Have you ever had a Book of Secrets, Journal, Diary? If you have which secrets have come to the light?

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    Jun 26, 2012 8:57 PM GMT
    I recently started a journal, a good friend of mine recommended the notion... At first, I thought her to be insane, but when she presented me the blank pages of the journal I suppose I couldn't decline her proposal. At any rate I've since discovered that having a journal is not all that bad since unlike human beings the journal won't ridicule your most inner hidden ideas, or emotions, but rather it serves as a tool to dispel clouds of frustration.... but that's just me. How about all of you?
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    Jun 27, 2012 12:44 AM GMT
    I have a journal, too. I've had one for a while, but I'm lousy at writing in it. I try to write every day, but I usually end up with maybe once a week. It's too bad, though, because I find it to be really cathartic, and provides me with a time to reflect on things, and sometimes even has me see things with a different perspective.
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    Jun 27, 2012 1:41 AM GMT
    A few years ago, when I was backpacking through europe, I kept a travel journal/log. I ended it sort of cornily by making some 'resolutions' to myself for when I got back. One of them was something like 'come to grips with the fact that I'm attracted to men.' That was the first time I had ever openly articulated this to myself on paper. When I was at the Toronto airport going through customs, I got pulled aside by this very naive young customs agent who went through everything in my backpack and was apparently surprised to discover that I wasn't in fact a drug mule or something. She took the journal out and flipped randomly to the page where I had written that. I have no idea if she read it or not, but I remember my eyes bugging out and thinking 'oh god, why did I write that down?' (I was still very much in the closet with myself at that point). She must have noticed my nervousness because she questioned me for about 10 more minutes, then made me repack literally everything in my backpack and made me walk through the TSA gauntlet one more time.
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    Jun 27, 2012 1:45 AM GMT
    I started to do one as a child, but had already heard of too many other people's journals being found so I didn't wanna risk it.

    Still feel that way today.
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    Jun 27, 2012 1:48 AM GMT
    I had one that I wrote in constantly till I turned 12-13. Now as an adult I feel its better to keep your secrets to yourself instead of leaving them lying around.
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    Jun 27, 2012 3:27 AM GMT
    I had a Burn Book. icon_twisted.gif
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    Jun 27, 2012 3:45 AM GMT
    The process of writing your feelings down is magical. I fully support people who do that. As part of therapy, I kept a journal. Don't be paranoid about someone finding it. It ruins the honesty you surrender to the written word.
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    Jun 27, 2012 4:53 AM GMT
    Honestly, I've come to a point where, even if people find my journal It wouldn't make a difference, because the worst they could do is hand back my journal, and tell me they have a different perspective of me. Reflecting on the passages of this journal although I'm still very new to it. I've noticed these things about myself:

    I'm selfish, because I try to make things be about myself..., I'm jealous of people that seem to be doing better than me, I fall in love way to quickly, I worry too much, I sometimes tend to nag, and I seem to be condescending when i least expect it. Im currently working on these things to be a better person, and although hard I try my best each day.

    anyways the point I want to make is that even if someone does find out about your secrets, does it really matter? you're still who you are and God made you perfect the way you are icon_biggrin.gif
  • briandanner

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    Jun 27, 2012 5:21 AM GMT
    I understand what you mean man lol i tried tto start a journal many times but got boredd cause nothing beats human interaction icon_smile.gif
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    Jun 27, 2012 5:27 AM GMT
    I'm legitimately curious here:

    If you keep a secret diary, do you -- on some level -- want someone to read it?
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    Jun 27, 2012 5:44 AM GMT
    Elusium saidI'm legitimately curious here:

    If you keep a secret diary, do you -- on some level -- want someone to read it?


    I don't think I've ever had the intent to have someone find it, but if they did, they should understand by virtue of what it is, that they may not expect or like what they may find.

    Having said that, I started a rather unconventional journal... an audio log. I will admit that it was spurred by my inner-geeks desire to be more futuristic and emulate all of the verbal personal audio logs seen in sci-fi everywhere.

    I have kept it going now for years and have accumulated several gigabytes worth.
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    Jun 27, 2012 6:20 AM GMT
    Machina said
    saidI'm legitimately curious here:

    If you keep a secret diary, do you -- on some level -- want someone to read it?


    I don't think I've ever had the intent to have someone find it, but if they did, they should understand by virtue of what it is, that they may not expect or like what they may find.

    Having said that, I started a rather unconventional journal... an audio log. I will admit that it was spurred by my inner-geeks desire to be more futuristic and emulate all of the verbal personal audio logs seen in sci-fi everywhere.

    I have kept it going now for years and have accumulated several gigabytes worth.


    icon_surprised.gif the stories it must have.... I wish i could find that audio journal! lol no offense, I probably wouldn't have the courage to actually sit and listen, due to a guilty conscience.... lol

    ElusiumI'm legitimately curious here:

    If you keep a secret diary, do you -- on some level -- want someone to read it?


    can't say the idea hasn't crossed my mind, but the possibility scares me out of my mind. I suppose as a "What if" scenario I would want someone to find it, but the real ramifications of someone finding I'd rather not provoke it into reality. However, should the day come to pass that the journal is found and exposed. wouldn't deny anything in it because its who I am icon_smile.gif
  • BardBear

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    Jun 27, 2012 10:29 AM GMT
    As an author, I find the experience of journaling massively valuable. I use it at a place holder of all the good and bad in my life. I make sure I turn off all my internal censors, not worrying about grammar or syntax and just, well, writing.

    I have a past, present, future approach and I aim for three pages, depending on the size of the journal. I find it is massively meditative. Sometimes, it'll even be fictional. I don't care. I just write. If something is bothering me, I'll jot it down there, so I can deal with it later and get on with my life. If I have a dream of doing something extra special the next day, I get that down in my notes as well.

    And if I wanna kill my ex, permit yourself to jot it down too. Remember, legally, no one can touch that, its considered private. And since it isn't online, a lockbox can keep it out of view.

    Good luck!

    Peace,
    Bardy
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    Jun 27, 2012 12:59 PM GMT
    Elusium saidI'm legitimately curious here:

    If you keep a secret diary, do you -- on some level -- want someone to read it?


    I'm gonna admit that, yes, there are times that I want people to read at least some entries I've written in my journal. I feel like maybe if someone reads it, they'd have more insight into why I do some of the quirkier things I do.
    But aside from that, I don't think I'd really much care if someone read it. I'm really open about what's going on in my life or in my head, and I have no secrets, so if they want to snoop through my journal, they probably wouldn't find anything they didn't really know on some level anyway.
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    Jun 27, 2012 4:02 PM GMT
    BardBear saidAs an author, I find the experience of journaling massively valuable. I use it at a place holder of all the good and bad in my life. I make sure I turn off all my internal censors, not worrying about grammar or syntax and just, well, writing.

    I have a past, present, future approach and I aim for three pages, depending on the size of the journal. I find it is massively meditative. Sometimes, it'll even be fictional. I don't care. I just write. If something is bothering me, I'll jot it down there, so I can deal with it later and get on with my life. If I have a dream of doing something extra special the next day, I get that down in my notes as well.

    And if I wanna kill my ex, permit yourself to jot it down too. Remember, legally, no one can touch that, its considered private. And since it isn't online, a lockbox can keep it out of view.

    Good luck!

    Peace,
    Bardy


    Good post !
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    Jun 27, 2012 4:18 PM GMT
    Yes and its sad to revisit, most everyone in it died of AIDS in the 80's. I started it when I turned 16 and realized i liked my friends brother so i would have someone to talk to.