Oh, wow. I'm not really sure what to say... I'm shocked (not for the first time this week). I never expected to check my email and see a bunch of messages from RJ since I haven't been very active on here lately.
I thought about posting when I first started getting tested for the lump in my throat, but I didn't want anyone to think I was fishing for sympathy. Yes, I know that's ridiculous.
Now that I've been officially diagnosed with lymphoma, I'll gladly take sympathy, thoughts, free cocktails.
It's been a rough couple of weeks. I actually went to the little room in the back of a CVS drugstore to see if they knew why my glands were swollen. I thought they'd give me an antibiotic and send me on my way. When they couldn't figure out what was wrong with me, I went to an Ear Nose Throat specialist who got me a CT scan and a fine needle aspiration. A week later he told me I had follicular lymphoma, which is a common type of non-hodgkin's lymphoma. It is incurable, but very treatable.
I had surgery to remove the swollen lymph node and I got another set of scans. They told me I'm Stage 3 because they've found lymphoma in my spleen. I also had a bone marrow test, which was loads of fun! I thought I was going to rip the end of the medical table off. I'm supposed to start chemo next week, but they're concerned about my blood platelet count so we're still waiting for more tests. The not-knowing-what's-next is the worst part. I just want to get it done with.
My emotions are like a pendulum. I go from slightly sobbish "I don't know why this is happening to me" to "Hehe, I wonder if I can get medical marijuana."
Thanks for the emails and the messages of support. It's really cool to know there are people out there thinking of me. I guess I should get more active in the forums again!