I'm back ... and I have a different view on life than ever before

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    May 12, 2012 5:21 AM GMT
    Hey fellow RJ'ers... don't know if you remember me, who gives two flying fucks anyways?

    TL;DR version: I was an idiot, I was close-minded, I was naive, I was ignorant. I still am probably, as no one changes in like..6 months... but I have realized my faults and I am willing to change it and have been taking steps to do so.

    Well, I had a good-bye thread back then (I know, sorry for making you guys seem old - "back then" haha) when I was the emotional, easily broken, fragile, young teen that I was. I couldn't accept reality for what it was... I wanted reality to be some imaginary zone where all my wishes would come true... however I realized that it takes both parties to make wishes come true... and if well... 99 % of the people I am dealing with disagree with my view on a relationship, well... I should try to compromise..

    and I did just that.


    Well, after being off rj for about 6 months, and literally doing what some of you older men have been telling me to do - go out to bars, socialize, etc... I've changed my views completely on what I want in life.

    I wanted back then:
    a knight in shining armor...

    Now:
    A decent, down-to-earth guy.

    Yea that pretty much sums it up... a dom. master I met at the black eagle near woody's (on church st. in toronto) opened my eyes to the harsh, cruel and loving world of the gay society.

    I still live on my own, haven't made contacts with my jerk ass parents.

    But yea... no more of this "oh let's get married" bullshit...

    You only have one life to live, better live it to the best you can.

    Salam.

    EDIT:

    P.S: Thank you to the following RJ'ers for opening my eyes:
    1) Chainers
    2) yourname8000
    3) mybud
    4) theguynextdoor
    5) Trevormark
    6) bangitup
    7) britbloke
    8 - alphatrigger
    9) JPBitch
    10) Paulflexes and finally...
    11) Meninlove and 12) PocketNico and 13) Anduru
    and 14) Cold and 15) Sirdreamsalot

    There are more people who have pitched in to provide their views on things I should change and I apologize if I didn't get your name.


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    May 12, 2012 5:46 AM GMT
    yourname8000 saidYay! Mohamed is back! icon_biggrin.gif

    Missed ya, dude! icon_biggrin.gif


    Thanks! I would never be able to forget my experiences with you all... it's become like my second family.

    Yea, some of the RJ family is blunt, and some are nice - like you icon_razz.gif

    I realized that if it weren't for chainer's bluntness... I would've been starved from guys for the rest of my life... chasing a dream that may never happen.

    Thanks for your courage.. I want to get you up here so we can meet in person over a drink - I'm 19 now icon_razz.gif
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    May 12, 2012 5:50 AM GMT
    You're welcome.
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    May 12, 2012 5:51 AM GMT
    MarkRoger saidYou're welcome.


    why thank you sir.

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    May 12, 2012 5:56 AM GMT
    mizzouguy10 saidI think instead of improving you actually got worse, so cheers to that.


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    May 12, 2012 5:56 AM GMT
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    MarkRoger saidYou're welcome.


    why thank you sir.

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    OMG I am so sorry, I thought you thanked me and not trevormark. Thankfully I think he's in the Keys currently in a 10 man orgy so I don't think he'd mind if I took his thank you from you.
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    May 12, 2012 5:57 AM GMT
    mizzouguy10 saidI think instead of improving you actually got worse, so cheers to that.


    really? thats a bit rude mr faceless empty profile. icon_rolleyes.gif

    good for you OPicon_cool.gif
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    May 12, 2012 5:58 AM GMT
    MarkRoger said
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    MarkRoger saidYou're welcome.


    why thank you sir.

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    OMG I am so sorry, I thought you thanked me and not trevormark. Thankfully I think he's in the Keys currently in a 10 man orgy so I don't think he'd mind if I took his thank you from you.


    Haha, it's k... at this time of night... not many of the people I give credit to are on.

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    May 12, 2012 5:58 AM GMT
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    MarkRoger said
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    MarkRoger saidYou're welcome.


    why thank you sir.

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    OMG I am so sorry, I thought you thanked me and not trevormark. Thankfully I think he's in the Keys currently in a 10 man orgy so I don't think he'd mind if I took his thank you from you.


    Haha, it's k... at this time of night... not many of the people I give credit to are on.



    True, they're busy being out at clubs/having sex/knitting.
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    May 12, 2012 5:59 AM GMT
    ozondamove said
    mizzouguy10 saidI think instead of improving you actually got worse, so cheers to that.


    really? thats a bit rude mr faceless empty profile. icon_rolleyes.gif

    good for you OPicon_cool.gif


    Thanks.
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    May 12, 2012 6:01 AM GMT
    MarkRoger said
    _Mohamed_ said
    MarkRoger said
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    MarkRoger saidYou're welcome.


    why thank you sir.

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    OMG I am so sorry, I thought you thanked me and not trevormark. Thankfully I think he's in the Keys currently in a 10 man orgy so I don't think he'd mind if I took his thank you from you.


    Haha, it's k... at this time of night... not many of the people I give credit to are on.



    True, they're busy being out at clubs/having sex/knitting.


    I'll be in their spot next friday... but instead of knitting.. it will be cooking.

