Well its kinda coming to a close my arms are bleeding, not enough to kill me, but I wish they would.

  • NeonEvil

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    Apr 28, 2012 6:03 PM GMT
    So any last words to encourage me to the after life?
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    Apr 28, 2012 6:28 PM GMT
    Before you make the 2nd slice to get the blood flowing, watch this.



    It made me think of suicide in a whole new light (watch both parts if the first part intrigues you).
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    Apr 28, 2012 6:49 PM GMT
    NeonEvil saidSo any last words to encourage me to the after life?

    I don't understand your meaning. icon_question.gif
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    Apr 28, 2012 8:44 PM GMT
    The suicide method should always be tailored to the circumstances.

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    Seriously, is that what you're really talking about? Then take yourname2000's advice above. And as for encouragement into the afterlife, make sure you've had a sufficient before-life first. Nobody really knows what's on the other side, if anything, and while this side may be miserable at times, it has the promise of improvement, even when you don't see it.

    Whereas I get the impression things are pretty much carved in stone for all eternity over there, and if you don't get the good seats, well, it's the only show you're ever gonna attend. And worse, I hear they make the suicides ushers, forever taking new arrivals to their seats, but you gotta stand forever yourself. No, nothing on Earth could be worse than that. icon_wink.gif
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    Apr 29, 2012 3:54 AM GMT
    I have a bad feeling that we may be late to the party with this guy.

    One can only hope that he eventually proves that theory wrong.

    ...or that he watched the video I posted, and came to the conclusion that - with all evidence presented to him (which we don't know) - he truly is better off dead.
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    Apr 29, 2012 4:04 AM GMT
    Hope it doesn't hurt!
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    Apr 29, 2012 4:16 AM GMT
    SkinnyBitch saidHope it doesn't hurt!
    Hopefully not too many people will read this part; but if you've ever had a serious cut, you know that the only part that hurts is the sting of the initial slice. After that, the body produces adrenaline that suppresses all significant pain until the next day when it's sore as fuck. If you don't make it to the 2nd day, the only significant pain you'll feel is the initial slice.

    BTW, one of my best friends in high school caved in the front of his face with a .22 revolver that he'd recently gotten for his birthday. I learned a valuable lesson back then: Sometimes there's nothing you can do but accept it as a fact of life.
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    Apr 29, 2012 4:22 AM GMT
    The OP's profile shows him still online but with the op being his last post on this site.

    Might someone in Australia call into the Hobart, Tasmania Police his info?

    While I find the professor in that vid fascinating and subsequently have been watching the rest of his series-- quite love the guy's thought processes--Paul, frankly, that vid was a bit heavy for this thread. Hopefully it got him some extra time to think things out but he'd really need the info from parts II & III and it is not until III that the professor discusses considering how family & friends might feel. Either way it looks like his mind was set, if this whole thing is for real.

    I had sent the kid an i.m. but he did not respond.

    I hope this thread does not have a sad ending.
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    Apr 29, 2012 4:27 AM GMT
    A person who closes the window without signing out will stay signed in long afterward. It's not an indicator.

    He said it won't kill him.

    It's none of your business, and calling the police on him is patronizing. Let's call the police on everyone who is doing something we don't believe in.
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    Apr 29, 2012 4:41 AM GMT
    SkinnyBitch saidA person who closes the window without signing out will stay signed in long afterward. It's not an indicator.

    He said it won't kill him.

    It's none of your business, and calling the police on him is patronizing. Let's call the police on everyone who is doing something we don't believe in.


    Not that I know if any of this thread is for real, but neither do you.

    This is not the OP's first thread about suicide.

    That someone says he cut his arms but not enough to kill him does not mean that the person might not cut further.


    Calling the police on a young man who is suffering depression is not patronizing. But your patronizing comment that you "hope it doesn't hurt" was asinine.

    You are a callous individual & I will not read another shitty word of yours. Click me on ignore as I will do with you as soon as I post this: Buh bye.
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    Apr 29, 2012 4:57 AM GMT
    Bye.

    To respond to your message. It is patronizing to decide for someone else what they should do with their life, including ending it. It's saying that they aren't able to make their own decisions so you should do it for them.

    My comment was simple and genuine. Death is the most painful moment in most peoples' lives. I would wish less pain for every person's death. True, Neon said he won't die from it, but I don't want it to hurt in any case. It's not patronizing or asinine (extremely or utterly foolish).

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    Apr 29, 2012 5:07 AM GMT
    SkinnyBitch saidBye.

