashing around the room).

Good news is that it hasn't happened in a while :D. It'll probably happen again, and though it is terrifying, you learn to deal with it.

As far as I can tell there isn't a "cure" and it seems that you have a higher chance of experiencing it if someone in your family does. Basically as far as science goes, your body produces some chemical to keep you from acting out your dreams while you sleep, and somehow you "wake up" before it has a chance to wear off. And in this state of semi-sleep there's alot of brain activity occurring, which tends to manifest itself in intense emotional experiences. Some people even mention euphoria or intense sexual stimulation, though the prevailing emotion seems to be a sense of fear, dread, and evil.

Anyway, that was probably more than anyone wanted to know. If you want to read up more on it, just google it. Blah ... sorry for the long post ...

arnt dreams supposed to be unfulfiled desires,so freud said.

man, I didn't think sleep paralysis was that common... it's happened to me several times, different locations, different times in my life. yes, i thought the bad spirit thing too...but i'm not so sure, tending to agree it's the power of ones mind over body. i'm usually forced by the back or upper shoulders while lying face down and cant move, scream, awake or open my eyes. the room in my last house was actually haunted, needless to say the whole episode there scared the hell out of me! the guy who moved in there after me said his cats even sense the spirit in the house. freaky stuff. he confronted her in a recent dream and told her to leave the place and since then has had no new experiences. two worlds collide. strange world we live in!

I generally have three types of dreams, very detailed, specific, and memorable:

- Dreams about the past, friends and family, usually happy or special events from my childhood.

- Dreams about things/events that have not happened yet. A couple times a month I dream of... situations... like standing in a checkout line and turning around and recognising someone I know... or like going for a swim at the lake and having someone on the phone unexpectedly... or just everyday events in my life.

The only problem is that they pretty much turn out to actually happen a week or so later.

Very much like what I have been told a deja vu experience is; but I can remember the specific dream and when I dreamed it.

It REALLY freaks out my partner when we are outside or something, and I tell him he has to go pick up the phone - before it rings. Or the time we were in India and I had a dream that his nephew was going to total the Rover - he laughed: three days later he totaled the Rover in exactly the way I told him he would.

I used to think I was nuts and really worried about it, now I just go with the flow; "There are more things in heaven and earth..."

- The third type of dream is the one I think is the weirdest. Say I have a systems engeineering project at work.

In those dreams I am designing things - very real, very complete, incredibly complex things - sort of like problem solving in my sleep.

Then I will wake up and remember how I solved the probelm and be able to just walk into my office and sort of regurgitate the answer to a problem that might have eluded me for weeks.

Rob

more and more people are being able to become lucid. It's because we are coming closer to the close of the mayan calender.

the 5th and final one for human kind. In or around 2012 is the expected culmination of the human conciousness. Our actual vibrational patterns are changing in the engery fields around us.

be prepared for a lot more psychicesque occurences happing withing your life.

the Mayans just ran out of numbers. the world will go on. it's too profitable.

Twice, when I was going through periods of extreme sleep deprivation, I had "waking dreams," or hallucinations, or whatever you want to call them. I experienced things that I knew weren't real. I can see how some people would seek these experiences with vision-quests or drugs. But to me, it's kind of like staying up all night to watch another lunar eclipse. Been there, done that.

I think they're fascinating little clues about how the ghost in the machine works.

I didnt say the world was gonna end lol, it's gonna change

MG -

I think there is a petty big difference between sleep deprivation, lucid dream states, and a 'vision quest'.

IMO 'vision quests' - despite popular mythology and coopting by a certain youth group - are an integral part of of many Native American tribal coming of age ceremonies.

Truthfully they are practiced less and less these days, especially as elder generations die out and many intermarry or move away from the reservations.

My great uncle directed a 'vision quest' for me when I was a young teenager. The ceremonies lasted several days before I began the actual quest. I was visiting my Aunt at the time, and my parents were furious when they found out later.

The last time I visited the Res - and this was 2-3 years ago - I was told that one had not been done in several years.

