footballguy88 saidThanks guys I have done nothing but try to give back and be postive keep my head up and fight through it all granted we all have shit we go through not trying to say woe is me but for the most part Ive made myself have to be strong for others but in doing so Ive put everyone else first but me. So looking for guidance and to find the right path in life to forgive but to never forget and to not let all my feelings defy who I am I just feel alone alot of the time and Ya I dont want to misdirect my feelings towards anyone else. I will use spirtuality to maybe help cope I was told maybe I need to cry I feel like these are the emotions that society says its wrong to feel that somehow crying being emotional is not demasculiating. Im trying to get back to working out getting out more and trying to find the pursuit of happeiness but I fear if I cant let go of my past then I'll never be able to move forward. Thanks for the encouragment
You'll get there by the sounds of it too - one thing I forgot to mention, is the effect that exercise has on the brain - it's great for giving you time to search your feelings too.
Being positive and giving of yourself is a good start - but take time to be in the "now" and allow yourself to feel the things that are happening - don't make yourself so busy you're not living your life.
As the other guys have mentioned, forgiveness is something that will help - forgive the things that were done to you; but also take time to forgive yourself - we're all human, all feel weak, angry and resentful at times.