Aug 15, 2008 7:54 AM GMT
Hey guys. I hope you can help me out here as Im stumped. Its a little of a crazy time for me. One. today would have been my fiance's birthday. He passed away 9-11-01 in the attacks agaisnt the World Trade Center. Ive been alone for most of that time mourning and really wondering if its okay or even the right time to move on. Almost thee years ago, I saw and later that day met a really amazing guy that I honeslty want as a friend. Something about him told me everything about him and who he was. He's become so much more and honestly I find myself now not just thinking but knowing its okay to move on. While we are friends before anything and NO ive never do anything sexual with this guy. He's a real gentelman whom belives in courtship which I greatly enjoy. We have been doing things from a long distance relationship aspect but thats changing. My job is moving closer to him and i get to see him more often. We are doing alot of the same hobbies together. I don't just think... I know I'm in love with this. He is the only other guy to really make my world so complete and the thing about it is... i dont think he's even really tried hard to. Its just kind of happening. It will be 3 years that I have known him on 9-23-05 and i want to get him something. I usually get him little thing from time to time like graphic tees, or polos, usually clothes since I'm a manager for Express. But I want to get him something more... he graduates from school soon and will be an accountant. Im just not sure what to get him. I want something that really expresses my love and affection for him but also the fact that yes he is my best friend. And thats how we treat each other first im confused on what to do. So here is the question... should I ditch the whole Frienship aspect and just take a chance and get something really like that makes it clear or... something intense but inbetween? Maybe you won't understand what im asking but for thoes that do. what would you do? we are not offically BFs but according to him we are dating and have been for a long while. Id say im more the "girl" in the relationship but like I said... I just dont know what to do. Im going to stop now since I think im rambling but I really would like some ideas. Please help anyway you can. Thanks again.