foosballwizard saidDoes anyone else feel like this when it comes to guys in your immediate area. I can't help but chuckle at this because the running joke for straight women was the reverse: "Why are all the hot guys gay?" What I want to know is, where the hell are these hot gay guys?!?!
For years, especially in my youth, I always found myself attracted to straight guys. Never mind that some of them would, on occasion, fool around. Although that could be fun, I wanted more. For one thing, I wanted to be wanted as much as I wanted them and that wasn't happening.
Ok, this is true for me and may not relate to you at all but here goes: Somewhere along the way I figured out that my attraction to straight guys was a subtle form of my own internalized homophobia. I was actually "afraid" to be attracted to gay guys. As a matter of fact, I got approached on several occasions by perfectly decent guys but because of my own fear of my own passion, I rejected them. Also, this helped keep me invulnerable emotionally. Once I *realized* this I began to change and not too long afterward found myself in my first LTR.