2xciteu saidI know being in a relationship I can have a horrible jealous streak. I really have to control it & be mindful of it. Sometimes i piss my own self off because of it.
Do any of u battle this? If so why do u think we have it?
My late partner himself confessed to being prone to bouts of the "Green-Eyed Monster" of jealousy. He had no need for it, I am monogamous to a fault, still am, and so it never came to anything, as again he admitted to me.
Poor guy, I think he could have been happier if he wasn't plagued by suspicion at times. I often took it as a compliment, that he was so possessive of me, so long as it didn't limit my innocent friendships with other men. But he'd had a partner before me who strayed, and gave them both HIV, which also eventually killed them both, so I understood where he was coming from.
But my present partner, also Italian like my first who likewise lost a partner to cheating that resulted in fatal AIDS, is not jealous. He tells me he can't imagine me ever cheating, nor can I him. Between those 2 experiences, I much prefer the relaxation that total trust brings.
He's not gonna cheat, I'm not gonna cheat, so we don't have to waste any emotional energy on that issue. I suppose it's a basic personal insecurity issue, but I also know my man, and until some topic like this one here is raised, I never even give it a thought.