Jul 15, 2012 6:20 PM GMT
When I was 16 (almost 22 now), I had surgery to cure my Ulcerative Colitis. I had a temporary ileostomy for 3 months, and then had it reversed. I now have what is called a "j-pouch", which is basically a new colon constructed out of my small intestine, since the majority of my large intestine has been removed. I'm a virgin still, but I've recently learned that this surgery I had basically makes it impossible for me to ever bottom. I feel pretty limited sexually now, and very insecure. I'm worried that I'll be rejected, and I've always imagined myself as a bottom rather than a top. It's embarrassing to talk about, but I guess I'd like to hear from anyone else who has gone through the same thing, or knows someone who has.