Any Jehovah's Witnesses out there? -In search of strength while battling fear-

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    Apr 17, 2012 1:59 AM GMT
    I am not sure what to say or what to do at this point. I am still trying to come to my own terms of being gay and feeling comfortable. At this stage in my life I am out to my friends/public and my mother, but not extended family or my father. Why?

    My father is a Jehovah's Witness and will not be tolerant or excepting of me at all, no questions asked and with out a doubt I would lose him and perhaps my all connections to what I have; the house i grew up in, everything i own in there, my beloved pets and dog I raised from birth. I have never been close with my father, but there are some amazing golden moments. I can say we do not connect, barely have decent conversations, but I can not deny that I love him deep down.

    The whole religion thing is an obstacle I dealt with and still deal with on a daily basis. I no longer practice JW beliefs but I do have a sense of faith in God and slowly I am losing faith in myself for even breathing sometimes. I do not know what God expects of me or what is right or wrong in his eyes due to past knowledge of growing up as a Witness. Is it alright to assume as long as i am a good person and love truly and honestly that i should be well?

    I know this is incredible vague, but the topic and the point of the topic is a basic plea of "I'm lost in religion, and is there a way i can come out and be alright with my father and family?"

    Any advice or chat would be openly welcomed and appreciated, especially if there are any who have had Jehovah Witnesses in their lives that relate a bit to my plight.

    (I am very rushed and emotional writing this, i hope it is coherent!)
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    Apr 21, 2012 7:46 PM GMT
    In reading your post, What strikes me boldly is your apparent "loss" of material things.

    You do for yourself whatever it takes to make one truly happy and free. Material things never do that! You are also projecting your self fear in others.

    I made that decision to put it in their hands. Either the church or me.
    They chose the church, I chose ME! I am MUCH stronger and happier for it.icon_wink.gif
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    Apr 21, 2012 9:40 PM GMT
    I was once a messed up 20 year old surrounded with too much religion ingrained in my head. I recommend reading books to educate yourself and not be the victim of religious abusers.

    You have your entire life in front of you...and you deserve a good one. Everybody does.

    But in order to have that good future, you must make the right decisions today. This is why "living up to other people's plans" seldom ends well. Its easy for other people to tell you how to live. But who suffers the bad consequences that inevitably come from these decisions? You do!

    You must make your own decisions. You know better than anybody what is right for you. Some families can't tolerate this. So splitting away from families becomes the only option. It happens all the time, and done successfully too. This is not a bad thing. If the family is dysfunctional and deeply mired in religion, it's not only a good thing...but a necessary thing if you want to have a rewarding life.

    I recommend reading a book called "The Virtue of Selfishness" by Ayn Rand. She will tell you that the best thing you have is your mind. If you use it, you can make your way in the world. Most importantly...nobody owns you. You are nobody's slave. You are not a slave to religion or state or family. She says that for man as a species to survive, he must have certain rights. Using these rights is not only beneficial, but that choosing to give them up is actually immoral.

    People will warn you to stay away from Ayn Rand. Conversely, there are many Ayn Rand fanatics too. But this book helped me immensely.

    To quote John Galt, the "Atlas Shrugged" hero...“the purpose of morality is to teach you, not to suffer and die, but to enjoy yourself and live.”