How did you figure out you were gay?

  • silverfox

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    Jul 27, 2008 9:17 PM GMT
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    It was 1972 and I couldn't figure out my fascination with this poster.
    Sports Illustrated said that it was very popular with swimming enthusiasts and gay men.

    At that time I didn't know how to swim.
  • GQjock

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    Jul 27, 2008 9:20 PM GMT
    I always knew that I was different...
    but I never put it into concrete thought until I was 15 years old

    I was looking at a picture of a shirtless guy in a magazine... and it hit me
    I looked up and thought... "Holy Crap, I'm Gay!" icon_eek.gif
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    Jul 27, 2008 9:21 PM GMT
    The gay son's coming out on Family brought me out...but I knew I was gay long before that.
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    Jul 27, 2008 10:14 PM GMT
    Duhh?! Found out I preferred the boys over girls in my early teen years. Simple as that.icon_rolleyes.gif
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    Jul 27, 2008 10:19 PM GMT
    Gay porn!icon_rolleyes.gif
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    Jul 27, 2008 10:22 PM GMT
    I was 11 years old. After a game of soccer, a friend and I sat down to rest and drink some water. The next thing I know we're opening up to each other about everything and he grabs my hand. We never kissed, damnit, but we held each others hand for probably an hour as we flirted and joked around. Later that evening, as I lay on the bed holding my wildly beating heart and staring at the ceiling, I realized - though I didn't admit it for another 10 years - that it just felt right and that it was one of the most important moments of my life.
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    Jul 27, 2008 10:35 PM GMT
    In middle school i liked being around the boys a lot more than girls. i still had and still have crushes on girls, but in high school i realized i wouldn't have sex with a girl and that made it clear to me
  • CuriousJockAZ

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    Jul 27, 2008 10:37 PM GMT
    At the high school football games, I liked watching the cheerleader routines more than the game icon_rolleyes.gif
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    Jul 27, 2008 10:48 PM GMT
    My boyfriend told me I was.
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    Jul 27, 2008 10:52 PM GMT
    When I wished god didn't exist
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    Jul 27, 2008 11:01 PM GMT
    from high school till I was 30, I had crushes on both girls and guys. When I was about 31 I had my first massage and blow job from a guy -- I liked it!
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    Jul 27, 2008 11:01 PM GMT
    ItsMyLife saidWhen I wished god didn't exist


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    Jul 27, 2008 11:03 PM GMT
    ActiveAndFit saidfrom high school till I was 30, I had crushes on both girls and guys. When I was about 31 I had my first massage and blow job from a guy -- I liked it!



    Well, DUH! icon_rolleyes.gif
  • Timbales

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    Jul 27, 2008 11:09 PM GMT
    I was dating a girl and realized I had feelings for a guy. I told him, he was unavailable. When he became available, we tried it out. First time was awful, after that it was ok.
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    Jul 27, 2008 11:16 PM GMT
    Timberoo saidI was dating a girl and realized I had feelings for a guy. I told him, he was unavailable. When he became available, we tried it out. First time was awful, after that it was ok.

    What was awful about the first time?
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    Jul 27, 2008 11:18 PM GMT
    Caslon5000 said
    Timberoo saidI was dating a girl and realized I had feelings for a guy. I told him, he was unavailable. When he became available, we tried it out. First time was awful, after that it was ok.

    What was awful about the first time?


    it started with our teeth colliding when we both went in for a kiss at the same time and went downhill from there.

    He wasn't really into me, but I was there.
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    Jul 27, 2008 11:25 PM GMT
    first i justified my peeking by saying i was- yeah i actually said this- checking out the competition.

    Then one day pre high school, as im beating off and some gay porno mag is open in front of me, it hits me: Holy shit. Im gay.

    Fuck.

    I think I sat in that bathroom for another three hours.

    Flaccid and silent.


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    Jul 27, 2008 11:28 PM GMT
    6 or 7 years old -- at that age, I had a fascination with penises. I liked being with and touching other boys my age, but I always loved the male student teachers as I grew up. I remember one, Jay Angel, with whom I was totally smitten. Second grade.

    When I became sexually aware, I wanted to hold other guys close to me, more than girls, but because I grew up in a time and place where and when that was not possible, I went with girls, instead. I was never really happy, and the girls sensed that there was something "wrong" with me (not really wrong, just misdirected toward them, not my natural inclination toward boys).

