Start a new life...how?

  • McMacster

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    Jun 11, 2012 6:37 AM GMT
    hello

    first I want to mention if you're a stupid troll just dont comment there still are people with serious intentions

    ok so I'm actually on the edge of ending my current life.
    I dont mean it in a suicidal way of course....

    Its because I feel so empty, bored and everything seems just stupid to me.

    I failed in school, I have no money, my parents dont care of me, my "friends" either and if it wouldnt be enough I lost my best friend (he is not dead...)

    i have a dream, which I want to achieve with any price, but in my current situation and environment I dont believe that I can success

    Actualy I feel like a tree who just exist, breaths and does nothing

    I had this Idea of leaving all behind without telling anybody
    Anyways nobody would care

    I want to run away and start a new life and find a new "myself"
    because everything around me just pisses me off

    Everything really pisses me off I dont want it anymore

    I want to meet other ppl, other cultures and make new experiences

    Although I'm 19 and yet I feel like life is over but I know it isnt

    wahh I dont know what to do and i cant talk to anybody

    My situation really sucks i dont know what to say

    I need an advice or something..

    If you were in my place would you start somewhere else new?

    If yes, why... If not, why...

    Please say something about it icon_sad.gif

    greets

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    Jun 11, 2012 7:26 AM GMT
    I think your environment can have a significant impact on your personality and day-to-day mood. If I were at my wit's end, I'd make a drastic decision and see where that takes me. This could mean relocating to some other country. You should carefully judge whether your situation is caused by external influences (you have little impact on them) or internal.
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    Jun 11, 2012 8:57 AM GMT
    Hey Mcmacster.

    I know it is cliché, but you're still young and things will get better! I promise you that!!! I went through hell on earth and somehow survived.. It got so bad at one point in my life that I lived in a car for a month and 5days (I was 20y) and it was november/december, not a day passed that I thought "this is it" (the cold almost killed me, and once I fell asleep with the heat of the car on and woke up sufficating)

    Just remind yourself everything happens for a reason! I found out the hard way

    Are you closeted? Is that why you want to start a new life? I hope you'll find your way soon and I'm so so sorry you're feeling this way!
    (((((((Superhugemegasqueezehuggggggzzzz)))))))))

    To answer your question:
    No, I was in your place and I seriously don't suggest to run away from problems but find a way to solve it. If you really plan to leave everything behind I suggest you seek a professional help first, that was my mistake when I was around your age...
    Hope you'll find your way soon buddy..
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    Jun 11, 2012 10:21 AM GMT
    Facing the problems you have and working through them will make you stronger and better able to succeed in the future. If you really need to relocate to make a fresh start, cleaning up loose ends before you go will help you to make a cleaner break.

    You mention something that you dream of pursuing. Why not look for a way to move toward that goal?
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    Jun 11, 2012 12:58 PM GMT
    Well, who hasn't just wanted to walk away and start everything new, clean slate and all? 19 is the perfect time to do it too. If I were you, I'd do it. You can leave your life in Berlin behind just by selling everything you can't carry in a small backpack, everything from clothes, to computers to EVERYTHING. The money you make from selling everything you own will be the nest egg for your new life.
    Take that to create the new life you wanted. You want to move somewhere and start new, do it. In this short life, talk is cheap. Trust me, people will always open their hearts and even their houses/apartments to people on a quest, doing something interesting.
    You're 19, the perfect time to hit the road. Do it.
  • Karl

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    Jun 11, 2012 1:17 PM GMT
    McMacster saidhello

    i have a dream, which I want to achieve with any price, but in my current situation and environment I dont believe that I can success



    Firstly , Imma give you a hug icon_smile.gif
    I failed my first choice at the college entrance test last year.
    I was bored and wanted to leave everything.

    Then I found "I had a dream" , just like you and I decided to back to the start.
    Life is so hard but sometimes it gives us so many lessons to learn.
    As a guy in the same age with you , all I can say is "cheer up , not afraid about it , just do what you want and what you dream right now".
    There're so many things wating for you.
    Good luck icon_razz.gif

    Karl
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    Jun 11, 2012 1:53 PM GMT
    McMacster saidhello

    first I want to mention if you're a stupid troll just dont comment there still are people with serious intentions

    ok so I'm actually on the edge of ending my current life.
    I dont mean it in a suicidal way of course....

    Its because I feel so empty, bored and everything seems just stupid to me.

    I failed in school, I have no money, my parents dont care of me, my "friends" either and if it wouldnt be enough I lost my best friend (he is not dead...)

    i have a dream, which I want to achieve with any price, but in my current situation and environment I dont believe that I can success

    Actualy I feel like a tree who just exist, breaths and does nothing

    I had this Idea of leaving all behind without telling anybody
    Anyways nobody would care

    I want to run away and start a new life and find a new "myself"
    because everything around me just pisses me off

    Everything really pisses me off I dont want it anymore

    I want to meet other ppl, other cultures and make new experiences

    Although I'm 19 and yet I feel like life is over but I know it isnt

    wahh I dont know what to do and i cant talk to anybody

    My situation really sucks i dont know what to say

    I need an advice or something..