Although I don't deny the deprivation aspects of a 'quest'; I would liken one more to a long meditation in a nature setting.

Rob

Ive started to have lucid dreams recently, im able to summon people from my past with little thought, i can fly and and things are so vivid and i almost always will remeber my dreams the next morning, sometimes my dreams become so life like i end up shaking myself awake

Gaining control in ones dreams is something I found myself doing, not a lot but during some dreams. Its hard to give details how it happens because I don't think a person really knows how they just do it. Perhaps if one realizes that its a dream and not the real world, I find that the ones I can control are the ones I normally know are dreams. Like if i'm with someone famous or doing something I have never done or will do, or have been to a place I have never been

I don't really believe dreams are mindless visual stuff. I believe and this me taking notes from my class, but that its the sub conscience(spelling?) is basically in control while you sleep. Dreams are sometimes trying to tell you things about your life that you don't want to know or believe but its in fact true. Perhaps in your dream you spend time with people in your past, is trying to tell you, you miss them or one of them needs you or something along those lines

FUNNY that i should read this today...

this was in my e mail box this morning:

WEDNESDAY, SEPTEMBER 19

Most people want to rest when they sleep. Unlike most people, the Kabbalists always used sleep as a platform for spiritual work.

If you're going through challenges, did you know you can ask for solutions before you go to sleep, and quite often you'll get the answer in a dream, or even wake up with the answer?

If you are experiencing fears and anxiety, did you know you can ask for the strength to overcome them before you go to sleep, and perhaps even face your fears in your dreams, so that the mountains become molehills in real life?

Make plans to do some spiritual work tonight. And today, do what you can to transform the negativity you created every Wednesday of the past year.

Wow, what a great topic and amazing number of people who are interested in dreams. :)

There are some books about practising to have lucid dreams and even wake up in your dream.

Great way is to write dream journal, I have 5-6 dreams per night, since I started to write the journal few years ago. You can really achieve great results.

And asking a question before your sleep is a proven practise to me!

Good luck, just be careful! :)

I had an interesting experience the other day where i was in a state between consciousness and unconsciousness where I knew I could just get up and was awake but my brain was firing neurons and I had all these thoughts. Not so much a dream but random thoughts. I found it amazing but after a while I decided to get up and resume the day. Weird.

Yeah, I'm all alone. I'm rolling a big doughnut and this snake wearing a vest...

Funny this topic should come up, I rarely remember my dreams but last night I had a nightmare that seemed to last all night. I was on a train that had been hijacked by terrorists. Never found out how it ended, I woke up at 3:30 AM to pee.

The most intense dreams I had were when I was a kid, I dreamt of my birth (I was a breach), very frightening because I almost suffocated in the dream (it makes sense my mom was put under general anaesthetic because the doctor was showing his kid the Christmas lights!).

Finally I had a dream a few years ago in which I discovered Elvis's decomposing body in a suite bag in my closet! That was very freaky!

I usually can't control much in my dreams, but I've had a couple dreams where I wake up crying because its so sad. Those are not fun...

However, on the other hand, I've had dreams where I could fly, walk through walls, create objects just by thinking about it...

in general, i can only remember my dreams when I'm really stressed, or just coming off some stress (like an exam or something).

Sometimes I have dreams that are so realistic that I don't realize they were actually a dream until later on. I wouldn't say they are lucid because there is no control over what is happening, kind of like life sometimes, it just happens. The other night I had a dream that I got a really bad bloody nose, I just couldn't stop it, I woke up and there was no blood but I felt like I had one and if you've ever gotten one there is a particular feeling you feel after. Clogged and lightheaded I guess. So, weird right?

I had my first one recently. I'm still a little on the freaked out side about it, because of the feel of it. I was almost certain it was happening until the middle of it. It kind of forced me into making a very important life decision though.

Mine have been strange and vivid lately. I think it's the weather - I sleep better when it's colder.

