Sep 02, 2012 4:59 AM GMT
I'll start off by saying that I read the forums a lot and I think some of you guys have some really great advice that cheers me up. I've been having a lot of trouble getting a serious date in a very long time, and I really want a relationship. I am lonely to the point where it pains me and depresses me night and day, and I really just want someone to love and spend my time with. I have moved around so much over the past few years that many of my friends are now scattered throughout the UK, US and Ireland, and the loneliness is becoming totally overwhelming. Being gay has always been really hard on me, sadly at times, I can honestly confess to wishing there was a way I could become straight. I've also been having a lot of trouble getting any sort of a sustainable job, I only work about 20 hours a week, if i'm lucky. I'm a graduate from a very good university, and I always worked really hard at academics, and now I am having such a difficult time barely making it. And I absolutely hate where I live. Its a very poor, depressed area, and the people aren't very nice and the gays are vicious. All these things, but mainly my lack of a relationship or even a date, are making me depressed beyond belief. I'm sorry to take up everyone's time with this, but if anyone has been a situation like this, or anyone could share a few words of support, it would really mean a lot to me.