Insecurities

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    Oct 09, 2012 11:53 AM GMT

    Drag queens, gentlemen, confused boys and seasoned men. . .
    I know all about 'self-confidence' and being insecure.

    All through out my life people have told me I was ugly, too skinny, too tall, too goofy or too weird to 'fit in'. I saw myself as a monster, something that no one wanted to be around. All of those years of mental torture and psychological bullying fucked me up big time.
    I tried so many ways of making myself more socially and sexually attractive.
    I joined many social groups such as footall, baseball, basketball, cheerleading, tennis and choir. I didn't realize how many friends, and loved ones loved me for me until I had finally stopped believing what other people usd to tell me.
    "You're ugly!"
    "You're gay!"
    "You're stupid!"

    The moment I stopped believing what other people thought of me, was the moment it was completely clear.
    I am not ugly, I am happily gay and I'm very smart.

    Thankfully I have moved on from that though. For 9 nines of my life I lived in constant misery because I cared too much about what other people thought of me.

    You don't have to!

    Because we're gay, bisexual, bicurious, drag queens, transgendered or closetted makes us more vulnerable to hateful people.
    I don't want anyone to live their life as I used to live mine.
    Honey, no matter what other people call or tell you, you must love yourself and absolutely everything about you.

    Question to the audience:
    Has anyone else gone through something like this?
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    Oct 09, 2012 7:44 PM GMT
    Healing from the torment of my past has given me freedom from the hell of the future. It brings me joy today, which is the most important day of my life.
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    Oct 09, 2012 7:49 PM GMT
    deltalimen saidHealing from the torment of my past has given me freedom from the hell of the future. It brings me joy today, which is the most important day of my life.


    This. Keep it up, OP. You seem to be heading down the right path.

    PS--I thought this thread would be about the stock maket. The title fits.
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    Oct 09, 2012 7:51 PM GMT
    I don't let anyone have power of what I think of myself anymore... though once in a while its good to know who thinks they can get a hand over me... *sigh*
    It's really more pathetic to be the one trying to bring someone else down in that way... just shows you how pathetic a person they really are at their core, for buying the lie that "I'm weak" enough to be fooled by their stupidity. On the bright side, at least I know who is truly worthwhile, and whose character reeks of bullshit, underneath their pretty and polished veneers.
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    Oct 11, 2012 12:27 AM GMT
    Yeah, I've been there. Then later in life I realized there were two groups of people...those who run you down, and those who pick you up.

    It's your choice which group you listen to. icon_wink.gif
  • HottJoe

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    Oct 12, 2012 7:49 PM GMT
    mecmignon93Question to the audience:
    Has anyone else gone through something like this?


    Yes, and they became Lady Gaga fans.icon_biggrin.gif
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    Oct 24, 2012 5:47 PM GMT
    I have gone out with women and men all my life so I have felt that for 40 years not knowing who I was and occasionally getting called names or rejected. But now I've found myself too and am content and happy pretty much. It sometimes takes a long time. So if you are 20 years old or so, don't expect things to change right away. Just take it as a learning experience and move on. Talk with friends and if possible relatives to release your pain.