Wow....dreams and dreaming. It's always been an extremely fascinating subject nearly my entire life. The earliest examples of lucid dreaming I can recall werefairly simple ones where in a dream, for example, I'd be participating in a snowball fight. Two days later, I was indeed in a snowball fight, and the exact same people were in it and even the snowballs themselves were therown around the same way. I used to think those dreams that came true were a sort of novelty than anything else. Until one day I had a dream about a group of para-military guys who were killed in a desert sand storm, their helicopters and an airplane all a part of the vivid 'crash and burn' style dream I had. This dream truly shook me for two days until the news broke out that a group of military people were killed after their clandestine operation to rescue the 51 Iranian embassy hostages was foiled. I don't recall the exact date now, but it must have been very late 1979 or 1980, I think. I kept my dreams far more seriously after that.

Stay tuned for more soon...

i've always have weird dreams. mostly very scary and devilish. i've notice it depend on my mood of the period. When i have peace in my mind, everthigns fine around me, my dreams are calm and usually i don't remember them. If i was under pressure or something bothers me a lot during certain period, I'd have scary dreams. and I usually would remember the scary ones.

those paralyzed dreams are those when your mind is awake, or conscientiously awake, yet your body is not. if only sub conscientiously awake, then you can control your dreams, kinda fun, like being a director.

I'm one of those people that believes that dreams are symbols of your life. Wether past, present or future, they say something about you even though the thought of idea may not be pinpoint obvious. My dreams seem so real, and very vivid. I'm not even conscience that I'm in a dream, I take it as real life with real emotions- sometimes I cry in my dreams and I wake up right in the middle of it- with lots of tears down my cheek.


I've experienced some sleep paralysis also, it's really weird and it can get a little creepy. I feel as if my dreams and reality are fighting to take me, like a being is grabbing my soul- and I want to scream really bad but nothing comes out, not even movement of the mouth. I feel like I want to move, but nothing occurs either. It's really interesting......

Laugh or believe what I say but its true.

When I was little around twelve/thirteen yrs old, I dreamt I rode on a plane, I could see people putting things in the over head compartment, but they couldn't see me and I also see other passengers sitting and talking with one another and I kept having this dream over and over, next thing I know I rode on a plane and came to the mainland. I never thought I would leave the island for the U.S.

This one I dreamt, I rode on a helicopter, I could see the shadow and the blades turning and I was going up, sure enough I rode in a Black Hawk helicopter the US Army uses.

While I was in the Army, I dreamt this guy (shaved head, hazel eyes, white) staring at me thou he couldn't see me but I could see him and he was always in my dream, all I saw, was his neck on up (face), sure enough he was one of my co-worker and we hang out 2gether, drank, went to the club, he did have a GF (sucks, he was cute) and him and his GF would argue and he'll call me and talk about their problem, I never did tell him about my dream, I enjoyed hanging out with him thou him and his GF moved to LV and we lost touch after that.

weird (believe it or not)

Mine are usually unbelievably horrific, or they are about everyday normal events that always come true eventually. They say this doesn't really happen that its just a form or deja vu, but it has happened to me to many times to just be coincidence.

I have written down dreams that have come true. Sometimes I wonder if they are supposed to be telling me something or leading up to something, who knows.

To slayerstrppd03:
Accordind to the mythology, Mayan calendar includes five nameless days, known as Wayeb, and during those days, malevolent deities were able to cause disasters, because boundaries between mortal realm and the Underworld dissolved. And as the boundaries dissolve, the energy field on th Earth alters.
Altough it sounds like some stereotypical apocalypse shit, it is very interesting, as the Mayan calendar resembles the one ancient Egyptians used, so there has to be something to it, since the two most advanced civilisations miles away from eachother believed in the same thing.

As for the question, I have been having lucid dreams as well, some of them were shockingly lucid. The emotions are very stong as you said xKorix.

My dreams have always been incredibly lucid... right down to the senses of touch and smell, sometimes.

Have I "gained control" over them? To me that sounds like "Have I been able to steer the dream in another direction when I don't like the way it's going?" If that's what you're asking, the answer is that I have only been able to do that a few times, but I try not to do so too often. The reason is because I look at dreams as my brain's (or just my mind's) way of opening the pressure valve to let out some steam that's building up. Trying to control the outcome of the dream would be like letting that steam keep building up until something bursts.