    To respond to your message. It is patronizing to decide for someone else what they should do with their life, including ending it. It's saying that they aren't able to make their own decisions so you should do it for them.
    Watch that lecture. There is a probability that he was emotionally incapable of making the correct decision.
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    Apr 29, 2012 5:13 AM GMT
    I am watching, but the first part alone is 45 minutes! It's gonna take me a while.
    Though what you're saying is plain enough. It's still a person's right to make mistakes. It can be a ridiculous move to bet your car in a game of poker, but we can't call the police to tell them "this person's about to make a huge mistake".
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    Apr 29, 2012 5:31 AM GMT
    SkinnyBitch saidI am watching, but the first part alone is 45 minutes! It's gonna take me a while.
    Though what you're saying is plain enough. It's still a person's right to make mistakes. It can be a ridiculous move to bet your car in a game of poker, but we can't call the police to tell them "this person's about to make a huge mistake".
    Tis true; but if he's already made the mistake (which the probability of that is high) then calling the police could prevent his corpse from rotting away unnoticed for the next few days till a neighbor complains about the smell.

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  • NeonEvil

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    Apr 29, 2012 1:06 PM GMT
    Well I've managed to create a thread about me, a selfish foolish thread and for that I am sorry. The advice given has been mixed- its true that this isn't my first threat of suicide on these boards, again... feeling pretty stupid.

    Its seems the only things I have accomplished is having very tender arms today, I'll live, not the first time I've done something stupid like this. My arms have there fair share of scars, most of which have faded and while I am making a proactive step towards being a better human, improving my life and getting better, alcohol just exacerbates my inner unhappiness propelling it forward into action.

    I think its high tide and time for me to realise that there is not much else I can do, but seek medical help again as opposed to making these boards a target of my messed up feelings of inner loneliness, anxiety's and depression.

    For what its worth I listened to that lecture for quite a while before I went to bed, it was a lullaby that stuck in my head.

    From this chaotic night, I slept only to dream of being trapped within a dream, I knew, but none knew, I tried telling them I was trapped "they weren't real" I even kept changing the location to demonstrate my power as the dreamer, again nothing. I eventually found myself before my neighbour, he was angry and sad, saying nothing he passed me a note on it was the date of my death 11th of October 2013 on this I woke up feeling empty...

    From this dream I can only guess that maybe fate is telling me my life is finite and not to waste it?

    I don't know...
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    Apr 29, 2012 1:18 PM GMT
    NeonEvil said... From this chaotic night, I slept only to dream of being trapped within a dream, I knew, but none knew, I tried telling them I was trapped "they weren't real" I even kept changing the location to demonstrate my power as the dreamer, again nothing. I eventually found myself before my neighbour, he was angry and sad, saying nothing he passed me a note on it was the date of my death 11th of October 2013 on this I woke up feeling empty...

    From this dream I can only guess that maybe fate is telling me my life is finite and not to waste it?

    I don't know...
    "To dream of your own death indicates a transitional phase in your life. You are becoming more enlightened or spiritual. Alternatively, you are trying desperately to escape the demands of your daily life."
    - http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/dreamdictionarysearch.pl?method=exact&header=dreamsymbol&search=death

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  • NeonEvil

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    Apr 29, 2012 1:21 PM GMT
    Yeah I too read that. I often wonder what dreams are about.

    Thanks man, I'm glad to be alive too, apart from this hang over. Sorry to make anyone worry.
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    Apr 29, 2012 2:28 PM GMT
    Glad to see you made it to another day. There's another thread in this category listing all three of the series of the subject in this vid which Paul posted. I highly suggest you watch all of them, especially part III of III, which is the last of the professor's vids for that semester. He's a brilliant thinker and you strike me as being absolutely smart enough to grasp everything he says.

    Forgive me if I mangle his eloquence, but especially relevant to your situation seems to me where he discusses the bumpy roads in life and what are the criteria required to be considered, especially in those times, to make a both rational and moral decision on ending a life.

    You're a smart, young guy with your entire life ahead of you. The thing about life is that you never know what's going to be around the corner. Sure, there might be some more pain, but also there might be great love, there might be huge challenges and even failure, but also there mgiht be great accomplishment. Just getting through the day can be a great accomplishment. If life was easy, anyone could do it.

    Definitely do seek professional help. That is what they are there for. You might just need an objective wall to bounce your ideas off. You might have some chemical imbalance which can be corrected. You might just need some meds even for life or it might just be until you are strong enough to better direct your own thinking which, from what I've read of your writing, I believe you are fully capable of doing.

    You can even see yourself in your dream, in your attempts to take control of yourself. If you look even closer, you will see it in your waking life too, even in your attempts to take your life, to own your life. Your life is yours and yours alone. And isn't attempting suicide the ultimate expression of that. 'So now that you know your life is yours, go enjoy exploring it. Explore your waking life, explore your dreaming life. The experiences here are unendingly varied and each encounter will teach you more about who you are.

    Give yourself that time to know yourself. Ironically, by the time you've got yourself all figured out well enough to make a fully informed decision regarding ending your life, you'll be so old that life will make that decision for you. But don't feel bad, that life fools us all does not make us all fools.