Schizophrenia

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    Apr 20, 2012 5:49 AM GMT
    I'm probably fooling myself that I think I have schizophrenia. First because I've only been diagnosed with depression and schizotyal disorder. But the last few weeks have made me read an article describing schizophrenia and it is very compelling. Especially because the 'last few weeks' tend to mirror the symptoms. I've been obsessed with evil themes and psychopaths and I keep writing weird evil status updates on Facebook. Presumably for attention seeking or self relish or something. There has always been minor problems between me my sisters and my mum. And in the space of one night I managed to separate them from me after a dramatic email/confession I sent. I then left my sisters house intending to run away as far as I could and tried sleeping in the wilderness. But it was too cold and I went back home at midnight and fell asleep packing my suitcases quietly (in the ,mindset that I would leave before anyone else waked up and get the next plane to Acclaimed or whichever major city in Australia was cheapest). But I slept in and my sister had a rant and yelling at me. All the while I seized up like a brick wall and couldn't help answering sarcastically and with malice and subtle suggestions I would kill myself when she left the house again. Im here in one piece and am too scared to get a plane ticket as far away as possible because it is too risky of running out of money on food and accommodation before I get a job somewhere. So I am thinking about buying cigarettes, I have never smoked but it sounds like it would relieve me. My sisters are disturbed by me and I still steadfastly remove them from the picture. I know now I have truly gone mad. I have been on antipsychotic mess before which hurt me, and I am a believer that psychiatric meds do no good and cause harm. So im off my meds now, jobless and protective of the money I have left. I've blotted family out of my life and want to keep doing it. I've threatened to my mum that im going to die soon. And I take pleasure in doing this and believe I am an evil psychopath with some divine agenda to make everybody feel pity for me. Im still gay though, and miraculously my low sex drive hasn't been obliterated through meds and stress. So despite from masturbating each night to porn (which I would rather not but it is difficult to improvise in my head these days). So i am going to give smoking a shot, i would rather this than meds. What I've written doesn't really sound like a question, more like a story. So im sorry ok. And please don't suggest going back to the doctors - Obviously in time I will. But this is the present and I have high regard for natural therapies and lifestyle tips
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    Apr 20, 2012 11:07 AM GMT
    I'm disturbed by you, too. Yeah, smoke those those cigarettes...that'll definatley help you in the long run! You need help. Get back on your meds cause you're clearly not thinking straight, and judging from your post, you're getting off your rocker. icon_eek.gif
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    Apr 20, 2012 11:31 AM GMT
    I'm not sure if I am convinced that you have schizophrenia; there doesnt seem to be the typical paranoia (although I'm not sure what "evil themes" you are obsessed with and what that means for you, exactly), but I also cannot observe your affect. Most people who have schizophrenia will deny that there is any problem, whereas you seem to see that something is going wrong. You seem remarkably aware of the issues, which is not typical of schizophrenia.

    While antipsychotic meds can be very difficult, they are the only thing we have. There are MANY of them available and it often takes a LONG time to get the right medication and dosages.

    If you feel like you are going to harm yourself, please go to a hospital.

    Feel free to PM me if you like.
  • GAYBIGMACHODU...

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    Apr 20, 2012 1:08 PM GMT
    My ex bisexual best friend has depression,alcoholism,depression,anger
    promblems,schizophrnhrenia and other health problems.he has too baggage
    for me to handle.He is has too much drama in his life to deal with.He is not
    into health and fitness like I am at all.He is a bully and a very violent guy too.
    So I dumped him as both a friend and lover in 2008.He used to physically
    abuse me in the past.He used to mentally abused me,vebally abused me
    and emotionally me in the past.I rather be alone than be friends with men
    that have healthy problems and live unhealthy lifestyles any day.
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    Apr 20, 2012 1:18 PM GMT
    Seek help. :-)
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    Apr 20, 2012 2:10 PM GMT
    Don't self diagnose via the internet. Leave it to the professionals.
  • calibro

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    Apr 20, 2012 2:27 PM GMT
    that doesn't sounds anything like schizophrenia. schizophrenics actually see and hear things that don't exist, and have a hard time dissociating the real world from the one in their heads. you sound a bit hypochondriac/Munchhausen syndrome though.
  • dj12

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    Apr 20, 2012 2:37 PM GMT
    Is this a joke?
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    Apr 20, 2012 2:45 PM GMT
    Schizophrenics don't diagnose themselves. You're probably just a hypochondriac.
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    Apr 20, 2012 2:46 PM GMT
    I'm sorry. Hope you get some good help and feel better.
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    Apr 20, 2012 2:49 PM GMT
    THERAPY + MEDS.

    I live with schitzoaffective disorder and have it dealt with. It requires CONSTANT vigilance.
  • bischero

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    Apr 20, 2012 2:59 PM GMT
    ZbmwM5 saidI'm not sure if I am convinced that you have schizophrenia; there doesnt seem to be the typical paranoia (although I'm not sure what "evil themes" you are obsessed with and what that means for you, exactly), but I also cannot observe your affect. Most people who have schizophrenia will deny that there is any problem, whereas you seem to see that something is going wrong. You seem remarkably aware of the issues, which is not typical of schizophrenia.

