Reevaluating my life and moving forward

  • Kromethius

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    Dec 20, 2012 2:22 AM GMT
    Ive made a plethora of forum posts exclaiming to you guys about this dude I found on here and was suppposedly dating me for 6 months but after all the hang ups and being ditched I realized what you guys were saying all along. I deserve better and should work on my positive self worth for others to be magnetized to my personal attributes. Going forward, I plan on renovating my outlook on life and people as well as relationships and want to start over with how I approach relationships whether it be a lover or friendship. Right now I guess you can say that I am depressed about the turn of events from that guy making new profile after he supposedly deleted his and how he ditched me when we were supposed to meet the first time. right now I don't know what to do with my time that school is out I don't have many friends to rely on or chill with and all i have is my job which doesn't give me much hours since im back for the holidays so i want to know what things besides the gym can i do to improve my outlook and meet guys.

    P.S. I want to really take this time and thank all those who participated minutes of their days just to help and give me plentiful of advice
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    Dec 20, 2012 2:25 AM GMT
    Take up an outdoor hobby or sport, and mingle with people.

    It's amazing how many non-scene gays are out there. icon_wink.gif
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    Dec 20, 2012 2:26 AM GMT
    Nott rying to be negative but real jock dating will be a nightmare sooner or later..............real life is always better.
  • Kriss

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    Dec 20, 2012 2:27 AM GMT
    Glad to see your doing better,

    and focusing a bit more on yourself! Paulflexes is right take up a hobby or a sport mingle with people a bit. Stick your neck out and make some new friends!
  • goodmagic

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    Dec 20, 2012 2:28 AM GMT
    Perserverance saidNott rying to be negative but real jock dating will be a nightmare sooner or later..............real life is always better.
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  • goodmagic

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    Dec 20, 2012 2:38 AM GMT
    I think you got caught up in the fantasy that happens with some online relationships. Since this is a free website I would not put any stock in the promises of anyone you chat with on here. If you were on a pay site like match.com if would be different because those people on there are making an investment to find a relationship. Also why are you talking to someone long distance? Don't ever build a long distance love affair It's bad business. Friends or fuck buddies only. In the end you have to ask yourself is this relationship productive? If it's making you anxious, got you fantasizing, or got you depressed it's not.
  • Kromethius

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    Dec 20, 2012 2:41 AM GMT
    well i don't want to dip in the past but he got a phone we talked for months and i got his pics he made a facebook but secretely made a new realjock account the day after he made a facebook one and he didn't meet me when he said he was 30 min away after flying from chicago to texas.... but I don't know where to search and right now my mom is helping me find a psychologist to help me deal with my anxiety and depression of being stubborn and unwilling to believe in change
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    Dec 20, 2012 2:43 AM GMT
    Pain will make you grow. Pain will challenge you to reach your next height of self understanding.....Only you can determine what the pain teaches you.
  • Kromethius

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    Dec 20, 2012 2:47 AM GMT
    but he is on realjock and is probably trying to do the exact same thing to someone elses heart like he did mine and its hard for me to move on knowing someone so evil yet cynical will do that to another innocent guy as well as not knowing the true meaning of why he did that. See there I go again dipping back into the past but i feel like i have no one since i shut out from high school since I was worried about being gay
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    Dec 20, 2012 2:50 AM GMT
    Ask urself.... if u have the power to control his actions?Do you think you can change him? If this is a fresh wound then let the pain continue and you will be better. So what if he continues to harm another person..............pain is the experience to teach you to be smarter and stronger in life.
  • Kromethius

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    Dec 20, 2012 2:52 AM GMT
    but i feel so vulnerable considering i only have this computer as a tool to find other friends or a relationship because i live in a highly conservative area where the model guy is a white christian male everyone just asks me for hook ups like im a piece of meat. And yea you are right it is a flesh wound but he was really deep and i heard the times when he cried and his family and such
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    Dec 20, 2012 2:57 AM GMT
    MIS37 saidbut i feel so vulnerable considering i only have this computer as a tool to find other friends or a relationship because i live in a highly conservative area where the model guy is a white christian male everyone just asks me for hook ups like im a piece of meat. And yea you are right it is a flesh wound but he was really deep and i heard the times when he cried and his family and such


    Then you should prove to yourself what you are capable of.....Channel your rage or pain into something positive....show yourself that you are capable and stronger than you can ever be.....and expect that gay people are sexual....the promiscuous one that is...

    Don't feel sorry for yourself but channel it into something that can make you stand strong against all obstacles!

    If you need to cry, cry as much as you can.....but get up and wipe your tears.... human are capable to have absolute determination.
  • Kromethius

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    Dec 20, 2012 2:58 AM GMT
    I really feel like i don't have anything to do though thats the thing besides starting my membership next week...
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    Dec 20, 2012 3:07 AM GMT
    MIS37 saidI really feel like i don't have anything to do though thats the thing besides starting my membership next week...


    It will pass and give it time...you are only 20. The only thing I can say is pain will make you grow so accept it and try your best to think rational and control yourself.