    /blush
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    May 12, 2012 6:04 AM GMT
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    May 12, 2012 6:07 AM GMT
    Anduru saidicon_facepalm.gif



    omg, look who I missed on the list... that facepalm should be ME doing it.

    Andrew, my favourite.. bitch icon_razz.gif
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    May 12, 2012 6:10 AM GMT
    mizzouguy10 saidWhy do people need to see what I look like? If I'm sexy do my comments double in credibility points?

    Or will I be dissed as vain and shallow if I'm hot and an ugly troll if I'm ugly?


    No. I don't THINK it's that... I just think that people who trash talk others (and man was I ONE of those people back then) should at least have the "balls" of putting their picture up.

    It just makes the chat more... real.
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    May 12, 2012 6:11 AM GMT
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    MarkRoger said
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    MarkRoger said
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    MarkRoger saidYou're welcome.


    why thank you sir.

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    OMG I am so sorry, I thought you thanked me and not trevormark. Thankfully I think he's in the Keys currently in a 10 man orgy so I don't think he'd mind if I took his thank you from you.


    Haha, it's k... at this time of night... not many of the people I give credit to are on.



    True, they're busy being out at clubs/having sex/knitting.


    I'll be in their spot next friday... but instead of knitting.. it will be cooking.

    /blush


    Aw, someone's whipped. Guess that's what the different view on life is icon_razz.gif
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    May 12, 2012 6:15 AM GMT
    Salaam! Welcome back icon_smile.gif
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    May 12, 2012 6:19 AM GMT
    MarkRoger said
    _Mohamed_ said
    MarkRoger said
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    MarkRoger said
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    MarkRoger saidYou're welcome.


    why thank you sir.

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    OMG I am so sorry, I thought you thanked me and not trevormark. Thankfully I think he's in the Keys currently in a 10 man orgy so I don't think he'd mind if I took his thank you from you.


    Haha, it's k... at this time of night... not many of the people I give credit to are on.



    True, they're busy being out at clubs/having sex/knitting.


    I'll be in their spot next friday... but instead of knitting.. it will be cooking.

    /blush


    Aw, someone's whipped. Guess that's what the different view on life is icon_razz.gif


    Ha, well I was dating this 35 year old guy and he bought my like 60 bucks worth of drinks (3 cosmos)... and so I kind of felt like I had to repay him somehow...

    I ended up cooking him a meal at his place and tidying it up.

    I know.. I know.. I shouldn't feel like I should be paying back anything but I would feel like such a jerk if I just said "hey, you bought me 60 dollars worth of drinks, I'm not interested in you."

    We didn't see each other again afterwards, but I felt like we complemented each other for that short period of time and that meant something.
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    May 12, 2012 6:21 AM GMT
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    mizzouguy10 saidWhy do people need to see what I look like? If I'm sexy do my comments double in credibility points?

    Or will I be dissed as vain and shallow if I'm hot and an ugly troll if I'm ugly?


    No. I don't THINK it's that... I just think that people who trash talk others (and man was I ONE of those people back then) should at least have the "balls" of putting their picture up.

    It just makes the chat more... real.


    I don't think it takes any balls to put your pics up. How would that deter the comments I make?


    no. It doesn't if you feel what you are saying is completely justified... you think you're right and there's nothing wrong with what you're saying so you post a picture of yourself up... it's when you say something that goes against the values of the majority of the community and you know that, that you feel ashamed of putting your pic. up.

    Humans don't like getting labelled as hypocrites or jerks. Psych 101.
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    May 12, 2012 6:21 AM GMT
    3 cosmos = 3 hours of you being a maid

    You're one expensive maid
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    May 12, 2012 6:22 AM GMT
    sirdreamalot saidSalaam! Welcome back icon_smile.gif


    Motshakir geddan. icon_razz.gif

    wahlahi ana badawwar a3lal arab.

    sa3b awy.
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    May 12, 2012 6:23 AM GMT
    MarkRoger said3 cosmos = 3 hours of you being a maid

    You're one expensive maid


    haha - never looked at it that way.

    Guess it's true.
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    May 12, 2012 6:29 AM GMT
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    MarkRoger said3 cosmos = 3 hours of you being a maid

    You're one expensive maid


    haha - never looked at it that way.

    Guess it's true.


    Maybe if you change your prices your views would change even more... think about it, 1 cosmo = 1 day of being a maid = permanent employment by 35 year old guy = kinda/sort of boyfriend
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    May 12, 2012 6:32 AM GMT
    MarkRoger said
    _Mohamed_ said
    MarkRoger said3 cosmos = 3 hours of you being a maid

    You're one expensive maid


    haha - never looked at it that way.

    Guess it's true.


    Maybe if you change your prices your views would change even more... think about it, 1 cosmo = 1 day of being a maid = permanent employment by 35 year old guy = kinda/sort of boyfriend


    True. But he wasn't really my type... he was not bulky enough... but yarrr... he wasn't my type.

    I was pretty tipsy that night so my vision was clouded...
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    May 12, 2012 6:35 AM GMT
    You had your cosmo goggles on... wow... the mere fact that you cooked and cleaned while tipsy means that you are a keeper. A house-keeper...
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    May 12, 2012 7:06 AM GMT
    Hey - you should thank me. I was one of the first people to call you a crazy moron.