Ray Bradbury said it best in the screenplay for "Something Wicked This Way Comes", "It's not the things you have done in life that you regret, it's the things you didn't do."
I have had the blessed opportunities to do som many things in my life from my college degrees, multiple careers teaching college Humanities/Mythology, training people to work rides in the West side of Disney's Magic Kingdom, getting a doctorate in a medical field, bodybuilding so that I"m not a skinny stick like I was in high school, getting my NASM CPT certification. I have even gotten to live out the fantasies of many males having both escorted when I was in school and done a few small studio porn films. I have had a wonderful life and even now at the halfway point I am preparing to take everything that has come before and wrap it into a single business as I prepare to move back to a really large city.
My only regrets are three , and I hope to fix at least one of them:
1) Hurting someone I cared deeply about because, in spite of my efforts, I could not be the person he wanted me to be.
2) I have not yet found a partner, that perfect companion taht share my views on love and sex and doesn't come with all the chemical vices that seem to plague the gay community, especially in the closeted South
3) I want to have a son. I have reached that point where I'll see a little boy at a park playing catch with his Father and I with it was me playing catch and helping him grow up and discover himself and the world around him. My fondest memory of my last trip to Disney World was walking down the Boardwalk at 12:30 in the morning and seeing two guys walking hand in hand pushing a stroller with their sleeping child in it. It was a beautiful moment.
Hopefully, me next move will fix one or both of these regrets.