As I grew up African American in the South Of Alabama, It was not easy at all for me and to be honest all I was, was insecure.
The white people I encountered at the time were racist and I did not fit in with them, but I always were around them and with my dad being a cop and my mother a devout christian I spoke differently with a very intellectual air.
The kids from the hood thought I was whitewashed and called me names like oreo and snob and other things of the sort.
I use to think things would be better if I was white, because of my personality in itself. I like pop music and punk just as much as R&B and I love Anime and I like animals, like Alligators and even work with one at work.
My race has alot of "do's" and "don'ts" People treat me like they have a level of blackness that I do not measure up to, even though we are from the same hood.
It is hard to get over sometimes.
I still feel insecure more often than not, but not as nearly as I did before.
Where I come from, following the rules is not cool, and peace is punkish. Therefore I never will fit in.
I want to be a writer not a rapper.