Im 20 and don't have a plan in life nor do I go to school. I work part-time at dead end job as a dietary aide in the hood. I don't talk much to anyone in there unless they decide to talk to me. I have moved around the east coast 11 times with a single mother and 2 siblings, I have a horrible excuse of a father (haven't seen him in over 5 years) and I honestly can't think of one achievement a parent would be proud of. (sports, school, arts, etc related). I also have a short fuse if that's somehow related to anything specific, But I've shouted down and cursed out random people over petty things most people would ignore - despite that bizarre tendency, I'm told that I'm very charming and lovable.
All in all I don't have any friends where I currently live, and I don't know what I'd have to do to make some. I just never felt comfortable anywhere and have always rebelled in big ways. I'm scared for my future, I hate the thought of school but I want to be able get out I my mothers house and live on my own. (it's expensive around here and I don't want a roommate for obvious reasons) and I want to have a significant other but no one has the patience for me to open up.
What is wrong with me? Am I just an introvert, or have I developed a social anxiety because of my unstable upbringing?
Sorry for the wallotext