    If you were in my place would you start somewhere else new?

    If yes, why... If not, why...

    Please say something about it icon_sad.gif

    greets



    I'd be real careful just tossing everything and taking off. My advice is to hold on to all your dreams but right now you need money so... get a job. Find a cheap place to live temporarily. Bills and nourishment first. Affordable transportation. Make a list of what your goals are durring this time. Save for it. Believe in it. But honestly, don't just up and run. Generate your own source of income to keep yourself going. Some people believe there is always some form of a safety net for every one out there in the form of distant family or friends of friends. Thats not always the case. Pay attention to the guy who said he lived in a car for a while. It happens and he may have made only one minor mistake and when it happens the goal is no longer gee I'd like to run off to Utopia it's as simple as how the fuck am I gonna get out of this car. You don't want to get to that point.

  • CuriousJockAZ

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    Jun 11, 2012 2:07 PM GMT
    Making a "Fresh Start" can be a good thing IF you have the tools to do this in an effective way that moves you forward instead of backwards. From your post, it appears that you may be grappling with some internal issues that may need to be worked out before you take on bigger challenges. Problems we run away from can tend to follow us wherever we go unless they are faced head on. It should also be noted that what you are feeling at 19 is not at all uncommon. 19 can be a difficult age because it's right on that cusp of the transition from the teenaged years to being an adult, and it's a time that can be confusing and even a little scary as you come to terms with some major decisions that set the rest of your life in motion. It all doesn't have to be worked out by tomorrow, so my recommendation would be to take some deep breaths, look inward first, and then make decisions regarding your own life accordingly one step at a time.
  • Vonda36

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    Jun 11, 2012 3:44 PM GMT
    jhkh.gifI very much agree with your point of view
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    Jun 11, 2012 4:30 PM GMT
    There's absolutely nothing wrong with wanting to start anew.

    Just make sure you're doing it for the right reasons. Are you going to a new life or are you running away from your current one? If you are running away from your current one, you need to not burn bridges as much as is possible. And you don't want to carry that type of negative energy with you into your new life. Baggage is always baggage no matter how far away is it.


    Good luck in whatever you choose to do.
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    Jun 11, 2012 5:08 PM GMT
    smartmoney saidWell, who hasn't just wanted to walk away and start everything new, clean slate and all? 19 is the perfect time to do it too. If I were you, I'd do it. You can leave your life in Berlin behind just by selling everything you can't carry in a small backpack, everything from clothes, to computers to EVERYTHING. The money you make from selling everything you own will be the nest egg for your new life.
    Take that to create the new life you wanted. You want to move somewhere and start new, do it. In this short life, talk is cheap. Trust me, people will always open their hearts and even their houses/apartments to people on a quest, doing something interesting.
    You're 19, the perfect time to hit the road. Do it.


    YES, YES and YES! I did exactly this at age 17---WITH NO REGRETS!

    Two great resources for you:

    Couchsurfing.com

    LonelyPlanet.com LP is free and amazing. It has forums to ask any travel questions you have: Where to stay, How to meet people, Finding work if possible. You'll find that your fellow travelers are more than willing to help you.

  • calibro

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    Jun 11, 2012 6:17 PM GMT
    first you need to dig up a corpse...
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    Jun 11, 2012 6:19 PM GMT
    calibro saidfirst you need to dig up a corpse...


    wait..wha..???


    OHHHHHH, I get it. That's actually funny. Took me a few seconds..icon_lol.gif
  • Suetonius

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    Jun 11, 2012 7:29 PM GMT
    Whether or not you run off now to some new place, you sound very unhappy. You could really benefit from talking to a therapist/psychologist wherever you go, to help you get a good handle on your problems and prospects. Research to find out before you leave, if where you are going has a good social services network for people without any money. Your profile says you are in Berlin. If you are not fluent in german, you might try Nederland, where every therapist would speak english. There is also an incredible gay scene for youth in Ansterdam.
  • McMacster

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    Jun 12, 2012 6:39 AM GMT
    hello

    thanks for the many usefull replies now I can make proper thoughts about my situation

    greets
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    Jun 12, 2012 6:49 AM GMT
    i think many of us have been through really bad times... i remember I was clinically depressed for quite a while, and had a lot of anxiety attacks to boot.... I had to quit school for it....

    It is hard to go through, but it really is possible... it can be a time you really have to trudge through, but I made it through as well, so I can imagine anybody can, and I have heard of stories of others who have as well...

