Jul 11, 2012 2:32 AM GMT
I fell for a guy, and when I fall, I fall hard. We hit it off immediately, and we've been very close for the past eight months. We weren't official but exclusive nonetheless.
Three days ago, he told me he wanted for us to stop seeing each other. I couldn't stop crying. He was my best friend, my lover, my rock. I can't go on without him. He was a part of my daily routine, whether it was going out to dinner, drinking, or just cuddling. He made everything better.
And tonight, to make it worse, he texted me saying we needed to talk. I haven't responded and I'm not sure I can. It would be too much. I just want to fall asleep on his chest one more time, or laugh at nothing and just enjoy each other's company. He was perfect, and now he's gone. I can't describe the overwhelming loneliness and anger at myself I feel right now. What did I do wrong? I was there for him, I did everything with him, nothing seemed to be going wrong. How did I fuck up?
I have a normal account here, but I wanted to get this off my chest without everyone knowing who I am.
Three days ago, he told me he wanted for us to stop seeing each other. I couldn't stop crying. He was my best friend, my lover, my rock. I can't go on without him. He was a part of my daily routine, whether it was going out to dinner, drinking, or just cuddling. He made everything better.
And tonight, to make it worse, he texted me saying we needed to talk. I haven't responded and I'm not sure I can. It would be too much. I just want to fall asleep on his chest one more time, or laugh at nothing and just enjoy each other's company. He was perfect, and now he's gone. I can't describe the overwhelming loneliness and anger at myself I feel right now. What did I do wrong? I was there for him, I did everything with him, nothing seemed to be going wrong. How did I fuck up?
I have a normal account here, but I wanted to get this off my chest without everyone knowing who I am.