This is bugging me and I need some advice here.
I have been in a relationship with a guy for over two years. We are both very much under the radar and not out to anyone at all, even our families. We are both in our forties and new to this thing, i.e. man to man sex/relationships, etc.
When we first got together we were both like kids who discovered a new toy but I am the more emotional and 'gushy' one and I put it more into words than he did. He did not like this. He even warned me never to say "I love you" as that 'creeped him out'. I complied and have toned down the gushy stuff completely as he is such an awesome dude and worth it. Although he loves getting little gifts and stuff from me. He was also very resistant to kissing at first. After about six months he gave in and the kissing happened for about a year (not continuously, ha ha) and then he just put a stop to it. (He never seemed really enthusiastic about it, but gave it a good go, and I loved it while it lasted). He is quite a manly guy, if that matters.
Here are some facts about our relationship. Please check them out and then just give me your opinion (as guys who have been doing this longer than we have) as to (1) what do you think his feelings are towards me? and (2) why doesn't he want to kiss? (Sorry this seems 'needy' but I'd really appreciate 'educated opinions')
- we have rampant and adventurous monkey sex about twice a week (we do everything and anything except for a couple things he WON'T do - he will penetrate me but he won't come inside me, except for in my mouth, he won't let me come inside him or in his mouth, although I can penetrate him, and he won't kiss!)
- these sessions can go on for hours (literally)
- we cuddle and caress a LOT - he is very affectionate
- we exchange naked pics of each other by cell phone, even two years on
- we eat out and do stuff together (business, movies, coffees, etc)
- he phones me sometimes three or four times a day and often speaks up to 20 mins
- he can spend hours on WhatsApp or Skype chatting to me
- he texts me just to say 'hello'
- he is a very busy guy with several businesses and commitments but makes time for us to spend time together.
I kind of think he has deep feelings for me but he won't say. What do you think they are? I am definitely in love. But do you think he is? And what the hell is up with the kissing????
Any responses would be welcome...