Sleep paralysis...that happens to everyone. And it's a good thing it happens, otherwise your body would try to move every time you move in a dream, thus waking you up...and that would make sleeping a little difficult.

But becoming lucid in a dream happens because you realize you're dreaming. Sometimes this happens spontaneously, and other times, it happens when you notice something odd or unnatural, and thus conclude you're dreaming.

If you want to lucid dream, the best time to do it is in the morning, simply because you dream more frequently during the few hours before you get up for the day. (During the common sleep cycle, you wake up 4 to 6 times in a night, going into deep sleep right after falling asleep and dreaming right before you wake up. As the night carries on, your sleep gradually becomes more shallow and you begin to wake up more frequently. By morning, you can pretty much fall asleep and dream immediately.) Some say that if you wake up in the morning and try to keep your conscious mind awake while your body goes back to sleep, you'll be lucid as you begin dreaming. I've never been able to do it, because then you just lay awake thinking about keeping your mind awake while you go back to sleep...but supposedly it works for some.

Sleep paralysis... a very interesting phenomenon.

In the Philippines, we have a term for it - Bangungot. Translated roughly and wrongly to english as 'nightmares'. Bangungot actually refers to sleep paralysis and is personified by a monster sitting on top of you making you unable to get up.

My own interpretation of it is that your consciousness surfaces before the body is awake.

I have had several really scary instance of this happening.

It used to happen a lot to me, last time was like 2 years ago. There were two vivid instances of waking up and just knowing that something is on top of me or very near me. Some kind of black malevolent presence. Heh. Not getting supernatural here - I AM atheist after all. It wasn't a person exactly, more like a state of mind. It wanted me to let go and the scary part is I had to fight against that happening.

The weird thing is, I can move my fingers and wiggle my toes, and even whisper. And my eyes were OPEN! Well... half-open, but yeah, It's pretty terrifying. I couldn't actually see them,they were more like an absence that made me conclude that they were dark. Kinda like a shadow that is not a shadow, or a cloud... or... hm.... sun dogs... yep.. like sun dogs - the afterimage you get after staring directly at the sun. And try as I might it was VERY hard to move anything. With ENORMOUS concentration I would manage to move an arm or a foot and wake up gasping.

I found out that 70% of these 'attacks' began with warnings. In which, minutes after I close my eyes and relax there would be this kind of buzzing and I feel like I'm withdrawing somewhere. Not an out-of-body experience, but more like getting woozy. Vertigo and the feeling you get after twirling around is the closest approximation to the feeling - as if part of your mind is drawing away. And it's always a very intoxicating experience. Kinda lulls you somewhat. In a way it's like a demon tempting you. Heh

The worst attack was when I woke up with sleep paralysis and I was lying nearly facedown on my pillow. Only one nostril was open for breathing. Since I am claustrophobic, I started hyperventilating, and I very nearly suffocated though I managed to break out of the sleep paralysis. I didn't go back to sleep that night. LOL

It usually happened when I fell asleep very tired or with a full stomach. But as to why it happens, I still don't know really. It also only happened during my periods of intense depression or extreme stress.

Now for nightmares. I have many, but the worst so far was ironically a nightmare about sleep paralysis. LOL. I dreamt that I woke up and couldn't move and just beside me, I could feel but could not see (since I couldn't turn my head) another body. One of the hands was covering mine actually, and our shoulders were touching. And I somehow knew that it was dead. I was screaming silently! ROFL! It wasn't a real sleep paralysis though, since a few seconds later I woke up and realized that the bed in my dream was entirely different and the room was lit with a reddish light while in real life it was turned off.

THAT was really incredibly scary. LOL. I went back to sleep with the lights on.

Haven't had full-blown nightmares for two years now, though. And I've never experienced lucid dreaming. My sister had a book about it, and I read it and tried to do it for myself. Doesn't work for me though, heh.