My First Rant, Yay =) (Read to protect yourself from the FBI Virus)

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    Nov 12, 2012 9:57 PM GMT
    Long Story Short: My mom found out I watch porn, now she doesn't trust/respect me. Come out now and take my chances or wait till I'm completely independant?

    So a couple days ago my internet security subscription ran out. Usually it still protects me, so I didn't give it much thought. Yesterday while surfing the web, A message appeared from the FBI that said I had broken several laws including either downloading content illegally, or watching/distributing pornography. I assumed the latter was false since I hadn't viewed porn for a while, but I didn't know if I did download something I shouldn't have. And it completely locked my computer. After freaking out and telling my brother and mom, we didn't know what to do.

    My mom asked me if I had been viewing pornographic content. She was giving me the death stare any scared child knows of and tries to avoid, so I gave in and said yes. She looked at me like I just killed someone. (Thank goodness she doesn't know that it was gay porn. That would have killed her on the spot).

    So after freaking out a bit we started thinking rationally, and one thing kinda stood out. At the bottom of the screen, it said that we needed to pay a $200 Fine, (and even recommended a money card to buy and where to buy it) and if we paid after 1-48 hours the computer would unlock. Since it didn't give any numbers to call, we started getting suspicious. After some research, we found out there is a FBI virus scam, where the computer is locked, saying FBI and a bunch of legal junk, and you can't unlock it unless you pay the fee, or get rid of the virus. Then I found a picture of the scam that matched my screen perfectly. So after downloading a new virus protection software, and scanning my computer (on a separate computer account) the FBI warning was gone.

    I was relieved that I wasn't in legal trouble, but then I realized "Now my mom knows I watch porn." The whole night she kept saying, "You shouldn't watch that stuff" "Its like drugs, you'll get addicted" "You know any secret you keep is gonna come out" etc etc. Basically she just sees me as some perverted sex fiend now.

    So at first I was a bit ashamed, then I started thinking "What the heck, I'm an adult I'll do what I want." So I don't know what to do now. Obviously she doesn't trust me anymore (who knows why) But most importantly, If she's like this finding out I watch porn, how will she react when I come out?
    So my mind has been racing "Should I stay in the closet forever?" "Should I come out now, plead my case and take my chances?" "Do I even want to keep living with her?" (Our relationship has been kinda rocky lately anyways)
    I have another option, living with my dad, but my financial situation is unstable no matter what happens. Even if I can get a job, I won't be able to payfor school.

    So for those of you kind enough to read the whole thing, what do you think?
    Stay in the closet? Come out now? Deal with it later? If she doesn't kick me out and still helps pay for my school even after coming out obviously I'll stay stay with her, but I CANT STAND THE WAY SHE LOOKS AT ME NOW. And I know it'll be worst if I come out.

    The pain of living in the closet is bad, but I don't want to come out and ruin my plan for the next couple of years and finally getting a goodjob.
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    Nov 13, 2012 1:24 AM GMT
    Come out now while you're on top. You can always stand up for yourself and regain your parents' respect; but they'll never respect you if they find out you've been lying about your sexuality all along.

    As for the virus, we got that on two public computers today at work (WITH virus protection). Apparently some of the customers had been watching gay porn. icon_lol.gif
  • Webster666

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    Nov 13, 2012 1:36 AM GMT
    paulflexes saidCome out now while you're on top. You can always stand up for yourself and regain your parents' respect; but they'll never respect you if they find out you've been lying about your sexuality all along.

    As for the virus, we got that on two public computers today at work (WITH virus protection). Apparently some of the customers had been watching gay porn. icon_lol.gif




    Are you kidding.
    ALL parents who would go ballistic if they found out for sure that their son were gay, WANT him to lie about his sexuality. For them, unless the son SAYS that he's gay, then it isn't so.

    My advice is to keep things the way they are until you graduate from school and get a good job. Then, you'll be financially free to MOVE OUT, and be yourself, and to tell your parents that you're gay.
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    Nov 13, 2012 2:25 AM GMT
    When the situation is good for you to stand on your own to feet without any help, then come out. Regarding the porn, you shouldn't really care because you're an adult you can watch whatever you want. Porn is kind of like masturbating, you know that everyone does it yet the people that do it still look down on you for doing it. Your mother must have watched porn before, so she can't judge you and regardless it's not ruining your life like some kind of porn addict. Just ignore her stares and comments, be patient until you can come out and not feel threatened by anything.
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    Nov 13, 2012 2:45 AM GMT
    I'd wait until you completely independent. Just so you you know you're safe no matter what the outcome might be icon_smile.gif
  • AMoonHawk

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    Nov 13, 2012 3:42 AM GMT
    You should say it was research for a term paper you are writing on the pornography industry. icon_biggrin.gif