    While antipsychotic meds can be very difficult, they are the only thing we have. There are MANY of them available and it often takes a LONG time to get the right medication and dosages.

    If you feel like you are going to harm yourself, please go to a hospital.

    Feel free to PM me if you like.


    +1

    I can't add any more than this except +1 x like 1,000.
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    Apr 20, 2012 3:19 PM GMT
    dj12 saidIs this a joke?
    yes my lord
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    Apr 20, 2012 3:20 PM GMT
    Larkin saidSchizophrenics don't diagnose themselves. You're probably just a hypochondriac.
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    Apr 20, 2012 3:37 PM GMT
    Most of the 20-somethings I've known tend to act schizophrenic at times, but they're not suffering from schizophrenia. You aren't, either.
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    Apr 20, 2012 4:25 PM GMT
    Dang it. I was so close, it was almost in my hands.
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    Apr 20, 2012 4:32 PM GMT
    DR JACK! IM NO LUNATIC! IM A SANE MAN FIGHTING FOR HIS SOUL.

    It shuts the hell up or else it gets the hose again. It does as it is told.

    BUT-

    It shuts the hell up.

    NO WAIT! I-

    It shuts the hell up.

    I JUST-

    Shut the fucking hell up!!!
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    Apr 20, 2012 6:31 PM GMT
    Hey Stuart!
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    Apr 20, 2012 6:41 PM GMT
    IDKWTF is going on here... Get help kid, no matter what your issues really are; find help.
  • Vaughn

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    Apr 20, 2012 9:32 PM GMT
    Sounds more like a B cluster dramatic personality disorder than schizophrenia.
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    Apr 20, 2012 9:50 PM GMT
    he's got some type of psychological pathology.

    as i've said before and is evidenced here by the numerous people that think they're healthcare practitioners, the thing about psychiatric medicine is you can go to 10 different psychiatrists and get 10 different diagnoses! it's practically all subjective!
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    Apr 20, 2012 10:24 PM GMT
    Velociraptor saidhe's got some type of psychological pathology.

    as i've said before and is evidenced here by the numerous people that think they're healthcare practitioners, the thing about psychiatric medicine is you can go to 10 different psychiatrists and get 10 different diagnoses! it's practically all subjective!


    Really?

    I'm assuming you know this based on experience?
  • Vaughn

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    Apr 20, 2012 10:32 PM GMT
    zblue24 said
    dj12 saidIs this a joke?
    yes my lord


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    How funny...............
  • Vaughn

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    Apr 20, 2012 10:54 PM GMT
    credo said
    Velociraptor saidhe's got some type of psychological pathology.

    as i've said before and is evidenced here by the numerous people that think they're healthcare practitioners, the thing about psychiatric medicine is you can go to 10 different psychiatrists and get 10 different diagnoses! it's practically all subjective!


    Really?

    I'm assuming you know this based on experience?


    They better cancel the DSM - 5!
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    Apr 20, 2012 11:04 PM GMT
    Velociraptor saidhe's got some type of psychological pathology.

    as i've said before and is evidenced here by the numerous people that think they're healthcare practitioners, the thing about psychiatric medicine is you can go to 10 different psychiatrists and get 10 different diagnoses! it's practically all subjective!


    I love it when people make comments like this... demonstrating your own simple point of view on how these things work. It's not completely subjective but unfortunately psychiatric pathology is a lot more complex than you might think.

    I am a healthcare practitioner - in Clinical Psychology - and just to be clear, I did not make any diagnosis with this guy. I simply said, this does not sound like schizophrenia. Anyone knows you can't make a diagnosis via a computer screen. Other people are right in that the possibility exists that this guy has a severe anxiety disorder in the form of hypochondriasis. Anxiety disorders can cause a lot of symptoms that get so severe that people begin to truly believe they are going "crazy" or, psychotic.

    I work at a psychiatric hospital with people who have severely debilitating mental illnesses. Usually psychotic disorders. Now if you spent years working in such conditions, you'd see that psychosis comes in MANY, MANY different forms. It is simply not as cut and dry as having diabetes, a bacterial infection, or the flu.

    The DSM is a way to classify clusters of symptoms that usually are associated and which together are known as X disorder. Often a patient comes in with most of X disorder symptoms, but not all of them. Sometimes they have what looks like a combination of two disorders. Then there is the issue of personality disorder and other medical conditions (hypothyroidism, traumatic brain injury) layered on top of the psychiatric conditions that make it even MORE complicated.

    These facts do not mean psychiatric medicine is all bunk. It means that its a lot more complex than you seem to care to admit. You want answers right now, because that's what most doctors give their patients. Well unfortunately we don't have all the answers yet. We have many, but not all. This is the REALITY of psychiatric illness. It is not cut and dry, yet we are held to that standard, when it's unrealistic. Psych meds help millions of people, but that seems to be ignored when there are cases of people who seem to have difficulty with responding to the medications. It's as if all we do must be wrong if the treatments dont work for every single person. Well... why do some people respond to certain chemotherapies better than others... for the same kind of cancer?

    Also, you are not likely to get two different diagnoses with certain disorders such a depression, anxiety, and certain mood disorders. Psychotic disorders are another story. They are extremely difficult to figure out. You spend a year on an inpatient unit and see for yourself... I'm afraid you'll be eating your words, sir.