fhaynie81 saidI haven't had ANY KIND of sexual activity in two whole years. Despite this, I always wait on pins and needles for my test results to come back. Does anyone else feel the same way and how do you deal with the anxiety of waiting?
I was only anxious for my initial HIV test. I had delayed it because anonymous tests were difficult to obtain where I lived, a poz result being recorded at State level by Republican mandate. And I'd already been sexually active for a number of years, my behavior at times at bit risky.
So I used a phony name, and no one checked my ID. It was a blood draw, not a mouth swab, and I had to wait about a week. I admit to being a bit tense.
But it came back negative, and nowadays I have them at least twice a year, and lately more often with all the other blood work I must have done on me. Being monogamous I no longer worry, the doctor mentions the results in passing, lumped together with my other readings.
But I still have them, as does my partner, despite our being at no risk, to set an example for others in our gay community. We can't very well preach regular testing if we don't do the same ourselves. If we said: "You should test, but we don't ourselves because we're not at risk" then you know all these guys would rationalize that they're not at risk, either, even when they really are. But if we say we test regardless, no exception, that's the better example.