Jul 11, 2012 2:36 PM GMT
Feel like every time I go on any site I'm the only person open about being HIV+. It is very lonely. I know there are a lot but so many hiding it for one reason or other. I'm not from the Midwest but it seems to be a taboo thing here still. I don't understand that mentality and don't know how to make people understand that I'm not contagious like they think. I'm undetectable. Also I've had false negatives in the past so no HIV test is 100 percent accurate. And there is still an incubation period. It upsets me so much when people avoid me because I'm honest about being poz but they'll be best friends with others who are lying about it. I know a guy who is married with kids who is whoring around all over with guys because they say they're negative (he will remain anonymous). The whole thing is so frustrating for me. So when these guys turn up poz and come to me for advice, can you blame me for wanting to just tell them to fuck off? I miss living in SF where it wasn't a big deal. I had poz friends there and I never treated them like less. Ok that's my rant. Hopefully I can make some other poz friends here who aren't afraid to open up.