Anxiety Attacks suck!

  • metalxracr

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    Sep 03, 2008 7:40 AM GMT
    For quite sometime, I've been working out in the morning, going to school and work, nonstop. It has become a habit ingrained in my internal clock I guess.

    So recently I had gone back to my home town to go visit, but it's a small town and nothing goes on there, ever! I figured I'd take small vacation and relax. I was supposed to be there spending time with fam and old friends for three weeks! However, I felt so extremely anxious to get back to LA, and I began to get so nervous and a little panicky. I noticed if I do workout it helps me a little bit.

    I started to freak the eff out because I felt so useless and the town and life was dragging so slow, it was making me sick! Literally! I told my parents what was going and I left immediately, I lasted just about a week.

    Getting back to LA was such a relief, but I still felt weird, and I'd sometimes get light headed. I still had off at work though. I was preparing to start school and hadn't worked out in about 4 days and each day i felt worse and worse! I was on the verge of fainting several times, then last night, I completely flipped out!

    I got so nervous, I couldn't breath, I was sweating so much, and I felt like my heart was beating a million miles a second. I felt I was about to pass out and I had go to the hospital. I had no idea what was going on, but I was told I was having a major anxiety attack!

    Today, I got into my normal schedule and I feel completely normal again as if nothing ever happened! I was given a prescription, but I don't think I'll be needing it. I just think that's so strange, it scared me I had never experienced anything like it!

    Now I'm scared to take any kind of vacation!
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    Sep 03, 2008 3:57 PM GMT
    Ugh, that sucks. I feel you. When I was in college I was in a very competitive major and spent all my summer vacations trying to get ahead in classes I was going to start taking in the Fall.

    I'm much more relaxed now. It's in part just cuz school is very hectic. I mean college is a very life-changing experience: the people you meet, the things you learn inside and outside of class, all in 4 years.

    I would suggest that when you go on a vacation, perhaps go on a little more of structured one cuz it sounds like you do well with structure. Take a water rafting trip in the Grand Canyon where they have guides, or just go on a road trip where you're trying to get to certain destinations. But if you leave your free time unstructured, you won't know what to do with yourself.

    I would say most people are able in their free time to do things like pick up a book and read it ... but to guys like you and me (if I'm reading you correctly), that sorta thing feels like a waste of time.
  • olden

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    Sep 03, 2008 3:58 PM GMT
    You have become a typical urban Californian. I am one too, or was one. We get so used to having every minute of our day on some schedule, project deadlines, business lunches, we have forgotten how to relax. I used to hate vacations. I felt I was wasting time just sitting looking at scenery, talking to old friends, not doing anything that I considered important.

    Finally I said, F*** that mindset. Of course, it took a heart attack and quint bypass to make me slow down. PLEASE, make yourself relax before your health goes. The first week is hard, especially if you go cold turkey, like going home to rural environment. The second week is better. You don't feel quite as guilty. By the third week, you find you are actually enjoying yourself. Then, get in the habit of taking minivacations to get away and relax on your own - a drive up or down the CA coast, four days at Lake Tahoe, etc.

    It took me a long time to learn, but I finally understood what people meant when they told me if I wanted to determine my lasting impact, to put my fist in a bucket of water. Then take my hand out and measure how long the hole stayed there in the water.

    Good luck and happy relaxation.
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    Sep 03, 2008 4:36 PM GMT
    i am no expert but maybe you had a first "attack" of what we here call "hyperventilation": watch your breathing, breathing from the stomach is so important!
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    Sep 03, 2008 7:25 PM GMT
    My brother, sister, boyfriend and another close friend all get anxiety attacks. They have found this book: Living with IT by Bev Aisbett to be really helpful. It's really short, like a comic book, but with easy practical steps on how to get through them.
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    Sep 04, 2008 1:32 AM GMT
    Yikes! I'm having one right now.

    I applied for a position in another city and just received a phone call for an interview.

    I'm leaving my only home for personal reasons but am very secure here. I'm panicking at thought of just moving forward with the process.

    It's crazy, I know. One foot in front of another.
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    Sep 04, 2008 1:57 AM GMT

    There's panic attacks and then there's er, panic attacks.

    Some have panic attacks and are diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.
    Others have panic attacks where there's an underlying reason.
    Just a guess, but maybe returning to the ol' place of growing up where the atmosphere felt stifling (slow and like nothing was EVER going to happen) brought back some unpleasant sensations which just may have been what caused you to move away in the first place.
    Next time, just plan a day or two trip to another city where there's lots of excitement and big things going on. Concerts, plays, culture, tours, clubs (if you like that) etc. See how you feel. Take a friend.
    Every time I returned to the old home town I felt pretty anxious and felt pretty bleh about the people there. Profound ennui that made me want to run screaming down the highway. heheh. Now, at 53, I moved back and find it sweetly nostalgic because over the years I've changed and now seek the slower pace and many familiar faces that swim up out of my long ago-s.
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    Sep 04, 2008 2:02 AM GMT
    sorry, may have been confusing earlier. I have only lived in one city and am contemplating moving to another.

    With an interview in place, I'm suddenly getting cold, terrified feet.
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    Sep 04, 2008 2:19 AM GMT

    Hey 26mileman,

    Luckily it's only an interview, whew! so you can always decline the position. But, that said, you never know, you just might really love it! I was panicked when the bank transferred me to Nelson BC back in the 70's, but once I got there, I felt pretty good. ( I told myself I could always move again.)

    Where are you thinking of moving to? Calgary, somewhere in BC, back East?
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    Sep 04, 2008 2:41 AM GMT
    Victoria. It has everything I love, year round running, a long gardening season and old character.

    It's just like the first day of school is all. I'm usually in better control of my life than to feel this way.
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    Sep 04, 2008 2:56 AM GMT

    OMG you'll LOVE Victoria!!!! It DOES have everything fitness and more. We were ready to sell our Mothers on the international sweat shop market to get there. heheh. Seamstress anyone?

    House prices here are falling and you could, if in the buying mood, purchase something sweet, hopefully from around 1900-1920. Too. Cool.

    Here's to you ace-ing the interview; that you'll have a choice whether to go or stay. (choices, we like choices.)
  • vj2004t

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    Sep 04, 2008 3:09 AM GMT
    I used get them I had my doctor to give me some zanex and only take them when needed. Just a idea.