Jun 15, 2012 7:54 PM GMT
Anyone else ever had these feelings? I was in an almost 3 year relationship with someone that I loved longer and more than anyone prior. There where things about the relationship that made it difficult. A significant age difference, and lack of acceptance from his family. I'm the older one. Aside from that, he was kind of hypocritical, selfish, and judgmental. I learned all this about him over the last year of our relationship. While still w/him, I had this nagging feeling that I needed to end it - and I finally listened and did it. But I still love him. I have never broken up with someone I still love. I knew I had to do it, but two months later, I"m still not really moving on emotionally. I still dream about him. And of course, running into him out and about with mutual 'friends' is really hard. Our connection was intense. Almost constant contact thru text over the course of the relationship. We've seen each other out, and have been friendly. I know we both still have feelings. But I also know the relationship we had was not healthy, and I had to get out of it. I love the guy dearly, but there's something about him - his hypocrisy and selfishness, that always points itself out. Even since our break up, he's done things that make me wonder about him. He's an extremely good looking sexy guy, so of course all these 'friends' of mine have been like vultures trying to befriend him. And he even took an offer to 'work out' with a friend of mine, who he said he hated, and was hanging out at the bar with someone else he always said he couldn't stand. Just makes me wonder what's really going on inside his head. Anyway, just venting and wanting to hear different perspective. I really do want to break this psychological and emotional connection. I have succeeded in breaking our physical one. And yes, I miss making love to him.