Sam_u_el saidWell I'm not with HIV or Aids
but this is just a support thread for those who are living with it
Anyone wanna speak for those with HIV & AIDS can post it here
anything u feel comes from your heart & soul
Great respect & heart warm love for them all from me
--- Samuel ,the Arab
I've been HIV positive since 1997 and look at it like it is part of growing old. I suppose having had cancer since then has also made me realize life can end upon short notice. I'm not proud of my mistakes, but I am proud of who I have become because of them.
After I found out I was positive I did the normal things like blame the world, call it a conspiracy, and even continue having sex with others who I knew were infected. Disease comes with denial at first, but eventually if I wanted to be happy (or at least content) I was going to have to make changes.
I stopped blaming others by acknowledging the fact I could be just as guilty of the same things they were guilty of; I was the world's biggest hypocrite. Now I know it could have just as well been a car that hit me. I feel more sorry for the people who are victims of criminal violence (went through that recently too).
We are confronted by a world of sad situations and by a world of happy ones too. Somehow my moods remain in the middle where I am never too high or too down about life anymore. What I am looking for is peace.
I lost my Grandmother almost a year ago; it has been devastating to my Mother and I. My Mother is now the only family I have. I am lucky for that, but there are times when only my Grandmother would understand what I am going through.
Spirit is neither proud nor worthless. My Grandmother taught me to take everyday as it comes and let it go as it passes by. That was how she lived her life and she always had an answer even when she didn't think so.
Guess I took some turns in subject matter, but anyways... RIP Grandma Noni