I Lost Hope & Almost Lost My Life.

  • Thorbaugh

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    Jul 28, 2012 6:11 PM GMT
    Some time ago I posted about how I was struggling with depression and a variety of issues. Many thanks to those of you who sent me notes of care and encouragement.

    On June 29th I made a very serious suicide attempt (pill overdose - 100 valium pills, 6-8 Vicodin, several pills of hydrocodone, and some gin).

    By the grace of God I survived and began recovery - was in the hospital ICU from 6/29 until July 4th. From the 4th until the 9th I spent time voluntarily in an inpatient facility while I worked on an outpatient recovery plan and am now working with a therapist 2x per week, am in an outpatient mental health program, have started some meds, and have now begun to go to an OVEREATERS anonymous program daily and am committed to being a very compliant and dedicated patient.

    My parents came here very soon after I was hospitalized and stayed until recently. This experience brought me closer to them and I will be eternally grateful for their support.

    Normally, i wouldn't drop this kind of bomb but I know that there are others who have been in this place. Honestly, It's hard to believe that this is where I've landed in life.

    Right now the weekends are the hardest as I'm trying not to isolate or anesthatize myself with television and food. I feel like I have a long way to go and I know this problem won't be fixed right away.

    However, I appreciate the love and support here and thanks for lettting me share my story with you.

    With gratitude.
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    Jul 28, 2012 8:57 PM GMT
    Welcome back, I'm so happy that you are still with us. People noticed that you were gone (see in your old thread here in Mental).

    Take-away from your recent experiences should be that you are now FREE. Free to do what you need to turn your life around, be it going the fitness route, or stuffing yourself silly with donuts and accepting yourself and becoming a bear or change jobs/majors/careers. Don't expect stuff to be great overnight, but reward yourself for accomplishments. You've reached rock-bottom. Now show life your teeth and claw yourself back out of the hole.

    What's the worst that could happen? icon_wink.gif