    I married, and loved my wife, but it never felt right. There was something missing. As I grew older, it finally hit me, and I realized that I was gay. It took me a long time to finally accept that.

    Now I feel normal -- at last.
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    Jul 27, 2008 11:32 PM GMT
    sundown55 said6 or 7 years old -- at that age, I had a fascination with penises. I liked being with and touching other boys my age, but I always loved the male student teachers as I grew up. I remember one, Jay Angel, with whom I was totally smitten. Second grade.

    When I became sexually aware, I wanted to hold other guys close to me, more than girls, but because I grew up in a time and place where and when that was not possible, I went with girls, instead. I was never really happy, and the girls sensed that there was something "wrong" with me (not really wrong, just misdirected toward them, not my natural inclination toward boys).

    I married, and loved my wife, but it never felt right. There was something missing. As I grew older, it finally hit me, and I realized that I was gay. It took me a long time to finally accept that.

    Now I feel normal -- at last.



    how touching
  • reload16

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    Jul 28, 2008 12:02 AM GMT
    Chuy2010 saidGay porn!icon_rolleyes.gif


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    Jul 28, 2008 12:06 AM GMT
    I can recall back in nursery school running around (chasing) other boys (they were twins!)... and wanting to play Candyland with the girls. I also recall my first swimming lesson, and the instructor was hot (though, oddly, not really my type later on). I recall being curious about guys in the Y locker room (probably 2nd or 3rd grade) and at camp. I remember having "crushes" on other guys in 4th grade (not sexual, just "he has nice eyes" and "he's cute, I want to be his friend"). By high school I was fantasizing about guys (and never women), but somehow I thought it was just a phase, that when I grow up I'd grow out of it. Didn't really know anything about homosexuality or being gay back then. When my group of 4 was assigned to debate "gay rights" (coincidence?) i headed to the dictionary (not very helpful, especially to this ESL kid) to make sure I understood what I was supposed to debate (luckily I was to argue for gay rights).

    Then one summer, at Jew Camp, there was this really cute blond kid... who was also very touchy feely... and I let him. So I knew what I knew, but still was deeply in the closet (met the boy again 7 years later and he was surprised to find out I was gay).

    Things later took a turn for the worse when the only out gay person I knew was a psycho (literally drooling at times). A year or two later I chanced upon a couple really cool (and hot) guys who were openly gay and met some of their gay friends. Some of them suspected I was gay, others were very careful never to offend me (e.g. with "gross" gay jokes).

    Having met a nice group of "normal" gay guys, it wasn't long before I admitted to myself - and them - that I was gay. But only after telling one of those two hot guys I first met. With a kiss (we ended up dating for 2 years).

    So while I knew and had hints for years, I think that's when I really figured it out.
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    Jul 28, 2008 12:08 AM GMT
    In the 4th grade, I tried to get my afterschool group leader (this hot... tall... hispanic dude with a sexy deep voice icon_biggrin.gif) to show me his underwear.

    I guess I was one of those kids that adults talk and complain about today: "this generation now and days are just too fast and too fresh", "they too big for their britches" lol
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    Jul 28, 2008 1:30 AM GMT
    I developed big crushes on 3 guys in Grade 8 when I was in Grade 7. I asked a friend what "faggot" meant. He said it was a homosexual. That was great information, but I did not know what a homosexual was, so I asked my sister. She told me that it was a guy who liked guys the same way most guys like girls. The light bulb finally went on, and has stayed on since 1972.
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    Jul 28, 2008 1:48 AM GMT
    had a crush on a set of twins in the church youth group when i was in kindergarten. one, jeremy, came over quite often because my babysitter was his gf (get off my man, hoe!). after watching a few of their makeout sessions on the couch i decided i'd rather be under jeremy than on top of meredith.

    felt "out of place" from that point on until...

    ...found seancody in 8th grade and it just kinda went form there icon_biggrin.gif
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    Jul 28, 2008 1:51 AM GMT
    I jerked off and messed around with a few guys in high school but didn't think it was gay cause we all had girfriends. Then just before I went to college I went to Alabama to visit some family and one day I met this cool guy. Looked like ChaChi from happy fucken days. It was different from the start. We hung out and shit and after we went to a drive in he drove us to this place to drink beers. We started just fucken around wrastlin and shit. Then It was all quiet and shit lookn at stars and then each other and then we kissed. I fell in love with him. He was the first kiss with a guy. First time I made love to a guy not just jerkin off. I knew I was gay then. It was hard saying goodbye to him.