    Now for everybody, how they come out of it is different, i know one of the things that helped me was to stp drinking alcohol... I found out it was a depressant and would isntantly make everything worse.... now that Im out of it I can be happy and drink again, but I now also know if Im in certain moods to avoid alcohol in order not to go down that "drain" if you will....

    So best I can say is... hang on.... and things will change.. change is inevitable....

    Best of luck to you....
  • McMacster

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    Jun 13, 2012 12:01 PM GMT
    AHHHH FUCK IT icon_evil.gif

    My teachers just told me couple minutes ago I didnt pass te graduation AGAIN icon_sad.gif It was my 4th retry (4 years for a fckin graduation) D:

    I dont know what to do now everything gets even worse ......

    What should I do icon_cry.gif
  • guilhefer

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    Jun 13, 2012 3:49 PM GMT
    If you have a dream, you should chase it now. The older you get, more accommodated you stay. I'm just a year older than you and I still dream about many things I know I'll never achieve.
  • BmwKid92

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    Jun 13, 2012 3:59 PM GMT
    sorry for the bump people, and i apologies in advance for my attitude coming off as an asshole

    KID, are you serious?? E V E R Y O N E has problems, stop crying about your horrible life AND DO SOMETHING, your parents sound like horrible people for you to say they wont miss you, This was the start of your problem since birth, kid you need love to give love, sorry if im touching down on a blind problem you may not see, with no love there is no willpower... YOU dont need a new life, thats soo nauseating to hear, FIX your shit, you probably dont know where to start. after hearing you failed 4 times at graduation i can relate i repeated twice, but not because i was lazy, i had a drug problem, and drank away a full year of life away, you just sound like you DONT CARE, thats crazy.. stop half assing and do your work, you said it yourself your a TREE, you dont go out so whats stopping you from putting your nose in a book???

    and on top of that GET A JOB BUM, the world wont sit and wait for you have so motive to go out and look for one. I bought my own car with MY OWN money, go mow some lawns... SIMPLE.

    And please adoption,bi, Dont have kids, Seems like only stupid people are breeding these days..

    IF YOU DONT KNOW NOW YOU KNOW

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    Jun 13, 2012 4:00 PM GMT
    k1ng saidsorry for the bump people, and i apologies in advance for my attitude coming off as an asshole

    KID, are you serious?? E V E R Y O N E has problems, stop crying about your horrible life AND DO SOMETHING, your parents sound like horrible people for you to say they wont miss you, This was the start of your problem since birth, kid you need love to give love, sorry if im touching down on a blind problem you may not see, with no love there is no willpower... YOU dont need a new life, thats soo nauseating to here, FIX your shit, you probably dont know where to start. after hearing you failed 4 times at graduation i can relate i repeated twice, but not because i was lazy, i had a drug problem, and drank away a full year of life away, you just sound like you DONT CARE, thats crazy.. stop half assing and do your work, you said it yourself your a TREE, you dont go out so whats stopping you from putting your nose in a book???

    and on top of that GET A JOB BUM, the world wont sit and wait for you have so motive to go out and look for one. I bought my own car with MY OWN money, go mow some lawns... SIMPLE.

    And please adoption,bi, Dont have kids, Seems like only stupid people are breeding these days..

    IF YOU DONT KNOW NOW YOU KNOW



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  • BmwKid92

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    Jun 13, 2012 4:01 PM GMT
    that goes for the squintz kid tooo.. there are people who live in straw huts.... C'mon Son

    Knowhy, go play in traffic
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    Jun 13, 2012 4:04 PM GMT
    k1ng saidthat goes for the squintz kid tooo.. there are people who live in straw huts.... C'mon Son

    Knowhy, go play in traffic


    I tried, but the traffic always stops in awe of my beauty.
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    Jun 13, 2012 4:04 PM GMT
    Your situation is what you make of it. Take responsibility for your choices and actions now or wherever you do go, you'll just recreate the situation again. You can do it.
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    Jun 13, 2012 4:23 PM GMT
    I like most of the advice you've already received here. I was once your age and considered moving away - - - but not because I was unhappy, instead it was because I wanted to try living somewhere new. One thing to keep in mind ........ Wherever you go, there you are. Which means whatever problems you have - maybe problems in getting along with people, or sticking to a plan, etc...........you will have those same problems in a new geography.

    With all that being said...............if your parents are really awful, and you have few or no friends, and you clear up any personal problems that might be holding you back, then this would be a good time to consider trying a new town - city - state - country.
  • Suetonius

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    Jun 13, 2012 7:47 PM GMT
    McMacster saidhello

    I dont know what to do and i cant talk to anybody

    My situation really sucks i dont know what to say

    I need an advice or something..

    icon_sad.gif

    You're in Berlin, and you want advice. Why post a question on an american website? Berlin is the center of gaydom in Germany. Find a gay counseling center in Berlin and get help there.