Man, so sorry to hear you're going through this... sometimes friends mean well, when they say things about the other guy, not realizing it actually intensifies the situation for you.... I really believe it's great that you've come here to seek support. It's a helluvalot better than sulking on your pillow.. You'll have to allow the grieving, of course.. which is never easy. On the other hand, Just don't close yourself off to future possibilities of love in the future, like so many do, which ultimately creates the paradox you find yourself in, now.
.. Having allowed yourself to become vulnerable enough to actually fall in love, even though in a short time is his loss, not yours. There are many of us out here that are hopeless romantics. I'm just not clear on why none of us ever seem to connect so easily. Well, we're cheering for ya! here for ya! You deserve nothing less than the love you truly desire my friend.. Roc
un abbraccio fortissimo!! ( a great big HUG)..